for a moment ..

i started to think back . about those memories with him . its all very small things which i did with him . but why did i have a dream about him ? i dontwant to look back again and suffer my ownself again like last time with ***** . i dontwant things to repeat again and again . sometimes , i wonder why i would end up like this ? is it retribution , is it because i rejected guys and made them feel hurt . & this is what i got in tha end ?

i tried not to look back again because i know its bygones which will nvr happen in my life again . its because of you , i fall once again more badly . i thought i get over you already .. but having the dream , i know its what i want in my life. or probably is that i think too much again? or MAYBE , i dont even need you already . hais , you nvr knew how im feeling bout you right now . can i say ..

HELLO , KUKUASS . get yourself out of my mind , can ! ?

MAYBE , I DONT EVEN NEED YOU . its those sensitive thoughts that made me feel this way again . it happens all tha times -.- sooo , i shall not bother bout this stupid dream and let myself be free , which i loveeee alot .

i think i understand guys abit uh . because theres this one time , this guy wanna say sth to me . and i said to him that i know what he wanna say to me . i think he was quite shocked and he didn talk to me since that day . i know what guys will be thinking whenever a girl talks bout him after they broke up . but i just wanna keep my mouth shut ..

unloved , i said.