yesterday
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wenta hospital with mum & dad , aunt & grandma to visit grandpa . & i realised that he became skinny ! really skinny than before . heartache lahs ): he is inside like bout three months already because he got this infection from that hospital . tha fees is like $8000 . i mean if its not because of tha infection , grandpa also dun need to say fer months . & they want my mum to pay all that with all her medifund . then when she gets older , what if she have illnesses . choy ! what will happen to her ? this is so unreasonable . i was so pissed off , so while tha doctor is explaning , i kept staring at him . i felt like giving him a punch >.< BAHHH !

dad tried to talk to him & asked fer financial help . because grandma & other aunts do not have the medifund . only mum have . so they cant expect mum and the rest to pay with cash . as if we are rich family ! then then , they kept talking , mumbling , sort of complaining . it continues & continues till it stops when the adults found a way to solve tha problem ! seriously , tha doctor is having difficulties & we knw that . so dad have to talk to the social worker first . if the case cant be look into again , grandma & aunts will look for i-dont-know-what-that-person-called for financial help , like my big uncle who is in mental hospital & i suddenly miss him so much although i've nvr seen him before because mum dont let me go there with her ): sad.

after that so-called meeting , we went off & dad drove us to bp plaza , had some shoppings . went home ! : DD

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today !

i had FOUR pathetic hours of math lesson . tiring , sleepy , moody , blah blah blah ~ etc . tml is the same too so that after christmas , i dont have to come back anymore ! so i shall suffer now fer this week . hais ! after tha tiring math lesson , i went to wait fer winnie outside school . & waited fer michelle . she went off , winnie & i wenta greenridge makan . saw linming , like crap ! lols , he didn change lahs . still the same , somemore stay in the same block with me .

i went home after that ! winnie went to find jeanie that zibi . im watching tv later (:

i shall hypnotize myself ~
slim down , slim down , slim down ! LIMIN !

I BOUGHT A CUTE PINK CACTUS HOME : DDD


unloved ; i said .

here to post ! : D ytd night wenta alvinn's birthday party at his house . i will cut it short , im just so damn lazy to write everything out in details . met michelle at senja , bought presents fer him . then decided to walk from bp plaza to his house . lols , its quite far . nvm lahs , exercise mahs . reached there , saw alot of my school peeps . christine , natalie , peipei , eric , shandy , etc . alot lohs . didn eat alot . jian fei (: hehe .

went to tha highest floor with michelle & nat . tha view is so prettaye lahs . alot of stars . chit-chat . saw my primary school friend too . then we all gathered up to highest floor & he started to talk bout ghost story . ohkays , i didn get shocked . phew ~ hehs . went home with nat & michelle like about ten plus . cabbed home , michelle & i wenta to greenridge 7eleven bought things . she came my house to ton . hehe ! are u jealous , jeanie ? : x at about midnight three plus slept.

this morning , ate breakfast . & she went home .

overall , it's fun and enjoyable ehs (:

jeanie , lets go out soon .

MIN

im bored & i guess im going out tml . yeps , to alvinn's birthday party . ouhs , he needs doraemon ! hahaa : D i shall buy alot of them for him . && tml is timothy's birthday . im wondering if i should do a blogskin . because im plain lazy but im sick of this blogskin already . how ? duhs , i cant decide.

im reading books ytd & today . i think im gonna be bookworm soon . hahs ! but can improve my english uhs .

things are changing & i've no control in them .
my agony *


unloved.

love it , it'll love you back.




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im feeling emo today ): sad sad sad . can i skip tml tution ? >.< lazy sia .

i dont understand why he want me to hate him?
for what reason ehs ? T.T

this is stupid .

today is a special day to me . actually , i didnknw what to say . and didn knw how i really feel .. but today is a day i will never forget for life bahs (: its like one year already ,

i miss everything ..

wenta school today , after that went to eat with michelle . chat alot , play alot and then went home . i felt sleepy ehs T.T

min

going out later . wenta school today morning . i was so sleepy , intend to skip but end up still went . & i was late T.T im feeling ):

tml im going out again . perhaps , to the beach ? no idea . im waiting for michelle now . sickening , faster lahs ! >.< im sleeping soon ehs.

lovelove !

a day out to zoo . since many many years .

we can act like a kid and play like hell . but we can have a matured thinking .

a picture can tell thousands words . so i wont say much .

" jeanie , may this friendship last forever . i lovelove you ! :D its been like 3 years soon ... this is fate , you knw (: "

me & jeanie (:


pigs . species like me : x

i dont deny .


snakes . shoo ~ : /

2nd . friendship last ;

i'll stand with tha shortest woodman :D

i cant smile lahs , sicko !

jeanie with tha giraffe :D

jeanie , tha retarded !


penguin . very cute lahs .

felt like watching happy feet , lols .

kangaroo (: jeanie , yr same species.

scenery *

this i dontknw what- monkey hate jeanie .

3rd . sisters uhs .

you see jeanie's head ! like got two horns .

hahaa . stupid birdbird.


zilians . jeanie !


pony pony -tail :DD

retardness . superman ?

hahaa . my POSE (: hehs.


jeanie . zibi ! :D you got so many nicknames lehs.

4th . shot (: 1 2 3

why cant i smile !?! duhs T.T

i tried to talk to this parrot with my niao language .

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i miss winnie & michelle . lets go out soon ohkay ? hehs . after tha zoo thangy , took bus back to cck . & took lrt to greenridge , makan lohs . ate alot -.- how to slim down sehs . went to my house & jeanie helped me in my guides project . thenthen wenta plaza , bought my pencil eyeliner . jeanie say not really good . cheap mahs . hahaa ! she wenta buy her hairband . then met weiming & his cousin . walked home . jeanie got weiming sent her home . good huhs ? hehs .

loves , will be back to post soon . have to send jeanie those pictures.

i think i will leave it alone . i wont think of it anymore . no more . it wont bother me anymore , i promise . i want to be happy like i used to be .

min : DD

have been really vexed this few days . maybe .. that day is coming & it makes me think alot of the past . do i still have feelings for him ? or .. not at all anymore ? its been like one year soon .

but ... the sight of him ...
or is it my feeling for him is too strong that time .
& it got me in wrong idea that my feelings is still there .
he's tha only guy who made me fall for so badly & cry so badly.
12th ? i ... donthave any rights to talk about it anymore ..

i .. dontwant to think of it anymore.

today is a special day . because mum & dad married 21 years already (: happy anniversary ! wenta school today to have remedial . ouhs , for every week wednesday , tha time changed already . hehs , im going for wedding dinner on tha 11th . walked home alone , because today sth very suay happened T.T

tml stay at home bahs . or ? i dontknw
my flu haven recover and it makes me so sleepy .


MIN

back & i feel so sleep . this morning , michelle came to my hse and return my umbrella and lent me tha vcd. one plus , i met up with cheryl to meet tha others at cck lrt station . & the two of them were late . nvm , i xi guan lers . hahaa , then took mrt to yio chu kang & walked to nanyang poly . had briefing , walked to their food lab and took a look . ended !

wenta causeway as we were hungy . cheryl went home (: walked to cinema then to arcade & took mrt back to cck . walked to that auntie house . ouhs , i get my haircut already . jeanie also . its like already eight plus . wenta lot one to buy hair spray . took neoprints . michelle wenta find her mum . jeanie & i went home . im dead tired and i've school tml . morning , 8.30am . T.T

loves <3s
go away , sorethroat .
it hurts . flu , please go away too .
when i talk , its painful . i shall talk less ~


MIN

wenta school on monday , tuesday , wednesday for every week till the end of christmas . uhs , to do maths for two hours. slack after it . ouhs , i didn go today because nazura and tha rest wasnt free but im going tml . im meeting jeanie , cheryl and michelle later at cck to nanyang poly for tha mania thingy .

then after that , im going for a cut . my hair might curl -.- duhs , i dontknw sia. sians , im hungry ! >.< food ~ food ~ food ~

its gonna be one year soon since i ....
hais

unloved

suddenly feel so emo . ouhs , im really tired. went to school today . after that , slacked and ate at greenridge. went to lot 1 , met up with weiming , kurt's bro and kurt . home(: im tired of reading those posts which gets on my nerves . it makes me guilty to knw that we caused him to quarrel with his friends . im sick of telling people not to comment bout things they dontknw . im sick of everything ! i felt like scolding vulgarities . i felt like settle all this thing. ouhs ! and we knw wad we want , not we dontknow. just a simple apology . thats all .

i wont wanna to scold anymore . i wont wanna care anymore . im dead tired of it . sick of it but im fucking angry too . i dontwant to post another one with full of vulgarities when im super extreme damn angry .

maybe i should scold and grumble about everything in my secret blog with all kinds of vulgarities and make me feel much better inside . im feeling fucks terrible inside because i cant say anything harsh words out anymore because i donwant it to be stir up again .

i felt like changing my blog url . & for this time i wont let those not-so-close friends knw. let's see bahs.. depends. maybe i would change my decision . maybe i wont even let my close friends knw too . dont search for it .




MIN

i've lots to say . too much to say , too much to talk bout how i feel . maybe it starts from me . if i dontknw him , if i nvr even get started with him , i wont knw kurt , weiming and others . & then we wont be there on that day & things will not go on till this stage . sorry eh ? i dunknw if im correct to say sorry because i still think im not in the wrong. but hell no to say sorry to you . is to myself and my girlfriends . i didn knw a happy party will end up like this . i think no one expect this happen , especially us .

maybe i shouldnt agree on going there , maybe i should just bloody hell hate him and didn even care to go to his party so that we wont be there . so that we wont get such comments and start bickering at each other . or maybe we should just go off after giving tha present . zl , i knw you will read my blog . i knw you will side yr friends or maybe u will just kept silent . maybe i should even say sorry to you , making your life difficult .making everyone's life difficult .

this matter is gonna rest one day with fucking good apologies. or maybe i should just keep my mouth shut and do tha same like before. forgive and forget . you can say im too much . ouhh , blog is a place to scream out everything, right ? so if YOU , YOU or YOU dont like my post , you can just click on top right corner and press tha X . i would be glad if you do that . am i too harsh ?

if it continues , it wont make yr life and our life better .
scolding people makes me older . duhs -.-

girlfriends , write a post to scream out and scold out all you want . but let that post be tha last one , ohkay ? if only we cant take it anymore, we shall just vent it all out again. so just let us calm down , forgive and forget . because when im reading those post you two wrote . im getting angrier and damn bu fu qi . soooo , lets just stop it . we dont have to say any sorry or make any apologies . just like wad razis said , jealousy lahs .

just let all this things stop . maybe we can be friends after a nice talk. i mean it , friends .

seriously, im feeling superb upset , sad , angry , etc . NEGATIVE feelings -
): im really feeling very very very upset . hais



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im totally speechless : x heard alot of things , saw alot of things which i dont wish to know . who's tha one reasonable ? im tired of this SICK thangs going on . it wont stop unless ... maybe its all link , maybe its just because im .... but if it is like this . wad wrong things i did ? i didn even do anything wrong to him . so if its just because of this , i didn do any wrong things. & im not gonna say sorry first . im not going to give in this time .

we got angry because theres a reason . we didn even provoke you , we didn even gossips bout you . & we must we receive such comments ? its totally unfair . i dontwant make things worser and i dontwant weiming to be wei nan .

stupid thangs !

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ytd night , conference with michelle , weiming and jeanie . michelle was so du lan , hahs . didn say really that much , i was kinda angry too but better than afternoon lohs . we crap alot , scold alot , talk alot (: ouhs , and laugh alot too because we have two jokers mahs . then suddenly , weiming shouted . we three kept silent also cause it was damn scary and damn loud. he got more du lan than us. but nvm lahs , he got moodswing . jie mei mahs . he can from dulan to happy and then change back again . hahaa : D

later part , kurt called in . that rooster kept saying stupid thangs and they laughed . very diaoo ders -.-

my mood is seriously spoiled.


MIN

went to sleep just now to forget some thangs on my head . before that , michelle told me sth . ouhs , so its tha whole table . how pathetic i am -.- i feel so hated by people suddenly . anyway , i wont care because they dun even understand me. hahaa : DD i suddenly miss alvinn & etc school friends so much .. nvm uhs , alvinn's bbq birthday party is coming & im sure i'll get very fun there.

im still feeling not very good uhs . you know wad ? i'll remember all this . or maybe i shall just forgive and forget .

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GET THIS CLEAR . i hate people commenting bout stuffs they dontknw . whats wrong if we are liddat . you dontknw how we feel & you gave such comment . why dont you be us and feel how extras we are . we dont even knw tha people there . what do you EXPECT us to do ? go to everyone's face and say HELLOS :D , is it ? they might think im insane and crazy . HELLOS !?! FOUR PEOPLE ONLY . FOUR ONLY !

ITS VERY FRUSTRATING , IRRITATED , DULAN got to see that comment . maybe i shouldnt even go and see it . i thought you guys are still nice peoples and didn even ever THOUGHT that it ended up liddat. I HATE IT , fucks hate it . just like what i said before. PLEASE DONT FUCKS ASSUME BOUT MY CHARACTER IF YOU DONTKNW ANYTHING BOUT ME . any single bout it ! i can be nice to you if you did tha same to me .

i just wanna vent my anger . just dont let me see you , or else i'll go very mad at you . i dontwant to scold , i dontlike to scold people . BUT PLEASE ! know us before u talk bout us . i hate that two words of yours .

scram , please .
i dont want to scold any vulgarities again .
make this tha last time .

boilings*

im tired . really , i regreted . REGRETED SO MUCH . HELL NO TO ^&@^!~# .
im really sick of this . FUCKS SICK .

& today i knew that my school friends are so great .

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i think im tired or maybe im not : / was on tha phone with winnie , michelle and tha rooster ytd . hahaa : DD then winnie hang up tha call . we three continued till like from midnight twelve to morning four plus . li hai bahs ! hahaa. ouhs , he talked bout his story ~ & i was listening on how michelle and tha rooster kept quarreling . ya da ya da ~ they wont stop ders . hahaa !

crappings ~

dad is shouting at his worker on tha phone now . damn scary -.- this few days , i cant sleep well . i dunknw why . frustrated ! mum went to malaysia . erkor at night go out . dakor maybe go camp . dad sure not at home de. which means im alone at home again ! ~$%@^# everytime liddat -.- im not gonna eat at night lahs . since im lazy to go out and i dun wish to eat .

no money ! $$ hais .


MIN

afternoon : D im back from zhenlu's birthday celebration at marina bay . it was quite ohkay lahs . girlfriends reached my house at bout four plus . put mascara and stuffs , took bus to town and get his spongebob (: & theres still lots of time left so we wenta somerset mrt to settle down and let time flies . hahs , met up with weiming , huiteng , kurt & his cousin . took mrt to marina bay . i guess we were so isolated . cause we dontknw even knw tha people there . we were like so ... weiming cheated our feelings . haha ! said that half of it we know , end up was only one quarter . so i was sianhalfs . i only know four of them -.-

nvm . at first i was feeling really down so i msged him for help . my mood seriously like %#$!^! hahas , when we reached tha place . gave money to weiming and we settle down at a table . kurt can be a chef uhs (: im already fat still put all those meats on my plate . uhs ! i want to slim down lehs . i want only thirty plus kg. i'll only eat dinner from today onwards . kurt fed us till like we are pigs -.-

ouhs , tha thang i enjoy ytd was that thang i drank at there which made me feels better inside although after i drank it too much i felt kind of giddy -.- and also weiming's stupid actions . hahaa (: after all tha eatings , we stayed there to take photos . weiming is our jiemei ! lols . then we pei-ed winnie take bus to marina bay mrt station . she went home first cause she cant stay so late . waited for tha bus to come . michelle & weiming kept running for dunknw what reason . maybe poor michelle always got suan by him . lols . i didn knw rooster can run so fast lehs ! : x

tha bus was so slow lahs . so didn go to tha beach and we took mrt back home . sent michelle home and jeanie and i took lrt back . she took petir and i took senja back alone . although its quite scary going back alone but ohkays lahs. it made me more independent and strong : D hahaa. i reached home bout one . and i slept at two plus . kind of tired . happy belated birthday , zhenlu !

not to forget , weiming is a good entertainer ytd . you need not to say sorry lahs !

im sorry if i was too harsh . i didn expect myself to say that to him . i knw i was so unfriendly . i didn even dare to look into his eyes because i fear that its all hatred from me to him . i rather us being friends than enemies . i dontwant to be reminded of those hurts and sad thangs i've ever gone through . but at least i didn cry , i just want myself to be strong enough to face him . but its ohkay , i got over him already but its just those phobia i had . & i know that we can always be friends .

pictures !


saw that head ? is weiming uhs : D


kurt , tha chef ! hahaa : /


weiming , that GREAT entertainer .



MIN . JEANIE (:
* my eyebags are so thick . shucks !

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will be back to post ! : D
lovees -


MIN

im like half dead : x kept sneezing. im really feeling not so good . brr ! but maybe when i go out later , i wont sneeze again . everytyme liddat ders . everyday is tha same . eat , play comp , tv , sleep . hais , sians ! :D

i know i can face it confidently.


unloved

back ! winnie is crazy and horrible . tml going to marina bay at night till quite late . anyone can send me home ? hahaa : D i hate dentist !! & i hate cats.

wo yao jian fei ! >.<


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pei-ing winnie go for dental appointment at 5.45 . anything msg me . im feeling vexed . should i .. ?

min

went out with michelle . wenta eat at jack's place ( plaza ) then took bus to that same old place. took neos. not bad lahs , i dun like big neoprints ! i like small one . hahaa. in tha bus , was zilian-ing. she also . reached tha place , walked around. saw alot of clothes and shoes i want . ahhh , give me money ! $$ . then took bus back to plaza at around six . bought sweettalk and walked home.

on tha way back home , im feeling high . lols , i dunknw why . i think im abit crazy : DD hahaa . michelle is insane . she stood at a spot and didn move fer minutes. when i stared at her , then she moved . gong gong ~ tml pei winnie go fer her dental appointment. finally can meet her out -.-

stupid michelle passed her germs to me . im having flu now . hais : x



loves !


min

im going out later with michelle . ohkays , singapore is so small. & i dontknw where we are going . duhs -.- small singapore ~ im hungry ): hais , i miss winnie and she dont want to come out . nvm , next time okays ! i miss sulastri , i miss christine , i miss cheryl , i miss .... wondering if i should change my blogskin because i found one which is quite nice .

am i going on that day ?

can you feel that im losing my grip ?

anything msg me uhs : D
miss me ! : x


min

happy birthday , zhenlu (:

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i feel so great when i knw my friend get over with her ex already : DD im rotting at home this few days . going crazy soon . ya da ya da ~ people around me is troubled bout relationship . tried to help, tried to persuade . i've help what i can already . end up , nothing. DUHS . winnie , you own me a meal . hahaa ! im so busy today , helping her to ask questions . im nice -.-

nothing makes me really very very happy today . hais .

when was tha last smile i wore on my face ?

min.

i think im going to do nothing today . i dontknw ): i was angry at mum for dontknw what reason . she kept scolding me for stupid reasons. kind of pissed off - & i guess i was so rude . ya da ya da ~ i dont care lahs . hais

i dontknw if im going to make tha way to tha hospital with mum to visit grandpa . & i so so so miss my grandma . hais , but tha problem is im lazy ! DUHS .

craving for chocs* (:

MIN.

today is sososoooo ... boring ) :
my mouse spoilt. DUHS .
bad day , bad hair day .

i miss my girlfriends !

when i saw you ,
i couldnt help to stop my fast heartbeats.

min

TODAY (: at first im feeling real emo . i just dontknw why . twelve plus wenta school fer guides , school opening . so little people only . but i saw some really cute primary girls . and i saw pamela ! did some helpings . henna , stupid henna -.- i did some on my hands . yanling & jasmine are so great in it . i kept walking in and walking out of library . giving tha flyers . bored & its raining . i felt hollow inside ) ' :

had meeting with ms liew . ohkays , whatever it is . guides might not survive till next year unless more than twenty people became members in girlguides. i feel so uncomfortable .. hais , somemore i got plannings to do fer next year sec one . before 18 december . DUHS : / four plus , ended .

walked to greenridge with michelle , winnie & adeline . cheryl went home . saw razis , that good & stupid entertainer . hahaa , thanks k . went to photocopy my ic . walked home alone . after that , im feeling much better because someone did really funny actions :D , making me laugh .

but i guess .. its fer temporary .
hais , today isnt my day .

sophisticated.

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girls day !

im soo happy lahs . because its so long since tha four of us went out together . took bus to bugis & ate long john there . took neos (: we went to bugis but we didn walk around bugis street because jeanie is in hurry . so nvm ouhs . wenta simlim square as winnie want to buy her thang & it rained again . stupid weather .

took bus back to plaza. jeanie went to her grandma's house . tha three of us went to plaza awhile and then sit at a place to chitchat till eight plus . went home ! im feeling happy.

pics !


me & jeanie


again : D


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min .

hehs . its girls day today : D im gonna be back to post .

miss me : x hahaa .


min

im feeling emo ...

just came back from plaza & school . bought my books fer next year already : D then went home to put my books and settle all those things . cabbed to michelle's house . she put her books and we took bus to techwhye . she wenta take her mum's spectacles. thenthen , we took bus AGAIN to plaza .

makan at kopitiam . sho long nvr go there eat lers . so nice so nice (: hahaa . michelle is sickening ! nvmnvm , she spent her $50 in giodarno . rich huhs ? pity you uhs , no purple . purple dontlike you ~ after that , went to library and look fer books . we are so guai lohs (: ohkays , dont puke nahs . borrowed books nors , finally im not gonna be bored at night . sometimes , i really enjoy reading books -.- abnormal . saw alot of my sch peeps .

bought bubbletea & walked home with sickening michelleeee . BAHHH !
tml girls day ? i miss my three girlfriends !

woaini , ni shi wo de romeo .

min

i found that friends' mood affect my mood too . hais , & today i got so many shocking news . shock da hell outta me. this morning , i suddenly thought of sth about why i was liddat in tha past . i think it was quite stupid fer now . i was so stupid . ya da ya da ~

went out with my mushroom girlfriend , jeanie , just now ! so now left with winnie . shes so nice to treat me to kbox : DD cause its cheap lahs . hahaa , wenta JEC ders. then go take neoprints . i like it (: today is my day ! HAHAA -.- five plus , took mrt to town . walked around at cine and fareast . spotted alot of clothes and shoes . i want : D who can buy fer me . lols .

eight plus took bus home . then theres two boys use rubberbands aiming at me and jeanie . hahaa , he hit my finger. shucks ! nvm , i dont bully small didi . im nice : D not like michelle . bully people so much . reached tha bus-stop , wenta plaza and buy my milktea . walked home (:

i want money ! $$

emptiness-

im so silly . so silly ..

min

morning (: dontknow why i cant get into baidu . duhs , nvm ouhs . so i upload new youtube video clip to blog . on tha left side , 卓文萱 曹格 - 梁山伯与茱丽叶 . no more , rain ders move on : D i guess today also nvr go out lers bahs . i also dontknw ehs . & this morning , i was feeling so upset lahs . when she need me , i wasnt there . i was sleeping . uhs , so angry at myself . hais ,

guys are liddat . what no feeling anymore ?! then can kick us girls one side ahs . think that ownself can let go of it fast , girls also can liddat . not at all lohs . duhs , make her cry, you sicko ! i want to meet her tml nahs . hais : /if you read my blog uhs , hope you can get over with it fast . cry as much as you want to make yrself feel better .

i suddenly think back . but whatever it is (: im happy now . i dont have to cry over stupid thangs anymore . korkor went back to camp ytd night already . so thats mean im all alone at home again ! shucks .

tida tada tida tada -.-


unloved.

HELLOS : D my computer FINALLY ohkay already . hehs , im not gonna be so bored anymore . today stayed at home . & i cant tahan lahs . aku really want go out lahhs . my shoes : D AHHH ! nvm nvm . next week gonna go back to school and get my ic and my books fer next year. i want money ! this few weeks short of money lahs . go out also sians .

& im sorry . i didnknw you will go out alone just because ... sorry : x


unloved

back from changi chalet . & i guess i got so many surveys to take . DUHS . ohkays , 3B's chalet was so great . tha first day , bought bbq thangs and reached there at about two plus. did those necessary thangs. then the guys start tha fire . and at night wenta changi village bought thangs to eat . came back and saw sulastri ! ohkays , i so so so miss her ! : D

at night wenta beach with some guys . rebecca and cheryl still in tha chalet . smsed her to come and find me cause im tha only girl there . crap there . and singapore's sky is so pretty . alot of stars . very bright . damn nice lahs there. after that rebecca and cheryl came . ms chew also . ronnie kept on crapping . laugh like mad. teacher was so funny . i love that night <3

then , at night three plus came out . with them again to tha beach . then they saw ..... * zips my mouth * i got tha feeling also . but : x then kelvin was so shocked that his mouth FINALLY stopped. hahaa . went back to room , kept eating and chatting. five plus check out . wenta changi airport makan . went back home ! i was so sleepy ~

today , grandma was robbed . curse that malay guy !!! : x hahs . i miss my girlfriends . especially winnie . i felt so ... hais , when is tha day where all of us go out again ?

doing those surveys they asked me to do .
lovesss.

MIN !

Message: can u name 11 people u can think of right off the top of ur head ?don't read da question underneath until u rite da names of all 11 people .this is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list da name first . NO CHEATING

1. michelle
2. jeanie
3. winnie
4. mark
5. razis
6. christine
7. cheryl
8. rebecca
9. sulastri
10. ronnie
11. eric

how did u meet 10 ?
sec 3B lorhs . always act DUMB : x

wad would u do if u have never met 6 ?
one bestfriend gone !

have you ever seen 4 cry ?
nopes.

wad will u do if 6 and 2 dated ?
huhs . weird ehs

do u think 1 is pretty ?
yups . shes idiotic too.

tell me smth about number 11
cute ? and erms my childhood friend.

how do u noe 8 ?
primary school and now sec 3B : D

would u ever go on a date wif number 5 ?
diaos : x

wad's 7 favourite colour ?
pink.

wad would u do if 2 confessed tt he liked u ?
HELLOS ? i love her ! : D not les ahs.

Fact about 9.
i lovee lovvee her . shes sweet and pretty.

who is 6 goin out wif ?
i know but ZIPS .

who is number 5 to u ?
someone i can get along with .

would u ever live wif 11 ?
no . no

is 2 single ?
yes , she is . I LOVE my mushroom : p

how much does 3 mean to u ?
beloved girlfriend.

wad do u think about 1 ?
pretty , lame . CRAZY like mee.

wads da best thing bout number 8 ?
shes nice to me at times.

wad do u dislike about number 10 ?
SUANING MEEE . u sicko . stop acting DUMB : D

11 ppl tt i wan dem to do .
NO ONE . im NICEE : D

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sorry ! so long lers then do ! : x

1. Single , taken , wating or crushing ?-
single.

2. Are you happy with your life now ?-
okok ouhs.

3. When you meet the right person , will you fall for him/her fast?-
nope , i wont.

4. Have you had your heart broken ?-
yups .

5. Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable ?-
nopes.

6. Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you ?-
i will . but see if he or she lied to me in purpose or they got reasons.

7. Have you talk to another person about marriage before ?-
nopes.

8. Do you want children ?-
yes : D

9. How many ?-
two ?

10. Would you consider adoption ?-
yes .

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think will let you know his/her feelings?-
sometimes i can feel it . but fer now , i guess i will just keep quiet.

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships ?-
sometimes yes sometines no.

13. Be honest. What did you and your ex did ?-
: x

14. Do you believe in love at first sight ?-
yes , i believe.

15. Are you romantic ?-
i dontknow.

16. Do you believe you can change someone ?-
yups . but depends ouhs.

17. If you could marry somewhere, where would it be ?-
beach . somewhere romantic .

18. Do you easily give in when you're fighting ?-
for the first <3 , i guess i wont . but fer now , i will .. even if im not in wrong .

19. Do you have feelings for someone right now ?-
no .

20. Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up ?-
erms . nopes

21. Have you broken a heart ?-
yes . everyone have bahs.

22. One day if your best friend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with,what would you do -
i will back out .

23. Are you missing someone right now ?-
yes , my girlfriends : DD

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i dont feel loved anymore . anymore .. aku want to go out ! : x

unloved.

im back again . sorry uhs fer not posting so long : x ytd went out with crazy michelle QIUQIU . lols , dont shout at me . quite stupid and fun ouhs . i dontknow what to post anymore . brrr ~ tha days which i nvr post , i guess im living quite boring -.- BORED BORED .

can i be more happy ? DUHS

i miss my friends ): hais .


MIN.T <3s

hahs , dumb jeanie looking at me now! STARE somemore. STARE ! hahs . i think i abit zibi now uhs. lalas : DD had a quarrel with leslie just now. damn pissed off uhs . i dun even have tha mood to talk to him . he called me , i talk to him awhile . i faster kup his phone. mmm , MICHELLE . im here to help u lers : x hehs , scolded him uhs. but i dontknow why i dun feel bad at all . cause i think im speaking from my heart and i want him to be awake of what he is doing . one conclusion is ; he very fan uhs !

ytd went out with WINNIE . suppose want go causeway watch movie with her ders. budden tha cinema dontknow go where lers. so went back to lot 1 .. took neoprint. nicenice : DD im now using winnie's comp . hao sians. now at her house with mark and jeanie. i think im sleeping soon . bbrrs. how ?

tml got school uhs . getting all tha results ? hope i can do well even though i know i sure flunk my maths . hais , not in a good mood today . but.. hais . i dontknow what to say .

BE ORIGINAL


loves ,

MIN

okok , im here just to say my comp will spoil anytime ! -.- brrr , ohkay . AGAIN ! kukuass. before this , i got post lahs . budden my comp suddenly black out -.- DUHHH , spoil my mood . nvm , hahs .

love's dead

wenta bugis with them today ! and its so weird without winnie around -.- duhs . then wenta shop around at bugis mall and street. ian saw me ! but i didn saw him . lols , i dont even know hes real face cause i knew him through friendster . lols : D he working in topshop . stupid UNCLE orhs . hehs , kind of shocked that he can recognise me : x lols.

then shop around bugis street . bought a shirt , kind of off-shoulder ? : D nicenice . i like it and its cheap uhs . just that its quality not really good . after that , three plus liddat . took mrt to cityhall . wenta esplanade. i lovee that place alot . ouhs , and theres alot of couples there -.- we talk crap there , talk bout rel. listen to music : D i love myyyy girlfriends alot alot !

took 960 back to bp plaza. kind of dulan over sth. ah lian only wad -.- lols , i kind of xi guan lahs . hahs , michelle dulan dulan annd DULAN . hahs , ate in mac for dinner. thennn , went home and watch princess hours. im making my IC tml with mum anddd then i will pull her go to bugis with me . buyyyyy clothes again : D lols.

its finaallly tha end of EOY . && my left eye is swollen because i cant get enough sleep ! i can study from night till midnight 4.30 . duhs , tml no school ! im going to sleep like pig. my eyes are painful . stupid headache is coming back to me again and tha worst is ! im having fugly ugly big eyebags ! AHHH . i need to sleep : x

two pictures for today !










MIN & MICHELLE

its over ! OVER : D so so so damn happy uhs . hahs
later going out with michelle & jeanie.

i miss my laogong ,winnie : D
kukuass .


min <3s

im sorry .
because i cant stop ..

i love rain : D i love his song , Move On . meaningful uhs .
lovess .


rain , bi - Move On lyrics ( english translated)
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My eyes has always been on you, no matter when
Until the day you turn back for me, forever, forever.
Move on, oh, move on
It's time to let go
He will not be coming back
Open your heart baby,
Open the heart which you've shut tight

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
No matter until when, I will take the place of that person and stay by your side

I will always be right by your side instead of that man
I will always be right by your side
Make you the promise of eternity.
This feeling of heart-wrenching pain, am I not feeling the same pain too?
I dream of seeking out each other with you
The person who has filled out your heart now is not me...
Whenever I think of that, I feel the heart-wrenching pain again

Move on, oh, move on
It's time to let go
He will not be coming back
Move on, oh, move on
Stride past this period of time
Discover my existence secretly in that vast emptiness of your heart
I will always stay by your side,
I will never let your feel sad again
So give me your chance

here to post again . hais , i've been thinking alot again . ahhhs , wadever. im just being paranoid . whatever it is , i dont have the mood to study . brr , and im so frustrated at myself . DUH ! i feel so out of tha world , so empty and so .....

tml is geog paper1 and also chemi paper 2 . wish me good luck & tml is michelle , my DARLING's birthday : D . i super love love her (: hahs , but stupid her dont love me , love her AHEMS . lols : x good luck to her & hope that her wish for tml will be granted . remember uhs , this month 11th is our date. let this friendship be everlasting : D happy 15th birthday tml ! stupid stupid stupid MICHELLE MICKEY crazy.

im studying later : D i must study . and i think im going to study till midnight three plus . so feel free to msg me if you are free , and have nth to do . hahs :D

im not missing you .
i bet , im not .


MIN .

for a moment ..

i started to think back . about those memories with him . its all very small things which i did with him . but why did i have a dream about him ? i dontwant to look back again and suffer my ownself again like last time with ***** . i dontwant things to repeat again and again . sometimes , i wonder why i would end up like this ? is it retribution , is it because i rejected guys and made them feel hurt . & this is what i got in tha end ?

i tried not to look back again because i know its bygones which will nvr happen in my life again . its because of you , i fall once again more badly . i thought i get over you already .. but having the dream , i know its what i want in my life. or probably is that i think too much again? or MAYBE , i dont even need you already . hais , you nvr knew how im feeling bout you right now . can i say ..

HELLO , KUKUASS . get yourself out of my mind , can ! ?

MAYBE , I DONT EVEN NEED YOU . its those sensitive thoughts that made me feel this way again . it happens all tha times -.- sooo , i shall not bother bout this stupid dream and let myself be free , which i loveeee alot .

i think i understand guys abit uh . because theres this one time , this guy wanna say sth to me . and i said to him that i know what he wanna say to me . i think he was quite shocked and he didn talk to me since that day . i know what guys will be thinking whenever a girl talks bout him after they broke up . but i just wanna keep my mouth shut ..

unloved , i said.

yesterday was mooncake festival . lols , & its girlfriends' day ! but it ended up without winnie . kind of sianhalfs also . hahs , then we wenta to bp park. its alot of people lahs . saw peipei & huiming there . && i dontknow why i suddenly have gastric pain . damn pain uhs >.< and i left with three papers only . i think i will flunk math this time very badly , hais . its soo painful when knowing that my ownself will flunk it because wo dui that paper no confidence ! chinese okok ouhs , budden i also got no confidence in passing it with flying colours . mmm , geog paper 2 haihao nors . hope can pass : x hais , i dontwant retain & i want to stay in 3B with those funs uh ! pray hard hard !~ pictures !


min & michelle <3 michelle loves me .


MEME . & tha one sleeping on my bed is ....
WINNIE :D


sparks!


me & michelle made ders ,
candle hearts . prettaye ouhs.


our fingers <3

we kept shouting ***** no use , only got use at xxxxx xxxxx , ******* mei you yong , wang ba dan & of course , ****** mei you yong also ! lols ,

but .. today morning , when i woke up . i realised that i dreamt of him ! then i think of it .. i was crying in my dream & i was veryvery upset because of something . then i wenta my mirror and looked at myself . i blinked and then one drop of tear came out from my eyes . my eyes were watery & its red lahs ! .. i swear it was the most upset dream i've before .
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sorry fer not posting tha past few days . i need to mug hard mah ! hope that the results i got , wont disappoint me till i cry -.- im studying chemistry later. loves !

ouhs , jiemei 184

unloved

erms , today is my birthday : D yes , my birthday . i dontknow how to describe my feelings ! its like not really sad and not really happy . am i happy ? am i sad ? no idea ~ this year is like a very very big difference from last year one. so how should i start uhs ? ouh ya , today is guoyan's birthday & xinhua's birthday and shaun's birthday & natassia too . lols , so many huhs ! this year's birthday is kind of ... mmm , i dontknow how to describe. BUT !

im really elated when i saw all tha smses which they send to me or give their greetings to me in school . which all wrote , " happy birthday " in the sms. its like it is a BIG present already because they still remember my birthday . & the " they " im referring to are ; michyeo , winnie , jeanie , cheryl , christine , sulastri <3 , junqian , weiming , kurt , razis , guoyan , jingting , zhenlu , zihui , kunda , ka en , zayar , libing , yanling ,grace , suning , nazura , yuanliang , stephanie , joanna , peipei , natalie , mark , leslie , razak , rebecca , huijuan , kenneth & etc. thanks lot uhs.

thanks jingting , girlfriends , mark , leslie , kunda and natalie fer the presents. girlfriends , natalie , mark & leslie for the playboy stuffs . kunda fer the piglet . jingting fer tha mickey thingy . & big big thanks to my family because they got me my dream phone , nokia 6111 . im feeling so guilty , so sad , so touched cause the whole family spend alot of money to buy that phone fer me . sooo , i cried outside the phone shop because i was so touched . then dad came and hugged me and told me thats its alright. how can i hate my dad , when he dote me so much ? hais , si bai uhs ! i love my family , they are my everything : D loves.

after school , wenta lot 1 with girlfriends . they gave me tha present in kiddy palace -.- diaos huh . lols , stupid ehs . but thanks uh . walkwalk around , went home ! michelle took my chemi notes. duh ! imp notes , somemore.

lastly ,
happy birthday to myself , LIMIN !
one year older lers : D hehs .

ouhs ! ferget bout oct 9 ~~

am i happy ?


unloved.

hahs ! finally done with my coursework . i mean everything ! lols , good good :D lols , ouhs . and im done with winnie's blogskin. wait fer her online now ~ jin tian de xing qing not bad ~ hehs .

today , at night go outside eat to celebrate my early birthday . actually ... i dont feel like going . hais . thanks junqian fer helping me to print my F&N work! studying ss later ? abit bahs . hahaa
stupid jeanie msg me just now said that we are officially together today ! LOLS , she crazy uhs . okok , together uh ! today is oct 1 . happy children day to u : D and nov 1 is our first month . hahs . crazy lahs (:

it's children day -.- lols ,

this love is dying ...


unloved

sometimes .. sometimes .
i feel ..

i dontknow why .
i dontknow wads wrong with me again .
mum said that dad will be bringing me out to eat on sunday
to celebrate my early birthday .
i dontwant , its not what i want . i ...
i told michelle today , i wasnt really expecting my birthday to come.
i dontknow why . i got this very bad feeling ..
its very very different from last year.
when that special day of mine to come
, i guess i will not feel the joy in me like last year anymore .
so let this birthday to be an unhappy birthday (:
i dontknow why i felt so down .
maybe moodswings .
all i want is A1s for my subjects.
MICHELLE SAID THAT MY EXPECTATIONS ARE HIGH -.-

erms, maybe from next week monday till the end of examination , i wont be online. yaaa , & maybe will online and blog only on my birthday :D

today was like so fun in class (: hahaa ,

tml is ENGLISH test . hais , i must pass. no more failings , LIMIN (: buck up ! i need tha motivation , please.

i wish i wish , i can pass all my subjects.

have to rush my F&N work . hais , fucks life. so many things need to do . finish le must go revise . my dearrr pure geog.

ytd i met a despo -.- can u believe it ? within two days , he can ask for it . if im dumb , i will accept. but im not ! he is crazy and im not . hahs : D weird people always do weird things . ouhhh , i fail my english again . duhs , i guess i must study the dictionary fer better vocabulary to use . HAIS .

this friday , will be my first paper which is english . wish me good luck : D i hope i can do it , i hope i can finally pass my english . just like my maths . hais , PLEASE .

thanks christine uh : D
i think this is the first time i got so depress.
i still feel ... super duper upset. hais

unloved lost her confidence again! HOW ?!
she wants to score A1 for all her subjects .

is it because my expectation for myself is too high .
or ,
its normal ?

hais . even a thousand words cant describe how im feeling now .

&&
i received the letter to make IC . wees ! i can work le lahs !

just a short post fer today & off to a nap later. wake up & study ss. duhs , im in a low spirit. ahhs , cause of my physics class test. i think im going to flunk it . but my chemi class test results somehow cheer me up also . A1 for tha first time. so today mood quite weird uhs . half upset , half happy : x hais , i dontknow why i cant score for physics. HAIS

thenthen , chinese lesson . zhang lao shi angry with kelvin & ronnie. so , she scold scold lors. then must do tha yi lun wen paper then can be release. dui bu qi , lao shi ! : D mug hard , people.

please help me with my physics ~ hais . ): i feel so so so soooo sad . i think im going to score the lowest mark in the class. why cant i just simply understand tha topic and do all the questions ?! stupidd. HAIS HAIS HAIS. i dont want to pull down my chemistry marks . HAIS HAIS HAIS .

how ?
baddd mooooooodddddd .


unloved, i said .

went to find jeanie just now . afternoon nahs : D wenta nat house downstair , cause stupid jeanie want take her books so accompanied her ! then after that wenta plaza , buy some stuffs. eat my dinner (: went home .

ouhs , i hate my damn computer. is like so damn slow , i felt like hitting it till it really spoilts. im finding panda icons ^^ who have it ? give meeee. hahaa , doing homework later. kind of lazy lahs , but no choice. i didn bring back my F&N book too. duhs -.- how to do my coursework. ahhh , ferget it .

i think my blog is kind of weird -.- i dontknow ,

unloved

bu zhi dao why suddenly i so emotional. xiang alot alot nahs . im not gonna to direct anyone here :D so rest assured that im not talking bout U ! sometimes i've been thinking what i want & how much do i understand myself. i will go like , hey i dont wish to know myself . i will always look at the negative side because i know i wont have a happy ending like everyone does. can you see how much i hate myself ?
FUCKS LIES.

people , cherish everything you have now uhs :D bbefore it all slips off from you . by that time , u will be crying like shits . & nobody will really cares bout you . even if they do care , they wont know how hurt you are feeling . NO , they cant. sometimes its not really great to rake up tha past anymore , u will look back and laugh at yrself. silly huhs ? let go of everything that does not belong to you .

is this something in this world called everlasting ?

i dontknow why i felt such a way . i will look at myself infront of a mirror and say , ' ugly bitch , you deserve it . ' i think i will always get so suay . hahs ! bytheway , its great to be loved ! really really so xinfu , ohkays . i get over to those things already. hold on with yr relationship if u have one , dont say break up this two words so easily. give in & understanding , is tha only thing you must have to get a stable relationship . i dontwant to see my closest friends ending up in a bad state, you know ^^ nvr give up . its doesnt means that tha person dun cherish u and in the end u do tha same too .

he will always be my pain .

limin , stop tha craps -.- hahaa , michelle kuku miss MEMEME : D imissyoo too . mum still remember that my bday is coming . quite happy lahs . but i wanted to have my nokia6111 as my bday present. budden i know she cant afford it lahs . its alot of money . so ferget it ,dont put too much hope . hahaa :D nvm , after eoy , i will go and work. earn money , buy that phone && no one should snatch with me to buy that prettaye phone . maybe? hais ):

hahaa , adults always lie to children .

today slept alot . hahaa , msged with ian just now. nice guy :D i knew him through friendster ^^ lols , kills my boredom. lalas : x homework later ? STUDY lah , limin . byebye , stupid blog.


unloved , i said.

mmm , morning :D . just now chat with some people in msn . what to do ners ? hais , let it be bahs . mummy sick lers , so i wont be going out today ? i notsure also , im going to starve myself till die uhs . ytd wenta pasar malam with jeanie & her bro. bought my adidas bag (: quite nice lahs . i dontknow why i like it so much when i first saw it. saw my school sec2 de girls. chio : D

i was feeling so vexed today . eoy is approaching already , next week lahs . i must pass all my subjects . pleaseeee (: hais , im having gastric pain again ~ its damn pain . ahhhh .

forgot to bring my F&N book home . i have lotsa of homework . doing it all at night . monday study fer ss . lalas :D

unloved

today was so tiring :D but i've got lots of fun with my guides friends. wenta cycle at east coast park . de-stress , you know : x hahaa ,somehow i love today lahh. school was ohkay , mr singh nvr come again. lalas . quite good lahs , LOLS .

later going to pasar malam with jeanie at bangkit. im slacking (:
today is for me & cheryl <3

i miss my winnie (:

unloved.

im in a bad mood now ): very very bad mood. & i dontknow why . please dun irritate me fer tha time being .. brrr

min :D

SCREAM WITH ME ! ahhh : D hahaa , im so so so happy because i FINALLY pass my maths . like wow , finally can ?! i broke the curse of failing maths forever . lols , although its like just pass by six marks. the feeling is damn shiok lahs : D today is 20th & is the date for me & christine. lala :D today damn high uhs .

im so sleepy now because i only slept for five hours ytd. cause i spent hours studying ss & chemistry . chemistry test , im ohkay with it lahs. ss , teacher nvr come. liddat also good ouhs , i can have much time to study and understand the topic. E.O.Y is coming & im still lacking behind. ahhh , buck up ! buck up on my studies now !

wanted to do a new blogskin. sians ,
BE ORIGINAL .

i want i want playboy stuffs ^^

unloved

whats today's date huhs ?

dedication to my dearrr dearrr christine .
hahaaa , iloveyou lahs . christine : D
happy 15th birthday . may u last long with SHARK orhs.
hehs , just like wad the card said . thanks for every single thing you did for us in this three years. & i really appreciate it alot. i'll definitely cherish this friendship to bits and pieces. hope ya like tha present & be really very happy today. today is yr birthday & how can u cry this morning because u are touched huhs ! cannot lahs . SMILE ehs : D cyas tml !

okays . so morning , we intend to give christine a surprise . && i told winnie to tell christine that im late & ask her to wait for me downstairs. at first we bought her a sunblock lotion cause she sunburn mahs ! hahaa , so when i reached first floor . i asked her to come inside tha lift & said to her , happy birthday , & hugged her (: gave her tha present. hehs ! bytheway * i shall forget tha date 9th october . LOLS

after that wenta eat breakfast at greenridge . then faster go school lorhs. school was ohkay lahs . physics , i think i abit cannot understand . & tml theres a math test. please pray that i will pass uhs . chinese results got back . scored A1 . like finally lahs . but maybe because tha paper is easy .. mmm , but i still felt elated. weees !

F&N , teacher like crazy lahs . suddenly shout at us . ouhs , then after that she calm down then ohkay le. maybe doing my F&N research later , try to complete it by next week. guides is going to cycle at dontknow where lahs. but not confirm yet , is around exam corner. what a date ! >.< hais , i have alot of works need to do .

; chinese ying yong wen.
; english compo
; maths revision
; F&N research
; revise physics , social studies & chemistry.

SEE ! so many ~ hais . hais . hais.... fucks life.
i dont want i dont want & i DONTWANT to retain. please.

ouhs , & im so pissed off today by my history marks. i wrote the wrong answer at the wrong question. if not i can pass ? maybe ? hais , what should i do to improve my studies lahh. stress eh .

mmm , after school . they wenta my house & study & played games . like stupid lahs . hahaaa , tml study at home ! i promise ^^


unloved.

AHHHH , i didn mean anything bout what i said lahs . really , alright . hais ...

so i was chatting with mark on msn . then he kept asking me to relax . thanks uh (: hais , i dontknow lahs . felt quite down lahs . i mean , im not in a high spirits also . hais

didn went out out today . maybe tml ? yups , jeanie want go bugis buy her shoe. yupps , hais . whole day stayed at home study chemistry abit. acids , bases and salts . know a little bit more lers. actually , quite easy lahs . hahaa : x i dontknow why i cant get it last time. suppose got go out today de . cause winnie wanna go out to eat lunch , she msged me but i was sleeping . so i didn reply . when i woke up , i called her , but end up she was sleeping. damn stupid . hahaa , ohkay lahs . i go revise or maybe do my F&N lers.


ouhs , i miss kuku michelle & my lovely winnie : D
where is jeanie zibi ?

loves ,

MIN !

fucks f&n . stress lahs , i going to cry soon : x . hais , hais , hais ... sickening coursework . driving me crazy soon . theres still alot of them i need to do . HAIS , how lahs. ahhhhhh , by next week must hand in leh.

school was ohkay.

kuku michelle love me : D
wahhaaa .
paiseh lahs today : x
next time pei u k.

min.

BUSY :D
but mmm , spend some time blogging uhs.
doing my F&N coursework nors.
alot of things must type out.
hais , fan uhs !!
no choice lors. skipped guide today .
went back home & did my things.

im so tired lahhh .
exams are coming & im so afraid that i'll retain.
because my english are atrocious.
ahhh , FAN lahhh.
i'll be studying from this week onwards.

congrats to christine & her shark.
one month ouhs (: LASTTTT ah !


MIN

mum said that i should be mentally prepared.
because grandpa was admitted to the hospital yesterday.
it was tha second time already
& no one dare to ask him go for operation.
hais , grandma was like normal bahs.
budden mum said that she cant sleep after hearing tha news.
& she even asked me whether i have white tshirt anot.
hais... i was like stunned .
but theres nothing i can do other than praying for grandpa.
外公, 你要坚强 !
im worried and.... hais.

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school reopens (: happy to see all my friends. love love ! morning wenta eat breakfast . after that , reached school . wenta locker & i cant recognize sulastri . hahs , im sorry ! today was quite boring lahs , but maths lesson kept me awake . & it rains . so i kept writing on my paper . 外公, 你要坚强 ! 外公, 你要坚强 ! ~

hais , lessons ended . didn go for maths nahs . wenta plaza with girlfriends , mark & leslie. fucks dulan with leslie lahs ! nvm , ferget it .

the date , 11th is taken !
ME & JOANNE [ my da er duo ] :D
ME & MICH YEO [ loveeeee ! ] (:

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ouhs , im attached ! really :D
i superrr loveeeeeeee ~ ^^

min .

for a moment uhs , i felt that tha friends around me are like so great lahs . make me happy & etc. really do cheer me up alot today (:

i was chatting with andrew : D && he asked me to send regards to winnie & jeanie for him . lols ,


MIN !

ru guo ...


unloved.

uhhhs ! im back from bugis. ouhhs , & i bought same shoe with my laogong , winnie : D went out alone with her today . then then , suppose want go watch movie de . but end up , dont have lorhs. bought our shoes ler , wenta take neoprints (: hehs. & i now declare that im totally broke. -.- ke lian de wo.

think tml will be studying bahs .
HAIS.

in the mrt , its all those things .


unloved.

didn hang out with them today . so out of boredom , i wenta watch wei xiao pasta in youtube . not bad uhs (: thenthen liddat lorhs . i suddenly miss my mum ^^ lols .

say bye to limin : x
ferever `

min

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在你心中 XX 占据着最重要的位置，你对 XX 的感觉用 salahio 这首歌来形容再好不过了。你相信这是上天安排的缘分，因为你深深的爱着 XX 。 对于 ZZ ，也许是宿命吧，虽然你也喜欢 ZZ，但是你们注定不可能在一起，就象 mei tian mei tian 中唱的一样。

jeanie 是最关心你的人，而 michelle 是最了解你的人，你们两个在一起会彼此有知己的感觉。 winnie 是你的幸运星，也许会给你带来好运气的哦~!~!~!

* this is what i tried after reading rebecca blog. of course tha XX & ZZ is someone's name lahs . but stupid people also wont write tha name out . ouhs , try it . it can be quite real . however , some of the words are same butt quite meaningful lorhs. er xin de michelle ! !

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i've so many pictures for today . wenta starbucks & study . didn study much nahs . they were helping with my handphone & then we did some questions of maths . ouhh , i teached them ! LOLS , i think i'll be studying again tml . winnie go find mark . kuku , nvr come & find me . misses * so left tha three of us . we were like so crazy . && i talk to myself looking at the mirror. asking myself alot of whys . AHH

a happy day !

CRAZY .
say hellos to tha photos for today! hees XD


oreo cheescake : D BEFORE


i sit , i stand , i FALL ~ (:
stupid twists ^^ AFTER !


that UGLY currypuff =x


my prettaye phone (:


UGLY MEE & jeanie


MEE (: starbucks <3s


my MICHELLE yeo :D lols , dont kill me ahs.


MEMEME again (:
they took it quite long ago..


jeanie , ME , michelle.
where is my dear WINNIE ?


its quite blur .. BUT
you can see a crazy girl twisting uhs .
that girl is JEANIE CHONG :D



unloved.

going to plaza to study later , i guess (: i wanna study study study ! i wish i really could .. spend hours studying there . hahaa , im bored .

its been like very long i didn go out & shop lers . hais , ke lian de wo .

ouhs , you = him ! ni hen fan ! hen fan ! hen fan lahs ! everyday call call if not msg me . AHHHHH ! fan si wo lers . can i kill you ? sometimes u make to be my bestest friend , sometimes u just drive me to nuts. FAN SI WO ~ just treat it that i dont know how to appreciate you , DUHS !


unloved loves MIN !

loves ! i think today will be bored. hais , nvm . read michelle's blog just now . then suddenly , i think of my dream ytd ytd night . hahs ,damn stupid lah... sometimes what i dream will happen in real life. tha dream was like ... i cut my veins & then blood flows out . lols :D that morning , i woke up & the first thing i did was look at my left hand . & phew .... hahas , stupid sia.

hao xiang si ouhs ! >.<


爱不到你 , 所以祝福你. 心里总是感到空虚, 好像有一个很大很大的洞. 一个不能用友谊疗那些受过伤的心.爱过了, 眼泪也该停了..

salahio 爱的理由 , 不会有错 .
我的爱走了..

unloved !

msn nick , hao duo ren fang wu gui ... & i know why nahs . sadded ):

im watching , wo men jie hun ba ! , later. ouhs , & i love today because i wasnt bored . hahaa , pon maths =x so wenta plaza with girlfriends , mark & leslie to eat in mac . then then , it rains ! i was feeling so .. vexed . hais , nvm :D

while waiting for the rain to stop , we settled down at starbucks drinking coffee . nicenice. awhile later , the rain stopped & they all went to my house . we had some sort of " pillow " fight . lame sia . hahaa , & i kept hitting mark . i feel so :D . thanks , mark ! lols , watch tv . chitchat . stupid leslie wanted to open my room's door. of course , i wont allow him ! hehs ^^

around four plus , took lrt to fajar with mich & jeanie . mark & winnie walked there but end up met at jelapang lrt . ouhs , i saw jennis (: she is still so sweet like that time at esplanade. smile smile with me :D she is with her bf & friend bahs . we wenta rent vcds & i went home .

ZINC ; ps : michelle ! you know what it mean huhs ? hehs :D

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unloved loves unloved !

dead ! just now rainfall >.< cause i wrote something .. hais , i feel so down right now . nvm , at least there is people chatting with me on msn . thanks thanks :D ahhh ! scream with me ; im all alone at home now . i feel so ... hais . hais , girlfriends all dontknow fly where le. sian si wo lers . hais hais hais ... ):

its raining soon . where are they ? work work work lorhs ! now kor came back le . hais , but i just felt the same . so bored lahs . tml going to school again . i think i alone bahs . yups , independent ! tml sure sians de. from 10-12 english , 1-3 maths . dying , dying ... today maths also sian halfs le .. but at least some can do nahs. quite happy nors :D but i hate trigo . maths can kill me .

& i was told bout how much i got for oral . i aim to get higher marks cause it can help to pull up my written work marks . mmm , nvm nahs. i did my best (: yups .

before i forget ;
happy 15th birthday to kunda :D


im dying , bored to death .
this world is so cold ...


unloved.

off to school :D
miss me ! hahs

unloved.

re-update
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back again !
because of razis , im like damn stupid & crazy
laughing at my computer alone .
& got scolded by my mum . lols
no steamboat tml !
lalalaaa xD

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hellos :D

有时侯觉得这个世界好现实 !
从来也不回头 >.<
死吧 ! ~
好傻 , 好傻 , 好傻 ..

ahhhs ! im going back to school alone tml . ohkay , must be independent . damn winnie keep force me go eat her steamboat tml after remedial . awww :D ke lian wo uhs. your monthsary must spend only with your love !

im paranoid . hais , whatever ):

wo xiang tong lers .


unloved.

song title :
i think i - ; [ i love the lyrics :D ]

I refused to believe that it could be so,
there's no way that I'm in love with you,
I lied to myself that it's just a petty jealousy,
that I must be feeling lonely, but I cannot hide it anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so, Cause I miss you
without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

We are not meant for each other,
and being friends is the best thing for us,
there isn't a single thing we have in common,
so I claimed there's no way we can be lovers,
but I don't want to make excuses anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so,
Cause I miss you without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

why didn't I know that it was you,
why couldn't I see it when it was right in front of me,
it was beside me all along,
but only now can I see love.

I think I love you
But it must be so,
Cause I miss you without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

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im happy happy to say that my comp is fixed. i doubt so -.- ohkays , i just hope that it wont spoil again . hahaa :D so im back to post again . holidays are boring .. but i love holidays because i can sleep late and i did . xD good uhs .

wed ... saw karen ! chit-chat with her nors at senja grand :D friday - hugged my baobei gan-mei :D renytta ! i miss her lots . mmm , didn go back to westview . plain lazy . i went home straight (:

&& something that i just dont get it why is that when im sleeping , alot of people loves to call my handphone . for example ; leslie pek ! kurt kor ! & even mum & er kor. lalaaa (: nvm , at least i still get enough sleep . lols ! i think im having fever soon (: because i felt so warm & unwell . duhh , not the first time . but no to medicines . today , im having steamboat with my family :D heee .

i think i will be revising my work later . bored bored bored :D ouhhh , i chatted with jeanie today in msn (: lovees lahs . hahaa , dont worry ohkay . we will still be close as ever. && jiayou hors .


unloved.

hahs ! back (: holidays are coming & i love love lovee them ! cause i can sleep till very late nahs . school was pretty good & fun . i love 3B :D hees ! without them , i just feel so hais ... without them , i cant even laugh in class now . yeas , they are so damn important to me now . ouhh , i wont forget my girlfriends too . hehs , this friday think going out uhs . or maybe saturday . not sure yet , steamboat :D stupid winnie want to eat & celebrate her monthsary with her ahems lorhs .

christine & her shark is so damn sweet lahs . made me so sad & depress . duhhh , nvm . our promise really became real. except winnie . i didn want it to happen but it still happens ! three of us in this month . fucks august . winnie , jia you ! yesterday had my english oral , im nervous but the teacher commented that i was quite well . so i hope i can pass lahs , my english like so damn horrible. hahaa :D

i want to ferget those pain . those pains ..

kurt kor msged me today said that he will come find us . end up , never . knew it from michelle cause i went home . didn have the mood to go crazy with them . lols , so i walked with cheryl . wenta ntuc , bought ingredients for my guides thingy . guides tshirt , nicenice :D this one week of holiday , i will just go & enjoy myself alotalot . i promise myself that (:

its not the responsibility , its not the everything .

tml will be the last day of studying in school & then thurs - teachers day , ahhh . im not sure if im going back . mmm , friday onwards holiday . next monday & tues need to go back school for maths . ass =x && im going back alone ): sadded . cheryl go for her damnnnnn relax vacation. envious envious ~

you cant see how deep the cut is , you cant see how hurt i feel , you cant see whether im really happy or not . you cant see those confidence that i have before in me is decreasing ..because you dontknow about me . you dontknow about me , nothing ...

min ! unloved :D

hais .. sometimes i really cant face it . cant lahs , its reality . nvm lahs , just like mum said before to me . its gonna be alright (: jeanie , face it ohkays . this month is really unlucky . faster get over it . love aint that great , let it all go kays . we love you , its enough already . takecares , dont pretend happy infront of me . it wont helps making you better . lets be strong together alright ? lets face it (: dont cry at night orhs . i think you will because i was liddat also . hahaa , tml go high ohkays ? loves !

ta mei you wo hai shi hen kuai le , dui bu dui ?
520 strawsheart , wasted ! this is what i got in the end ? spending my time after ndp trainings
tiring , u know !
stupid sia . im going to give my * ? haaa

sometimes , i really feel the pain and the numbness in my heart . its gonna be alright , limin ! today wenta hospital with mum & aunt . go see grandpa lorhs . felt like crying uhs . hope he is ohkay and not that xinku .


min .

backkkkkk . =b sorry people , i lost all my links code . so tag my blog for relinks . hehee , paiseh orhs . well , it all ended. didn expected it all to happen but yeas , i guess i have to face it . who ask me so stupid de. hahs , love's gone & he even said thanks to me . like wow , i gave him back his freedom & not making him xinku anymore . i felt more... relieved ? i dontknow .. but somehow it really hurts lahs . that night , many of them came to concern bout me . heyyy , i love you guys alot (: christine ! jeanie ! winnie ! stupid michelle ! veron ! sulastri ! ronnie ; bastard ! leslie ! mark ! victor ! yuanliang ! & alot alot more . thanks for being there .

so tha next day , i wenta school & sulastri asked me to cry . but i've no idea why i cant cry out . so i was like studying the whole damn day . talked to ronnie too . & during english , it all came out when ronnie said the sentence asking me to cry it all out. so i did ! ohkays , stupid -.- i wenta the toilet & i cant stop myself & then i kept scolding myself & vulgarities. sounds silly . cheryl & charmaine is with me . hahs , then this malay female teacher came in & asked me . so she talked alot lahs , but i didn really listen . hahaa , love aint that great .

ferget it , im starting all afresh . it doesnt mean that without czl , i cant live (: i will live happily ,very very happy bahs . you dont have to cut yourself to remember that you hurt me before because you are the one suffers and it couldnt do anything make me feel better inside too . yao kuai le ouhs (: zhen de yao kuai le . go find a girl who will not make you xinku & can last very very long with you . alright ? wo men hui shi peng you (:

ouhh , stop bout those irritating & sad things . school today was short lahs but i like ! xD wenta lot 1 after school with jeanie only . & we decided to make chocs . she came to my house & spend like hours did it . hehs , quite nice lahs . she make for timothy lorhs . ya , before that i saw kurt lahs . assholes , my tears are going to drop because ... uhhh . hais , lalala (x he talked to me & jeanie , but i gave him attitude . i guess . but we will still meet up & go out one day . cause im still her gan mei nahs . yups , probably -.-

i wannnt to go out this week . gonna save up & get my da kor's present . daddy one , erms.. no idea. LOL

blog soon .!

&& i love this blogskin . lols

unloved -

hehs , im now at winnie house (: heeee ! using her comp . finally done with my F&N coursework . this few days wasnt my good day , didn wanna mention bout it anymore . ouhh , & ytd i forgot to mention that i saw my ex-lovee. i admire him alot during primary school time . LOL xD , stupid sia . saw him lahs ,clifton (: hehs , & i saw him with his gf . not bad uhs , hahaa . & he became really handsome now . waved to him & then went inside tha lrt ler .

im in a very bad state now . dont provoke me , alright (:

sometimes , things just dont go my way . i felt like giving it all up .
but i'll keep on trying till the day i cant ): thanks christine fer being there . mwarks !
i may look happy , but im not . not at all ..

MIN .

i wasnt happy today . wenta watch movie with my girlfriends today . except jeanie lorhs . that kuku , cannot come out . lols , kays lah . movie , ohkay bahs . after that , wenta westmall lorhs . mark came along -.- then winnie go change her handphone . duhh ! i want my phone lahs. hais , suan le .

slack outside tha singtel shop lohs. michelle keep beat my head . hahaa , who ask me being so crazy down there .. until mark say he want to send me to mental hospital for treatment ! xD lols , i dontknow why im so crazy at that point of time .

selfish bitch . hais , such an bad person . im going crazy soon . im fucking down lahs .
leslie ! help me , where are u . call me , i wanna talk to u .

CRAZY girl , i am one .
sulastri , where are u too ? tell me what to do .
jeanie ! i miss you alot . hais ...
* you dontknow how i feel . i'll get tired too . really tired . i end school very late . maybe its an excuse to you . but it wasnt , im really tired . really really tired. u know those envious feelings i felt ? it wasnt that we stay so near. & that we can meet almost everyday. please , think for me . i'll think for you too . i cant feel your love , i cant .
not coming back .

ahh , im crying soon . hey , dont make me feel this way . hais
MIN !

i know , i know ...
but sometimes , i really wanna be alone
& i dontknow why ...

forgive me for being like this .
hais..

yea ,imu .but i wanna be alone just for today .

min , tha unloved.

envious envious envious lah ! hahaa , alot of things happen . christine , happy for u orhs . hehs & u two really very sweet lahs . hahaa , dear seh . winnie also , everyday meet him . lalala (: all this days simply study in school lorhs , i will study hard de. then after school , hang out with mark ( kb ders ) , leslie ( lame ders =x ) & all my girlfriends . without christine really very weird lahs . girl , i miss u lots . i wanna see u lahs (:

now in school using comp lohs . slack abit . need to do f&n coursework . kelian uhs ! ytd guides , was the first time release so early. happy lahs , so wenta find them lohs . ahhhh ! leslie very baichi & funny . good lahs , make me happy . LOL , stupid sia . moodswings - on the way back home .

i chose to believe you . not to betray me .

today morning , gave 45 cents to leslie cause ytd he show us his damn " sexy " show -.- hahaaa . i love all my friends . rocks lahh ! xD . maybe today after school go do history project bah . hehs

michelle is sitting infront of me . that stupid kuku idiot . LOLS

im happy with them around lahs..
this group of friends ~!

love , takecare of urself . dont sick le kays . dont be hua xin lahs . && stop smoking so much . see lohs , now sick . u suffer ehs not me . meet up soon (:

hahaa , im going to do my work now . byebye , try to update soon xD

min (: