KPOS , go away . dont read.
this post is just mainly for me to vent all my angers & sadness ?
DUHS , wadever.

i chan ren ? HAIS , how many times must i say to you , even if you msg me i wont reply & i did this to others too . i seldom talk on fone & seldom msg this few months . i dontknow how it feels ? i know , at least i know waiting is tough . im just like you , waiting . in the end ? you will get nothing. try asking yourself this question , how long can you wait ? TEN years ? no , yup ? i know waiting is tough so i want you ferget. u say u cant , & the only way i can make you ferget is being CHAN REN to you. this is the only way , isnt it ? how you want me to be nice to you when it tends to be have no ending ? i dont want history to repeat. its no use. no use waiting for something you wont get .

you thought hurting you again & again, i'll be happy ? i will feel good ?
no ,
what can i do for you ? none , correct ?
HAIS.

you must be saying that i never think of your feeling, then who would think of mine ? no one , NO ONE . stop saying you are useless, useless? stop waiting and you wont be useless anymore. NO MORE. forget is the only way you can feel better. no use saying you are useless. learn to take and let go. . im not a nice girl , im not a perfect girl for you . try to be with me one day , one day will be enough and you can spot many bad points of me . many many of them ,

how long you want to waste your time . its going to be one year le lehs , eleven more days and its one year. one year of waiting , you are wasting your time aload aload aloaddd. within the one year , you can find another girl and may have a chance to be with her. i just dontknow why i just cant wake you up , wake u up and make u realise that you are totally wasting your time. dont say sorry to me , say it to yourself. you yourself are making your life terrible.

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im just angry with myself . im angry of why i can ruin someone's life so easily . i can waste people's time just like this . ONE YEAR , its not one month not one day . its long, very long..i've been hurting him again & again , one year. i dontknow how to explain how much agony & anger i felt. is just that i dont want him to waste time. i dontwant him to be sad over things like this. i really really feel so bad , so bad. one year you know ? you can take this long period of time to do many many things. dont always say sorry to me , dont be too good to me . cause i know i dontknow how to appreciate what you did for me & i dont deserve it from you. not even a single .
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i felt so bitch of myself .
causing people to be like this.
really ,
its like POINTLESS to live.

i should be the one saying sorry , not you.
from the beginning , it should not be you .
really very sorry . dui bu qi -

bu yao lang fei ni de shi jian.
wake up , please.
hais .

i dont feel good.
im bad , im a heartbreaker .
hais.
i need someone to talk to now ,
im breaking down soon.
HAIS.

winnie , its your turn to scold me F. now -
its a return .
maybe i'll feel better been scolded.
hais.