i can only say yesterday night was a really tough night fer me. i felt so fucking helpless lahs , i cant even breathe && i felt so damn lonely and useless. no one is there for me , not no one at all but hais , i dun know how to explain . so i called jeanie , and cry cry cry & i cant speak properly . i just cant stop crying lahs . hais , twelve plus then sleep . my brother seems like know things about me ah . hais , dunno nahs. i really cant take it. someone cheer me up please.. hais.

then brendon called me . i told him i want to smoke . then he say next time meet up then he give me . hahas , finally sia. hais . so helpless .

today morning wake up , my eyes cant open & cried again . fucks, what happen to me. went to use computer. saw zhenlu 's blog, dont be silly , kays ? hais. then then i want to get out of my house so asked winnie whether they going out . so in the end went to bugis with michelle and winnie met up with clement they all also.

i saw a gay -.- somemore wear the same colour shirt with earnest . hahas , funny lahs. very sian ah , so walk around. shopping makes me happy . went to bugis street bought my crown necklace. $13 . but nice nahs. then go to bugis mall buy my half jacket. $23 . no money lers. sians

& i saw mic with her friends near the neoprint shop in the mall . waved to her and walked off lers, was really surprise when i saw her ; ) cheer up kays. takecare - after that , stay there awhile. take mrt to cck meet up with winnie's online friend- junjie. hais , another bian tai ders. go home lohs , take petir der. from keat hong to senja , i was all alone by myself . hais , think alot .. eight plus reach home.

liddat lohs , tired ah. tml still must do homework - aloaddd ,

i need you.
i need everyone's care.
i dont want to feel the loneliness.
hais , i dontwant.

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