change blogskin , finally !
change blog song , chenweilian- chu mo
people who want to cry , can come to my blog and listen to the song.
(: haaa , lame .
brr , im bored.
change my tagboard colour ler.
HAHAHAHAAA
i wont think anymore .
michelle , im stress. i cant promise you to not be sad.
icant.
min
Friday, March 31, 2006
thanks amanina fer the concerns (:
im happpy , cause at least u were there to ask me how am i .
& asked me to cheer up .
do cheer up too , okays?
nowsaday saw u like very sad like that de.
----
hais ,mood damn low now.
so dont provoke me ..
school was fine lah ,
nothing special actually.
learnt some malay words from sulastri & nazura .
they are very very nice girls (:
this time learn de not dirty words is proper malay words ah.
some words i dont know how to pronounce then say until like
weird weird de, at there laugh nors.
recess , didn go to canteen again .
didn really have the mood .
cause morning , i dontknow what to say .
mood also like very low
but im forcing myself to be happy
so tried to be siao abit ..
F & N lesson , the class made teacher sad lah .
went to find teacher at staff room .
after that no pratical ler , go back class study theory .
then finally end school lah ,
can go home sleep..
outside school been suan by qingwa ( frog ) hahaaa! , that gang of friends -.-
thanks fer reminding , i will concentrate but not concentrate on him
& i wont concentrate on him too.
im bad , i know.
jeffrey suddenly asked me bout clifton.
then i was like ..ya , so long never see him ler
yup , & he talked to me in msn just now lah. shocked seh -.-
before going back home .
went to greenridge and eat at there nor .
at the same time pei jeanie wait for er hems .
er hems came & he look sick lah .
go find your church de who or dontknow who and help you .
listen to jeanie !
eat finish ler , never talk lohs .
kept quiet cause my mood really very down .
hais , i dontknow lah .
i wanted to msg winnie but dontknow nah ...
hais..
went back home alone ,
they two dontknow go where also ..
hais & i dontknow what lah..
HAIS , you fucks dontknow lah .
fucks sad.
fucks depress.
& i dontknow what ler..HAIS
mood damn low now ):
& very very tired.
i want to sleep .
he happy can lers (:
im okay de , soon !
i've got nothing to say also.
HAIS...
TIDAK DICINTAI
unloved <3s>.<
min.
im happpy , cause at least u were there to ask me how am i .
& asked me to cheer up .
do cheer up too , okays?
nowsaday saw u like very sad like that de.
----
hais ,mood damn low now.
so dont provoke me ..
school was fine lah ,
nothing special actually.
learnt some malay words from sulastri & nazura .
they are very very nice girls (:
this time learn de not dirty words is proper malay words ah.
some words i dont know how to pronounce then say until like
weird weird de, at there laugh nors.
recess , didn go to canteen again .
didn really have the mood .
cause morning , i dontknow what to say .
mood also like very low
but im forcing myself to be happy
so tried to be siao abit ..
F & N lesson , the class made teacher sad lah .
went to find teacher at staff room .
after that no pratical ler , go back class study theory .
then finally end school lah ,
can go home sleep..
outside school been suan by qingwa ( frog ) hahaaa! , that gang of friends -.-
thanks fer reminding , i will concentrate but not concentrate on him
& i wont concentrate on him too.
im bad , i know.
jeffrey suddenly asked me bout clifton.
then i was like ..ya , so long never see him ler
yup , & he talked to me in msn just now lah. shocked seh -.-
before going back home .
went to greenridge and eat at there nor .
at the same time pei jeanie wait for er hems .
er hems came & he look sick lah .
go find your church de who or dontknow who and help you .
listen to jeanie !
eat finish ler , never talk lohs .
kept quiet cause my mood really very down .
hais , i dontknow lah .
i wanted to msg winnie but dontknow nah ...
hais..
went back home alone ,
they two dontknow go where also ..
hais & i dontknow what lah..
HAIS , you fucks dontknow lah .
fucks sad.
fucks depress.
& i dontknow what ler..HAIS
mood damn low now ):
& very very tired.
i want to sleep .
he happy can lers (:
im okay de , soon !
i've got nothing to say also.
HAIS...
TIDAK DICINTAI
unloved <3s>.<
min.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
hais .
very tired today . reach home about 7 .
then went down to get all the letters .
haa , my phone bill cheap fer this month lah .
mum was like very shocked .
school was okay .
didn get to present our social studies project ,
maybe tml .
& dontknow whether got meeting anot with ms chong,
hais .
after school , went to plaza makan first.
go around the plaza looking for jeanie's mum present.
yup , then damn dulan lah .
kept diao people and scolding vulgarities ,
BRR . nvm , ferget it.
took taxi back school to watch the ws idol.
went there to support my mei , renytta (:
of course , im abit bias lah .
voted fer her , but her performance also quite good ah .
& melissa's one , i was like going to break down lah .
haa , super sad song .
im STRESS .
help me , please-
stayed there till six plus and went home straight away.
--
in the taxi on the way back school,
saw alot of people standing outside mac .
got police car & ambulance.
& ya , before that i knew sure got taiji de cause
i saw people pushing at each other outside the bowling centre.
just now he called me , i thought it wasnt him
but was really him who did it.
he crazy sia , second time lers or more bah .
for brothers , go beat until that guy nose bleed sia.
hope he will not get caught lahh .
yup ,
i love fridays !
tml will be a very short day .
can go home sleep . zzz
hahaa .
imh alot ,
until ... HAIS -
min ,
very tired today . reach home about 7 .
then went down to get all the letters .
haa , my phone bill cheap fer this month lah .
mum was like very shocked .
school was okay .
didn get to present our social studies project ,
maybe tml .
& dontknow whether got meeting anot with ms chong,
hais .
after school , went to plaza makan first.
go around the plaza looking for jeanie's mum present.
yup , then damn dulan lah .
kept diao people and scolding vulgarities ,
BRR . nvm , ferget it.
took taxi back school to watch the ws idol.
went there to support my mei , renytta (:
of course , im abit bias lah .
voted fer her , but her performance also quite good ah .
& melissa's one , i was like going to break down lah .
haa , super sad song .
im STRESS .
help me , please-
stayed there till six plus and went home straight away.
--
in the taxi on the way back school,
saw alot of people standing outside mac .
got police car & ambulance.
& ya , before that i knew sure got taiji de cause
i saw people pushing at each other outside the bowling centre.
just now he called me , i thought it wasnt him
but was really him who did it.
he crazy sia , second time lers or more bah .
for brothers , go beat until that guy nose bleed sia.
hope he will not get caught lahh .
yup ,
i love fridays !
tml will be a very short day .
can go home sleep . zzz
hahaa .
imh alot ,
until ... HAIS -
min ,
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
lessons were okay for today .
except for pure geog again , i dont understand any single of it.
kept on yawning while mr ong was teaching.
& stupid michelle thought im crying =/
im really okay .
failed my math quiz again . duhs ,
must study for the fifth quiz later or else , 92 times !
copy 92 times of each question . BRR ,
i love F&N lessons , in IT lab.
hehs (: was talking bout eerie things .
nazura told us some too.
scary seh , then know alot of malay things from ms marina
<3 hearts her loads , good teacher !
before that , heard nazura teaching jocelyn malay dirty words lah .
haaa , then remembered about hafiz teaching me malay words yesterday.
its malay vulgarities . i still gong gong go pronounce it out -.-
cause i thought it was the word i want for guides project.
guides , quite fun today .
have a briefing from ms chong today .
and yea , another responsibilty to take . stress ?
very STRESS ! hais .
pratice the roll call , still not very sure .
sang songs and released at about 6pm.
went home straight away .
doing my homework later.
hehe . social studies done ! guides project done and presented !
MIN.
except for pure geog again , i dont understand any single of it.
kept on yawning while mr ong was teaching.
& stupid michelle thought im crying =/
im really okay .
failed my math quiz again . duhs ,
must study for the fifth quiz later or else , 92 times !
copy 92 times of each question . BRR ,
i love F&N lessons , in IT lab.
hehs (: was talking bout eerie things .
nazura told us some too.
scary seh , then know alot of malay things from ms marina
<3 hearts her loads , good teacher !
before that , heard nazura teaching jocelyn malay dirty words lah .
haaa , then remembered about hafiz teaching me malay words yesterday.
its malay vulgarities . i still gong gong go pronounce it out -.-
cause i thought it was the word i want for guides project.
guides , quite fun today .
have a briefing from ms chong today .
and yea , another responsibilty to take . stress ?
very STRESS ! hais .
pratice the roll call , still not very sure .
sang songs and released at about 6pm.
went home straight away .
doing my homework later.
hehe . social studies done ! guides project done and presented !
MIN.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
school ,
not really okay . whenever im doing maths ,
im going crazy already. HAIS.
i should have buck up since term one already .
now term two , and i've got alot of things i dontknow.
physics & pure geog , i dont really understand too.
especially pure geog , like today .
i felt like sleeping alot alot alot.
day-dreaming alot too.
& ya , i thought this friday should be going to west view primary
to help out in their sports day .
very eager to go back , miss there alot. hahs (:
but saw the email , it should be next week.
tml got guides and our presentation not yet ready.
ahh , later doing one lah but i dontknow how to start.
home economic , finally done !
social studies , hais .
need to redo . im lazy .
after school , waited for jeanie , her physics thingy , in canteen.
settle down & be guai enough to do our homework.
haaa ! then jeanie finish ler , come find us .
we stayed in school until the gate is closing .
& jeanie very crazy lah, i wont deny. me too .
hehs (: laughing non-stop . i see grass i can laugh.
and lols , saw victor and he scolded me siao .
then called him roti prata . all laugh like crazy lahh.
he asked me what roti prata then make me lohs.
i said again , ' tissue prata , roti prata . ahhh .. '
lols , damn funny . laugh until my stomach very pain and my tears gonna drop lah.
kept doing the hamster laughing , this is taught by jeanie.
jeanie = retard ? & zibi ?
HAHAA , michelle = hello kitty .
but , hais .. i cant stop thinking even when im laughing like siao .
--
doing my social studies project later.
must be wise enough to save inside the comp first after finishing it.
i dontwanna study anymore.
i wanna quit school ,
how i wish if i really can.
DUHS.
sometimes , i dont really know how to express out my feelings .
my english not good de. hahaa,
& cheryl , dont be upset lah .
everything will be okay de !
i want , i want , i wanttt....
hais , i dontknow..
stupid & silly .
MIN -
not really okay . whenever im doing maths ,
im going crazy already. HAIS.
i should have buck up since term one already .
now term two , and i've got alot of things i dontknow.
physics & pure geog , i dont really understand too.
especially pure geog , like today .
i felt like sleeping alot alot alot.
day-dreaming alot too.
& ya , i thought this friday should be going to west view primary
to help out in their sports day .
very eager to go back , miss there alot. hahs (:
but saw the email , it should be next week.
tml got guides and our presentation not yet ready.
ahh , later doing one lah but i dontknow how to start.
home economic , finally done !
social studies , hais .
need to redo . im lazy .
after school , waited for jeanie , her physics thingy , in canteen.
settle down & be guai enough to do our homework.
haaa ! then jeanie finish ler , come find us .
we stayed in school until the gate is closing .
& jeanie very crazy lah, i wont deny. me too .
hehs (: laughing non-stop . i see grass i can laugh.
and lols , saw victor and he scolded me siao .
then called him roti prata . all laugh like crazy lahh.
he asked me what roti prata then make me lohs.
i said again , ' tissue prata , roti prata . ahhh .. '
lols , damn funny . laugh until my stomach very pain and my tears gonna drop lah.
kept doing the hamster laughing , this is taught by jeanie.
jeanie = retard ? & zibi ?
HAHAA , michelle = hello kitty .
but , hais .. i cant stop thinking even when im laughing like siao .
--
doing my social studies project later.
must be wise enough to save inside the comp first after finishing it.
i dontwanna study anymore.
i wanna quit school ,
how i wish if i really can.
DUHS.
sometimes , i dont really know how to express out my feelings .
my english not good de. hahaa,
& cheryl , dont be upset lah .
everything will be okay de !
i want , i want , i wanttt....
hais , i dontknow..
stupid & silly .
MIN -
Monday, March 27, 2006
spoil my day .
ahh , i know u are worried.
but my eyes very pain lah ,
u ask me put the eyedrop more pain ahh.
dulan seh.
i know how to takecare of myself .
HAIS .
school okay lah .
cant really concentrate
& my grades are dropping.
i dontknow why too.
alot of things are making me go crazy lah .
girl guides project . no one is free
& i dontknow how to do all by myself.
then social studies , i've done finish already
BUT my floppy disk spoil.
how suay am i ah ? duhs ,
cheryl almost cry today ,
she said that her relationship with xj is drifting apart.
duhs , then hais . dontknow what to say also.
HAIS
everything is the same nah .
MIC , u saw this ?
hahaa , u said before ah ! buy me the PLAYBOY thing at parkway .
i wantt it &
i want to see yuyang too (:
hehs.
--
emptiness -
have you ever care ?
hais.
ahh , i know u are worried.
but my eyes very pain lah ,
u ask me put the eyedrop more pain ahh.
dulan seh.
i know how to takecare of myself .
HAIS .
school okay lah .
cant really concentrate
& my grades are dropping.
i dontknow why too.
alot of things are making me go crazy lah .
girl guides project . no one is free
& i dontknow how to do all by myself.
then social studies , i've done finish already
BUT my floppy disk spoil.
how suay am i ah ? duhs ,
cheryl almost cry today ,
she said that her relationship with xj is drifting apart.
duhs , then hais . dontknow what to say also.
HAIS
everything is the same nah .
MIC , u saw this ?
hahaa , u said before ah ! buy me the PLAYBOY thing at parkway .
i wantt it &
i want to see yuyang too (:
hehs.
--
emptiness -
have you ever care ?
hais.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
HEHS x )
thanks mic , fer yuyang's song ! love it loads , hahaa. SUPER NICE LAH . & mic , dont think too much ah , next time wanna see your post happy happy one . dontwant sadsad de (:
this morning damn dulan lah . i cut my fringe & cheebye ! very short lah . almost cry out lohs . damn dulan , msg jeanie . then scoldscoldscold. fucks sia , that auntie . i gonna kill her , hahaa. but i bet i wont dare to do it. went home , did some homework & went out with jeanie & michelle to lot 1 . then , go meet the zodiac ladies , rena. quite some time never see her ler. haa , jeanie blur lah . cant remember . bo xim kia !
went to find tingjian kor after that walk away ler lohs.
my hair really sucks sia . i really felt like killing that auntie. AHH
regret lahs. hais , but wad can i do .
hair , faster grow back lahhs .
lols , like zi bi sia.
dontknow why `
i cant change back sia . kept scolding vulgarities.
HAIS .
- NEVER coming back ..
yesterday night , brendon called me lah . asked him things . hahaa , he find taiji lah & go beat that person . & suaysuay he beat one is my friend 's cousin. then also dontknow why lah , he asked me to ask that guy call in . & the other guy called . sort of shouted at each other in the fone at first . i diamdiam , listening . ask brendon to relax . then say what beat here beat there de , brr . in the end be friends sia . somemore , i never talk . they three at there chatting until very shuang liddat , asking whether he know this guy or that guy not ? hahaa , funny lah . then conference till 12 plus . i never even talk at all . nvm , incoming call free. LOLS . at least liddat , things settle ler , wont have any fightings . peace , hehs (:
MIN -
thanks mic , fer yuyang's song ! love it loads , hahaa. SUPER NICE LAH . & mic , dont think too much ah , next time wanna see your post happy happy one . dontwant sadsad de (:
this morning damn dulan lah . i cut my fringe & cheebye ! very short lah . almost cry out lohs . damn dulan , msg jeanie . then scoldscoldscold. fucks sia , that auntie . i gonna kill her , hahaa. but i bet i wont dare to do it. went home , did some homework & went out with jeanie & michelle to lot 1 . then , go meet the zodiac ladies , rena. quite some time never see her ler. haa , jeanie blur lah . cant remember . bo xim kia !
went to find tingjian kor after that walk away ler lohs.
my hair really sucks sia . i really felt like killing that auntie. AHH
regret lahs. hais , but wad can i do .
hair , faster grow back lahhs .
lols , like zi bi sia.
dontknow why `
i cant change back sia . kept scolding vulgarities.
HAIS .
- NEVER coming back ..
yesterday night , brendon called me lah . asked him things . hahaa , he find taiji lah & go beat that person . & suaysuay he beat one is my friend 's cousin. then also dontknow why lah , he asked me to ask that guy call in . & the other guy called . sort of shouted at each other in the fone at first . i diamdiam , listening . ask brendon to relax . then say what beat here beat there de , brr . in the end be friends sia . somemore , i never talk . they three at there chatting until very shuang liddat , asking whether he know this guy or that guy not ? hahaa , funny lah . then conference till 12 plus . i never even talk at all . nvm , incoming call free. LOLS . at least liddat , things settle ler , wont have any fightings . peace , hehs (:
MIN -
Saturday, March 25, 2006
dad's throat , hais.
mum's health . HAIS
fuck , why got so many things happen lah .
and my brother even shouted back to myy mum when my mum is really going to faint.
i mean like , hais . very stress lah .
i dontknow what to do other than studying well & ..
felt so hopeless.
&
i think aload &cry aload again
i know you hate me crying.
why didn you ask yourself this question .
why did i cry ? why ?
because of who . have you ever ask yourself this question ?
hais , you dont seems to understand.
you changed .
& really seems to be a stranger to me.
ferget it ,
i know nothing about you . NOTHING , isnt it ?
i can scold you aload like nobody cares.
but , i just seem that i cant do it.
sometimes , your words really fucking hurt me loads.
MIN-
mum's health . HAIS
fuck , why got so many things happen lah .
and my brother even shouted back to myy mum when my mum is really going to faint.
i mean like , hais . very stress lah .
i dontknow what to do other than studying well & ..
felt so hopeless.
&
i think aload &cry aload again
i know you hate me crying.
why didn you ask yourself this question .
why did i cry ? why ?
because of who . have you ever ask yourself this question ?
hais , you dont seems to understand.
you changed .
& really seems to be a stranger to me.
ferget it ,
i know nothing about you . NOTHING , isnt it ?
i can scold you aload like nobody cares.
but , i just seem that i cant do it.
sometimes , your words really fucking hurt me loads.
MIN-
Friday, March 24, 2006
也许有一天爱会变成恨
very sleepy the whole day.
& damn dulan dontknow for wad also .
maybe cause my uniform band , let vice-prin. catch .
brr , like 6 to 7 of us kena check .
then recess, cheryl cried lah .
cause shes jealous over something =/
but i dontknow why i felt it was normal.
less homeworks for this week ,
can relax more.
didn have quiz too today . mr chong forgot to come to our class.
blurblur de.
at nyte , i alone lah . mum go makan with her friends.
then i how sia ?
starving ? hais
im bored , i want to sleep.
MIN
very sleepy the whole day.
& damn dulan dontknow for wad also .
maybe cause my uniform band , let vice-prin. catch .
brr , like 6 to 7 of us kena check .
then recess, cheryl cried lah .
cause shes jealous over something =/
but i dontknow why i felt it was normal.
less homeworks for this week ,
can relax more.
didn have quiz too today . mr chong forgot to come to our class.
blurblur de.
at nyte , i alone lah . mum go makan with her friends.
then i how sia ?
starving ? hais
im bored , i want to sleep.
MIN
Thursday, March 23, 2006
yesterday night reply leslie's msg . first time bah . he asked me not to be upset for some reasons and i told him i dont feel anything anymore. but i cried out of the sudden while doing my homeworks halfway. its just like everything burst out. even though i know the fact , i know everything. i still cant take it . i dontknow why . for the past few days , one single drop of tears i also cant cry out. but .. , hais . what happen to me again ?
& you . you know who you are.
CHEER UP , k . dont smoke , its a no to u .
dont push all the blames to yourself.
you cant blame anyone.its no ones fault.
you dont sucks ,
you are not a failure.
remember it k ?
anything find me , although i cant cheer u up . as u agree before ah .
brr -.-
but u know , u can always find me to be your listener.
i hope you are really okay . i dont like to see you sad.
i wanna see the happy side of you asap , kay ?
takecare.
&
mic , i hope you are really really alright now.
dont cry anymore-
anything can tell me if you dont mind at msn .
always here, ya (:
do smile more.
--
school normal ? i love weekends . pc period , at first maybe going to sarawak with 3A & 3H de. butt , hmm i dont want . for close ones , u should know why i dont want. hahas , but the activities very interesting lah . then in the end , still got cameron highlands lor. hope is fun (:
one picture .
went to jasper's house today and took this photo.
very cute puppy lah , have really really big eyes.
ahh , i love this dog.
--
and also ,
i hope im okay too . HAIS
MIN -
& you . you know who you are.
CHEER UP , k . dont smoke , its a no to u .
dont push all the blames to yourself.
you cant blame anyone.its no ones fault.
you dont sucks ,
you are not a failure.
remember it k ?
anything find me , although i cant cheer u up . as u agree before ah .
brr -.-
but u know , u can always find me to be your listener.
i hope you are really okay . i dont like to see you sad.
i wanna see the happy side of you asap , kay ?
takecare.
&
mic , i hope you are really really alright now.
dont cry anymore-
anything can tell me if you dont mind at msn .
always here, ya (:
do smile more.
--
school normal ? i love weekends . pc period , at first maybe going to sarawak with 3A & 3H de. butt , hmm i dont want . for close ones , u should know why i dont want. hahas , but the activities very interesting lah . then in the end , still got cameron highlands lor. hope is fun (:
one picture .
went to jasper's house today and took this photo.
very cute puppy lah , have really really big eyes.
ahh , i love this dog.
--
and also ,
i hope im okay too . HAIS
MIN -
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
TODAY
---
today ? sian ah . but luckily , guides end early. school was normal , not much homework too. tml going to jasper's house do social studies project. try to finish it and present it to mr singh the next lesson . brr , chionging my chemistry worksheet later. pray hard hard that i'll know how to do. hahas
after school & after guides meeting , didn wait for winnie they all. jeanie dont want so early go home so we went to blk 535 there de bench sit down & talk . listen to mp3 , didn kesiao . lols , got abit lah. then talk & talk & talk . i cant cry out , lols . no tears come out. dontknow why cant also . diaos
maths need copy the answers 10 times each . waste my time. mr chong getting stricter and stricter ler. term one , he still smile smile and joke with us . this term , like very strict towards us ler . stress lah . HAIS ,
MIN
---
march 21
我爱你,你呢 ?
hais , today morning kena caught by ms ong ; assembly. stupid seh , catch my hair . then faster clip up lohs. what a day to start lahs . damn dulan . butt , ahh . ferget it. i wanna cut my hair , brr . second break , never go down . stay in class , do chemistry ws. then , my tears gonna drop lah . but didn , im strong (: hahaa , very stress lahh . is just that i dont listen in class ? ororor ? i dont understand lah , jasper teach me also going to teach until die cause too angry lers =x hahaa. maths lesson , think i did abit better than before ? yea , then dontknow why rebecca suddenly cry . shocked dao . heard from cheryl wad asthma ders. jeanie & christine der band also get caught . hais , better dont catch me lah . LOLS , go away ~ every morning must be guai abit pin up my stupid hair or else snip off =/ brr , strict grooming lah . spoil my day .
hahaa , then in class. nazura dirty lahhs ! we doing our english ah , then discussion . she do her work then suddenly look at me say , ' wo bu yao gen ni shang chuang ! ' then i was like stunned lah , then say back . ' wo ye bu yao gen ni shang chuang ~ ' sort of it . cant remember that much =/ lols , crazy girl lah but <3s her load.
after school , all kesiao lahs . they went to plaza , i didn. i want to sleep . today very less homework also, just that thursday must go jasper's house chiong our social studies project. & i finally passed my english lah . lols , tyco seh. happy eh, sians.
i hate going to school especially for today ? the feeling when seeing him makes me very very upset . very guilty & ya .. angry too , aload lahh . i wont wanna care , just treat everything like normal lor. tml have guides lah , our ' makan in the west ' also like never prepare. lalas, how seh ?
MIN -
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today ? sian ah . but luckily , guides end early. school was normal , not much homework too. tml going to jasper's house do social studies project. try to finish it and present it to mr singh the next lesson . brr , chionging my chemistry worksheet later. pray hard hard that i'll know how to do. hahas
after school & after guides meeting , didn wait for winnie they all. jeanie dont want so early go home so we went to blk 535 there de bench sit down & talk . listen to mp3 , didn kesiao . lols , got abit lah. then talk & talk & talk . i cant cry out , lols . no tears come out. dontknow why cant also . diaos
maths need copy the answers 10 times each . waste my time. mr chong getting stricter and stricter ler. term one , he still smile smile and joke with us . this term , like very strict towards us ler . stress lah . HAIS ,
MIN
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march 21
我爱你,你呢 ?
hais , today morning kena caught by ms ong ; assembly. stupid seh , catch my hair . then faster clip up lohs. what a day to start lahs . damn dulan . butt , ahh . ferget it. i wanna cut my hair , brr . second break , never go down . stay in class , do chemistry ws. then , my tears gonna drop lah . but didn , im strong (: hahaa , very stress lahh . is just that i dont listen in class ? ororor ? i dont understand lah , jasper teach me also going to teach until die cause too angry lers =x hahaa. maths lesson , think i did abit better than before ? yea , then dontknow why rebecca suddenly cry . shocked dao . heard from cheryl wad asthma ders. jeanie & christine der band also get caught . hais , better dont catch me lah . LOLS , go away ~ every morning must be guai abit pin up my stupid hair or else snip off =/ brr , strict grooming lah . spoil my day .
hahaa , then in class. nazura dirty lahhs ! we doing our english ah , then discussion . she do her work then suddenly look at me say , ' wo bu yao gen ni shang chuang ! ' then i was like stunned lah , then say back . ' wo ye bu yao gen ni shang chuang ~ ' sort of it . cant remember that much =/ lols , crazy girl lah but <3s her load.
after school , all kesiao lahs . they went to plaza , i didn. i want to sleep . today very less homework also, just that thursday must go jasper's house chiong our social studies project. & i finally passed my english lah . lols , tyco seh. happy eh, sians.
i hate going to school especially for today ? the feeling when seeing him makes me very very upset . very guilty & ya .. angry too , aload lahh . i wont wanna care , just treat everything like normal lor. tml have guides lah , our ' makan in the west ' also like never prepare. lalas, how seh ?
MIN -
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Monday, March 20, 2006
KPOS , go away . dont read.
this post is just mainly for me to vent all my angers & sadness ?
DUHS , wadever.
i chan ren ? HAIS , how many times must i say to you , even if you msg me i wont reply & i did this to others too . i seldom talk on fone & seldom msg this few months . i dontknow how it feels ? i know , at least i know waiting is tough . im just like you , waiting . in the end ? you will get nothing. try asking yourself this question , how long can you wait ? TEN years ? no , yup ? i know waiting is tough so i want you ferget. u say u cant , & the only way i can make you ferget is being CHAN REN to you. this is the only way , isnt it ? how you want me to be nice to you when it tends to be have no ending ? i dont want history to repeat. its no use. no use waiting for something you wont get .
you thought hurting you again & again, i'll be happy ? i will feel good ?
no ,
what can i do for you ? none , correct ?
HAIS.
you must be saying that i never think of your feeling, then who would think of mine ? no one , NO ONE . stop saying you are useless, useless? stop waiting and you wont be useless anymore. NO MORE. forget is the only way you can feel better. no use saying you are useless. learn to take and let go. . im not a nice girl , im not a perfect girl for you . try to be with me one day , one day will be enough and you can spot many bad points of me . many many of them ,
how long you want to waste your time . its going to be one year le lehs , eleven more days and its one year. one year of waiting , you are wasting your time aload aload aloaddd. within the one year , you can find another girl and may have a chance to be with her. i just dontknow why i just cant wake you up , wake u up and make u realise that you are totally wasting your time. dont say sorry to me , say it to yourself. you yourself are making your life terrible.
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im just angry with myself . im angry of why i can ruin someone's life so easily . i can waste people's time just like this . ONE YEAR , its not one month not one day . its long, very long..i've been hurting him again & again , one year. i dontknow how to explain how much agony & anger i felt. is just that i dont want him to waste time. i dontwant him to be sad over things like this. i really really feel so bad , so bad. one year you know ? you can take this long period of time to do many many things. dont always say sorry to me , dont be too good to me . cause i know i dontknow how to appreciate what you did for me & i dont deserve it from you. not even a single .
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i felt so bitch of myself .
causing people to be like this.
really ,
its like POINTLESS to live.
i should be the one saying sorry , not you.
from the beginning , it should not be you .
really very sorry . dui bu qi -
bu yao lang fei ni de shi jian.
wake up , please.
hais .
i dont feel good.
im bad , im a heartbreaker .
hais.
i need someone to talk to now ,
im breaking down soon.
HAIS.
winnie , its your turn to scold me F. now -
its a return .
maybe i'll feel better been scolded.
hais.
this post is just mainly for me to vent all my angers & sadness ?
DUHS , wadever.
i chan ren ? HAIS , how many times must i say to you , even if you msg me i wont reply & i did this to others too . i seldom talk on fone & seldom msg this few months . i dontknow how it feels ? i know , at least i know waiting is tough . im just like you , waiting . in the end ? you will get nothing. try asking yourself this question , how long can you wait ? TEN years ? no , yup ? i know waiting is tough so i want you ferget. u say u cant , & the only way i can make you ferget is being CHAN REN to you. this is the only way , isnt it ? how you want me to be nice to you when it tends to be have no ending ? i dont want history to repeat. its no use. no use waiting for something you wont get .
you thought hurting you again & again, i'll be happy ? i will feel good ?
no ,
what can i do for you ? none , correct ?
HAIS.
you must be saying that i never think of your feeling, then who would think of mine ? no one , NO ONE . stop saying you are useless, useless? stop waiting and you wont be useless anymore. NO MORE. forget is the only way you can feel better. no use saying you are useless. learn to take and let go. . im not a nice girl , im not a perfect girl for you . try to be with me one day , one day will be enough and you can spot many bad points of me . many many of them ,
how long you want to waste your time . its going to be one year le lehs , eleven more days and its one year. one year of waiting , you are wasting your time aload aload aloaddd. within the one year , you can find another girl and may have a chance to be with her. i just dontknow why i just cant wake you up , wake u up and make u realise that you are totally wasting your time. dont say sorry to me , say it to yourself. you yourself are making your life terrible.
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im just angry with myself . im angry of why i can ruin someone's life so easily . i can waste people's time just like this . ONE YEAR , its not one month not one day . its long, very long..i've been hurting him again & again , one year. i dontknow how to explain how much agony & anger i felt. is just that i dont want him to waste time. i dontwant him to be sad over things like this. i really really feel so bad , so bad. one year you know ? you can take this long period of time to do many many things. dont always say sorry to me , dont be too good to me . cause i know i dontknow how to appreciate what you did for me & i dont deserve it from you. not even a single .
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i felt so bitch of myself .
causing people to be like this.
really ,
its like POINTLESS to live.
i should be the one saying sorry , not you.
from the beginning , it should not be you .
really very sorry . dui bu qi -
bu yao lang fei ni de shi jian.
wake up , please.
hais .
i dont feel good.
im bad , im a heartbreaker .
hais.
i need someone to talk to now ,
im breaking down soon.
HAIS.
winnie , its your turn to scold me F. now -
its a return .
maybe i'll feel better been scolded.
hais.
HEHS (:
school sucks ? cause of that grooming check.
must tuck all my shirt in . clip my hair up.
must wait till go back class then tuck out my shirt & pull out my clip.
very ma fan. heng is mdm hartarti check for the second round . not ms ong =x
lols , lucky lahh.
went to lot one today after school ! with all my GIRLfriends.
hahas. went to find tingjian kor !
quite long never see him ler ,
thenthen . walk around . bought two playboy stuffs lah . happy like siao
but money fly fly away lahs. HAIS
after makan , go find tj kor again .
still so lame like before , started to crap with him lahs .
ahahs , stand at I.P zone ders entrance quite long also .
dontknow how long ah , maybe 15 mins plus .
cause he need people to talk , or else he will be very sian .
lols , wad he did make us laugh like crazy lahs.
--
PICTURES !
` in mini toons .
tada ! JEANIE (: tha silly & crazy girl.
ME & JEANIE . SIAO !
* intension ; to kiss that tiger ?
i dontknow wad is that too , hahas=/
LAUGH & laugh & laugh, hehs.
the person working there may felt that we are very noisy ?
dontcare ah. lols
--
went home & tha stupid rain came. reached home ,very wet & headache lahs .cant take it. for sudden , i felt so .... when the rain came . HAIS-
super scary lah , walk alone inside the carpark . very dark eh.
i want TESTIMONIALS lahs , saw alot of people's friendster alot of testimonial eh . my one so little . BRR , i need them . anyone free ? hehs , write me one as soon as possible. i'll return you one ! hahaa.
FASTER ! sians. today very less homework ah . history teacher change , abit not used to it. sooner or later will bah . &&& why when i tell people about that thing , no one believe me ? LOLS , believe me lahhh . stupid michelle , dont believe me . its so unbelievable meh ? hahas , i dontknow ah . i need someone to love me , AHHH . my mum loves me . im crapping , okay. shh =x crazy = ME !
tml end school at 4 pm . BRR.
your attitude . mMm,
MIN-
school sucks ? cause of that grooming check.
must tuck all my shirt in . clip my hair up.
must wait till go back class then tuck out my shirt & pull out my clip.
very ma fan. heng is mdm hartarti check for the second round . not ms ong =x
lols , lucky lahh.
went to lot one today after school ! with all my GIRLfriends.
hahas. went to find tingjian kor !
quite long never see him ler ,
thenthen . walk around . bought two playboy stuffs lah . happy like siao
but money fly fly away lahs. HAIS
after makan , go find tj kor again .
still so lame like before , started to crap with him lahs .
ahahs , stand at I.P zone ders entrance quite long also .
dontknow how long ah , maybe 15 mins plus .
cause he need people to talk , or else he will be very sian .
lols , wad he did make us laugh like crazy lahs.
--
PICTURES !
` in mini toons .
tada ! JEANIE (: tha silly & crazy girl.
ME & JEANIE . SIAO !
* intension ; to kiss that tiger ?
i dontknow wad is that too , hahas=/
LAUGH & laugh & laugh, hehs.
the person working there may felt that we are very noisy ?
dontcare ah. lols
--
went home & tha stupid rain came. reached home ,very wet & headache lahs .cant take it. for sudden , i felt so .... when the rain came . HAIS-
super scary lah , walk alone inside the carpark . very dark eh.
i want TESTIMONIALS lahs , saw alot of people's friendster alot of testimonial eh . my one so little . BRR , i need them . anyone free ? hehs , write me one as soon as possible. i'll return you one ! hahaa.
FASTER ! sians. today very less homework ah . history teacher change , abit not used to it. sooner or later will bah . &&& why when i tell people about that thing , no one believe me ? LOLS , believe me lahhh . stupid michelle , dont believe me . its so unbelievable meh ? hahas , i dontknow ah . i need someone to love me , AHHH . my mum loves me . im crapping , okay. shh =x crazy = ME !
tml end school at 4 pm . BRR.
your attitude . mMm,
MIN-
Sunday, March 19, 2006
yesterday night went to wedding dinner ah ,
at orchard parade hotel .
then saw alot of relatives but some i never even see before.
aww , alot of guys working there shuai lah .
the hair very style . AHHHH , hahas =/
got one look like prince24 kor ,
another one look like edison chen & abit look like dewey -.-
alotttt lahs.. hahas .
i want go there again =b lalals ~
the one who is getting married is my cousin .
i never even talk to her before but she is so pretty yesterday nyte.
(: hehs.
makan there lohs , take photo.
my eyes red red . maybe too tired or dontknow what bah.
drank some wine ! hahaa ..
mum dont allow lah at first . then dont care,
drink & drink & drink.
got abit giddy . then started to be crazy ah .
hahas , suddenly very high . suddenly very low.
crazy lahhh .
my aunt also drink wine until abit sot sot .
kept saying wrong word. face red red .
hahas.
reach home about 12 plus.
headache & sleep lers.
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today - wake up late nahs . whole body very pain . tml going to school lers.. why like so fast de
-.- i haven finish my homework. chiong all my hw later lorhs- maths & history. receive school letter, every tuesday 4pm end then other days 2.30 the same (: heng not everyday 4pm , or else sure very tired.
i want to cut my hair lahhh.
HAIS ,
i hate going to school ,
i hate studying.
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i dontknow how.
HAIS.
HOW ?
MIN-
at orchard parade hotel .
then saw alot of relatives but some i never even see before.
aww , alot of guys working there shuai lah .
the hair very style . AHHHH , hahas =/
got one look like prince24 kor ,
another one look like edison chen & abit look like dewey -.-
alotttt lahs.. hahas .
i want go there again =b lalals ~
the one who is getting married is my cousin .
i never even talk to her before but she is so pretty yesterday nyte.
(: hehs.
makan there lohs , take photo.
my eyes red red . maybe too tired or dontknow what bah.
drank some wine ! hahaa ..
mum dont allow lah at first . then dont care,
drink & drink & drink.
got abit giddy . then started to be crazy ah .
hahas , suddenly very high . suddenly very low.
crazy lahhh .
my aunt also drink wine until abit sot sot .
kept saying wrong word. face red red .
hahas.
reach home about 12 plus.
headache & sleep lers.
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today - wake up late nahs . whole body very pain . tml going to school lers.. why like so fast de
-.- i haven finish my homework. chiong all my hw later lorhs- maths & history. receive school letter, every tuesday 4pm end then other days 2.30 the same (: heng not everyday 4pm , or else sure very tired.
i want to cut my hair lahhh.
HAIS ,
i hate going to school ,
i hate studying.
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i dontknow how.
HAIS.
HOW ?
MIN-
Saturday, March 18, 2006
GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY.
hais ,
AGAIN , again . cb
okay . sorry for vulgarities.
KAYAK again today .
& finally get our certs lahh.
but im black now.
idiot seh ,
raining now eh ,
just like my heart.
i dontknow wad im talking about `
but i know im abit crazy -.-
lols,
IM TIRED.
nyte go dinner (: hehs .
msg me anyone ? cause i'll be bored ders.
--
go on with your life .
you dont f . need me -
LALAS !
IHATEYOU
plus
HAIS ilu too .
MIN -
hais ,
AGAIN , again . cb
okay . sorry for vulgarities.
KAYAK again today .
& finally get our certs lahh.
but im black now.
idiot seh ,
raining now eh ,
just like my heart.
i dontknow wad im talking about `
but i know im abit crazy -.-
lols,
IM TIRED.
nyte go dinner (: hehs .
msg me anyone ? cause i'll be bored ders.
--
go on with your life .
you dont f . need me -
LALAS !
IHATEYOU
plus
HAIS ilu too .
MIN -
Friday, March 17, 2006
KAYAK .
fun lahs but im tanned . my hands ,
& 18 or 20 guides go only.
brr ..
i hope i wont get sunburn =/
went there from morning till 3 plus.
tml still must go again .
yup . thats mean must wake up early again lohs.
im tired , i want to sleep .
i NEED to sleep .
hehs , later ah .
anything msg me (:
pleaseeee , dont call meeeee !
night then call me . lols =x
for sudden , i wanted to cry.
kaos , everytyme moodswing buay sian eh .
MIN -
go find her*
HAIS
fun lahs but im tanned . my hands ,
& 18 or 20 guides go only.
brr ..
i hope i wont get sunburn =/
went there from morning till 3 plus.
tml still must go again .
yup . thats mean must wake up early again lohs.
im tired , i want to sleep .
i NEED to sleep .
hehs , later ah .
anything msg me (:
pleaseeee , dont call meeeee !
night then call me . lols =x
for sudden , i wanted to cry.
kaos , everytyme moodswing buay sian eh .
MIN -
go find her*
HAIS
Thursday, March 16, 2006
HAIS .
i knew a bad thing again & was quite shocked lahs .
maybe i dont even have the rights anymore.
& till now , i still dont believe lahs..
still dont. i trust ... HAIS
):
i more and more scare of that thing seh.
cause i think my guessings really really gonna be true soon ,
HAIS . & if that really happens ,
i dont know wad to do also.
brr.
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went to do project today . went to plaza then to senja CC do powerpoint & online there awhile. & meet jeanie at senja go buy things . comeback , go plaza with jeanie , karen & zayar again . ate at jack's place , jeanie & ahem go home . zayar go tution , me and karen go JP . wait for her to do all her stuffs , cut her hair till like 8 plus . took mrt , lrt home. karen go buy things makan and wenttt home sweet home about 9 going to ten reach home (:
tml must very very early wake up , go school . SIANS , sat also must. & i didn even touch my maths holiday assignments yet lah . ahhh ,
--
i really dontknow if that was the fact anot .
HAIS ,
sucks .
if it is the fact , i think everything would be hatred from the day onwards,
knowing the truth .
& everything can be change so quickly ,
including * ~
--
MIN -
i knew a bad thing again & was quite shocked lahs .
maybe i dont even have the rights anymore.
& till now , i still dont believe lahs..
still dont. i trust ... HAIS
):
i more and more scare of that thing seh.
cause i think my guessings really really gonna be true soon ,
HAIS . & if that really happens ,
i dont know wad to do also.
brr.
--
went to do project today . went to plaza then to senja CC do powerpoint & online there awhile. & meet jeanie at senja go buy things . comeback , go plaza with jeanie , karen & zayar again . ate at jack's place , jeanie & ahem go home . zayar go tution , me and karen go JP . wait for her to do all her stuffs , cut her hair till like 8 plus . took mrt , lrt home. karen go buy things makan and wenttt home sweet home about 9 going to ten reach home (:
tml must very very early wake up , go school . SIANS , sat also must. & i didn even touch my maths holiday assignments yet lah . ahhh ,
--
i really dontknow if that was the fact anot .
HAIS ,
sucks .
if it is the fact , i think everything would be hatred from the day onwards,
knowing the truth .
& everything can be change so quickly ,
including * ~
--
MIN -
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
* mei chi deng dao shi qu shi ,
cai ming bai ni dui wo duo me zhong yao .
just now went plaza with mum to makan .
then like suddenly me very moodswing
& gave mum attitude.
sorry ah .
all the way back home . i didn talk.
very quiet. i was thinking lahs .
but i also dontknow what i thinking also .
mum asked me , i said nothing .
mmm..
memories flashed back -
--
hais ,
wads wrong with me lah .
such small things i also need to care .
& trouble with it.
suddenly felt that i very sensative of things like this.
i wont even care bout it last time ders.
hais .. i really donno wads wrong with me leh.
bad things always come to me*
cai ming bai ni dui wo duo me zhong yao .
just now went plaza with mum to makan .
then like suddenly me very moodswing
& gave mum attitude.
sorry ah .
all the way back home . i didn talk.
very quiet. i was thinking lahs .
but i also dontknow what i thinking also .
mum asked me , i said nothing .
mmm..
memories flashed back -
--
hais ,
wads wrong with me lah .
such small things i also need to care .
& trouble with it.
suddenly felt that i very sensative of things like this.
i wont even care bout it last time ders.
hais .. i really donno wads wrong with me leh.
bad things always come to me*
no longer the same -
tired ah today . hais , had a very very weird dream ytd night.
yup , tml go do my ss project bahs.
sians. dontknow go until where again.
brr,
i felt like going out again.
- the three words, important to you .
--
陌生人
点了最后一支香烟
拿着准备好的行李
好想打个电话给你
却没有勇气
多么期待你会再打来
叫我别走你的最爱不必悲哀
电话没响所有一切都一样
还记得我们的承诺
总想起你说过爱我
自暴自弃也没用
难道我真的想不通
虽然伤口越来越痛
感觉呼吸越来越重
不会再停着, 一直做梦
哭也没用忍着伤痛
离开你我真的痛
你不知道你不知道
哭着看着你离开我
你看不到你听不到
为什么为什么要离去
为什么为什么再相遇
已变成陌生人
看着我们当天的那照片
当天我们的记念那灰蓝的天又再回到从前
躺在我的怀里看夕阳
你说希望永远都一样
不管怎样不停回想
结局过后还能怎样
tired ah today . hais , had a very very weird dream ytd night.
yup , tml go do my ss project bahs.
sians. dontknow go until where again.
brr,
i felt like going out again.
- the three words, important to you .
--
陌生人
点了最后一支香烟
拿着准备好的行李
好想打个电话给你
却没有勇气
多么期待你会再打来
叫我别走你的最爱不必悲哀
电话没响所有一切都一样
还记得我们的承诺
总想起你说过爱我
自暴自弃也没用
难道我真的想不通
虽然伤口越来越痛
感觉呼吸越来越重
不会再停着, 一直做梦
哭也没用忍着伤痛
离开你我真的痛
你不知道你不知道
哭着看着你离开我
你看不到你听不到
为什么为什么要离去
为什么为什么再相遇
已变成陌生人
看着我们当天的那照片
当天我们的记念那灰蓝的天又再回到从前
躺在我的怀里看夕阳
你说希望永远都一样
不管怎样不停回想
结局过后还能怎样
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
AS LONG AS HE IS HAPPY .
* winnie ask me to think this way & ya .
yesterday night super sad lahs.
YUYANG OUT .
why he out sia. ahhh
hais,
im back (:
hehs, went to bugis today with winnie & jeanie & clement they all .
im sooooooo happy cause i finally...
bought my playboy tee ! & a crown ring at bugis street
cost me aload lahs. hais ):
i want moreeee things of playboy.
then dontknow why suddenly mood very down in the neoprint shop ah .
winnie & jeanie go take neoprints , i didn .
i stand outside dontknow do what also . lols
today kept ' zao-geng ' lahs . DUHS !
three plus went back to keathong .
only me , winnie & jeanie go . clement and others continue walk in bugis.
yups ,
reach keathong lers , go mac find tha pingyan .
dontknow if spell correct anot.
cause winnie wanna meet him . LOLS
then they two paiseh , saw wendy there also.
in the end , only me & jeanie talk aload only.
nyte go back winnie's house awhile .
online & hais.
then go off from her house ler . walk walk awhile
& lols , stupid lah .
me & jeanie go try to buy lalalas to drink lohs.
just trying our luck.
fucks , shouldnt even say anything in the shop
and straight away go & buy & drinnkkkk lahs !
we didn get it . BRRR..
im the one who wanna drink the most -.-
i think so >.<>under-depression . hahaa ,
seven plus go pei winnie buy her drinks then me & jean
take lrt go home ler nor.
AHHH , later still must chiong my history questions lah.
holiday still must do hw sia.
today must chiong till midnight already . do at least three nors !
tired seh .
but , i still love my HOLIDAYS .
min & jean .
always here.
MIN -
* winnie ask me to think this way & ya .
yesterday night super sad lahs.
YUYANG OUT .
why he out sia. ahhh
hais,
im back (:
hehs, went to bugis today with winnie & jeanie & clement they all .
im sooooooo happy cause i finally...
bought my playboy tee ! & a crown ring at bugis street
cost me aload lahs. hais ):
i want moreeee things of playboy.
then dontknow why suddenly mood very down in the neoprint shop ah .
winnie & jeanie go take neoprints , i didn .
i stand outside dontknow do what also . lols
today kept ' zao-geng ' lahs . DUHS !
three plus went back to keathong .
only me , winnie & jeanie go . clement and others continue walk in bugis.
yups ,
reach keathong lers , go mac find tha pingyan .
dontknow if spell correct anot.
cause winnie wanna meet him . LOLS
then they two paiseh , saw wendy there also.
in the end , only me & jeanie talk aload only.
nyte go back winnie's house awhile .
online & hais.
then go off from her house ler . walk walk awhile
& lols , stupid lah .
me & jeanie go try to buy lalalas to drink lohs.
just trying our luck.
fucks , shouldnt even say anything in the shop
and straight away go & buy & drinnkkkk lahs !
we didn get it . BRRR..
im the one who wanna drink the most -.-
i think so >.<>under-depression . hahaa ,
seven plus go pei winnie buy her drinks then me & jean
take lrt go home ler nor.
AHHH , later still must chiong my history questions lah.
holiday still must do hw sia.
today must chiong till midnight already . do at least three nors !
tired seh .
but , i still love my HOLIDAYS .
min & jean .
always here.
MIN -
Monday, March 13, 2006
karen scold me lahs ! hahas , cb . i want to msg her but , who crying already lers still can remember so much . anyway thanksss (; fer always tell me what to do when im feeling down & ya , makes me feel better at times.
but like what i said , pain still there lahs . no matter how much i cry .
HAIS .
i need someone to talk to & cry.
MIC , saw your post . yea , i think we really feeling the same.
hais , & be happy !
--
pictures took at east coast .
my bag & michelle's hand. hahas ,
i love michelle but she love him .
lame sia me -.-
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slept the whole day again nah today . dontknow what to do again . hais & cried just now again lah . kaos ,dontknow what happen to me lahs ! i very scare something . HAIS ):
-
STILL HERE.
MIN-
never reveal `
but like what i said , pain still there lahs . no matter how much i cry .
HAIS .
i need someone to talk to & cry.
MIC , saw your post . yea , i think we really feeling the same.
hais , & be happy !
--
pictures took at east coast .
my bag & michelle's hand. hahas ,
i love michelle but she love him .
lame sia me -.-
--
slept the whole day again nah today . dontknow what to do again . hais & cried just now again lah . kaos ,dontknow what happen to me lahs ! i very scare something . HAIS ):
-
STILL HERE.
MIN-
never reveal `
Sunday, March 12, 2006
its the second month already. i've got no motivation to move on. brrr , went to white sands today - escape ! hahas , sians lah . hais , then they go ride bicycle . me alone go sit down. started to cry with mich . never listen to mp3 when u are feeling down ! cause you will cry until very jialat. yup , stop crying lers then go beach walk walk nor with winnie , jeanie and mich . imagine four person hug together & cry . crazy har ? people walk past also will say siao nahs .except jeanie nah , she nv cry . no tears came out from her eyes.
i hug jeanie very tight & cry & yes . pour out everything to her . but i dun feel any better . i dontknow why .
hais , walk along the beach & repeat the same sentence . ' 你没有教我怎么忘掉你 ,你知道我的心很痛吗? ' & cried alot alot alot. until clement they all asked me why i cry until so cham liddat. hahas , first time cry so fucks long nah . cause three of us cry non-stop. cry ler , stop & cry again -.- see each other cry also buay tahan. my tears wont get to stop today . ahhh , mich ferget beat people nah ! hais . all the guys behind waiting for us to cry finish . wrote alot alot of things on the sand . but over a rainy night , all will disappear ders. hais ,
when go take mrt to city hall , crazy abit nah . xD ask clement & jiahao buy lalalas for us to drink if at marina bay . but in the end , never go ah . cause very late ler. halfway in mrt , my stomach very pain . cause from morning 11 plus till 8 plus never eat ah . reach city hall ler still must walk to marina square. michelle hold on to me cause im really going to faint lers . thanks ah (: <3s very pain nah ! go makan ler , still the same . very pain . cry & cry & cry , still fucks pain . clement see ler , shocked lahs. i need medicine.. hais . i wantt to go home ahh , so took taxi back with mich , jeanie & ahem . wait for taxi also very longgg , pain like hell ! duhs . told michelle something .
有时侯我需要他,
可是他却不在我身边..
went down at lot 1 . all kesiao in taxi also . crazy better lahs . ahem & jeanie go take petir first. me & mich take senja de. all alone lahs after mich went off at south view. think alot again . HAIS , walk home alone nor . reach home bout ten plus , i want to go home later than that ... im not having alot of fun today & i cant too . hais
hahas funny lah , jiahao asked , ' that kuku boy again ah ? ' in msn to me lols , kuku boy -.-
&
i happen to see someone's blog just now . cause i was searching ah , then also donno why can search until her blog sia . i think is her secret blog bahs . she is going to like either _ _ _ _ or _ _ _ _ _ lers. hais , donno nahs . she at there write wad choose de. mmm , maybe if she like him , then maybe he will like her back & he will be happy ? donno ah . HAIS ,
i donno wad im talking about also .
people's secret blog means privacy . i wont say anything bout it, so dont ask also ! wont tell .
* i'll post the pics next time.
it doesnt matters if it is the fact ,
i would hold on to the pain .
its tha 12th =/
HAIS
my guessings wasnt wrong .
MIN -
i hug jeanie very tight & cry & yes . pour out everything to her . but i dun feel any better . i dontknow why .
hais , walk along the beach & repeat the same sentence . ' 你没有教我怎么忘掉你 ,你知道我的心很痛吗? ' & cried alot alot alot. until clement they all asked me why i cry until so cham liddat. hahas , first time cry so fucks long nah . cause three of us cry non-stop. cry ler , stop & cry again -.- see each other cry also buay tahan. my tears wont get to stop today . ahhh , mich ferget beat people nah ! hais . all the guys behind waiting for us to cry finish . wrote alot alot of things on the sand . but over a rainy night , all will disappear ders. hais ,
when go take mrt to city hall , crazy abit nah . xD ask clement & jiahao buy lalalas for us to drink if at marina bay . but in the end , never go ah . cause very late ler. halfway in mrt , my stomach very pain . cause from morning 11 plus till 8 plus never eat ah . reach city hall ler still must walk to marina square. michelle hold on to me cause im really going to faint lers . thanks ah (: <3s very pain nah ! go makan ler , still the same . very pain . cry & cry & cry , still fucks pain . clement see ler , shocked lahs. i need medicine.. hais . i wantt to go home ahh , so took taxi back with mich , jeanie & ahem . wait for taxi also very longgg , pain like hell ! duhs . told michelle something .
有时侯我需要他,
可是他却不在我身边..
went down at lot 1 . all kesiao in taxi also . crazy better lahs . ahem & jeanie go take petir first. me & mich take senja de. all alone lahs after mich went off at south view. think alot again . HAIS , walk home alone nor . reach home bout ten plus , i want to go home later than that ... im not having alot of fun today & i cant too . hais
hahas funny lah , jiahao asked , ' that kuku boy again ah ? ' in msn to me lols , kuku boy -.-
&
i happen to see someone's blog just now . cause i was searching ah , then also donno why can search until her blog sia . i think is her secret blog bahs . she is going to like either _ _ _ _ or _ _ _ _ _ lers. hais , donno nahs . she at there write wad choose de. mmm , maybe if she like him , then maybe he will like her back & he will be happy ? donno ah . HAIS ,
i donno wad im talking about also .
people's secret blog means privacy . i wont say anything bout it, so dont ask also ! wont tell .
* i'll post the pics next time.
it doesnt matters if it is the fact ,
i would hold on to the pain .
its tha 12th =/
HAIS
my guessings wasnt wrong .
MIN -
Saturday, March 11, 2006
hais . suppose got go national library ders to do the ss project. this holiday is not a week fer me to enjoy anymore. brrr , sunday going out bahs . not sure, i dontknow i want to go anot. this morning went to school lohs , guides enrolement ceremony.yes , THREE years then can enrole. fucks long lohs . sec one also don need to wait for so longgggg , they took only few months to be enrolled. bahhhh , like so damn malu when going out with guides uniform nah , not enrolled like the others , very few badges. hais .
& was very malu lahs today . all the guides very nervous then kept doing the wrong thing. my group more pathetic . only me & jermaine . so its okay nors. finish ler , take photos & went to plaza makan with jeanie and cheryl. tireddd, so went back home & sleep. from ten plus to two plus. hehs =/ pig. wakeup , very siann . nothing to do ah , i want to go bugis and get my playboy tee lahhsssss... HAIS.
tml . go out ? ahh , dontknow. mon go do research ? dontknow. ytd when i want to ask , my brother came back and wanted to use the comp -.- so hais , didn ask nah. yup, i think if ask , wont reply also. hais ):
went to friendster & damn dulan cause of something. ferget it , its so different also. yes , hais. at night go plaza with mum , maybe bah
then now chatting with winnie , justnow kept scolding vulgarities lah in the conversation. damn angry again cause of lalalas. yup , brr . must relax.
RONNIE & his group lost his way to the place we went ytd. & he called me. lalas.
hahas,
MIN -
; tml , i wont cry.
& was very malu lahs today . all the guides very nervous then kept doing the wrong thing. my group more pathetic . only me & jermaine . so its okay nors. finish ler , take photos & went to plaza makan with jeanie and cheryl. tireddd, so went back home & sleep. from ten plus to two plus. hehs =/ pig. wakeup , very siann . nothing to do ah , i want to go bugis and get my playboy tee lahhsssss... HAIS.
tml . go out ? ahh , dontknow. mon go do research ? dontknow. ytd when i want to ask , my brother came back and wanted to use the comp -.- so hais , didn ask nah. yup, i think if ask , wont reply also. hais ):
went to friendster & damn dulan cause of something. ferget it , its so different also. yes , hais. at night go plaza with mum , maybe bah
then now chatting with winnie , justnow kept scolding vulgarities lah in the conversation. damn angry again cause of lalalas. yup , brr . must relax.
RONNIE & his group lost his way to the place we went ytd. & he called me. lalas.
hahas,
MIN -
; tml , i wont cry.
Friday, March 10, 2006
mmm , went to somewhere near town area after school . the MICA building. went there to do our social studies research . hahas , but we went to the wrong building. teacher gave wrong lahs. & so we walk & walk .. walk past this civil defence statue
tada!
damn funny nahs . that guy is ZAYAR ! i asked him to pose & he really did ! laugh all the way till the correct building xD hehs . lame !
did all the research there for about two hours until the building is closing soon . going to cry when i found none of it & so stress nahs. hais.. went home . tired ehs , i miss jeanie they all lahs . they go lot 1 , hais ! listen to zayar's mp3 in the bus & hais . moodswing again-
another picture of that time we met up with clement they all.
hes a cute guy ! hahs (:
winnie , i know you want it ! lalas
duck ~ quack . lols
--
reach my house 's lift & this cute malay guy came in , i think older than me abit only . when he walked off from the lift , he smiled at me and say thanks . awww.. hahs , cute lahs. hais ,
i dont understand what you mean . mmm , somebody told you what ? hais , why you everytyme say finish lers then offline nah -.- brrr..
chat with cheryl during the PE lessons . i forgot to ask winnie keep my handfone lahs , so worry bout it ; i put in the class . ahh , chat with cheryl while the others were playing badminton. im gonna cry lahs, told her what karen told me. what to do ? hais. i really dontknow. i just cant put my heart to it & i think i dunwan too.
im trying very hard just not to speak vulgarities =x
sunday . not sure whether going out anot.
I WANT TO GET MY PLAYBOY TEE-SHIRT SOON AT BUGIS . I WANT !
MIN-
i fucks miss ...
HAIS .
tada!
damn funny nahs . that guy is ZAYAR ! i asked him to pose & he really did ! laugh all the way till the correct building xD hehs . lame !
did all the research there for about two hours until the building is closing soon . going to cry when i found none of it & so stress nahs. hais.. went home . tired ehs , i miss jeanie they all lahs . they go lot 1 , hais ! listen to zayar's mp3 in the bus & hais . moodswing again-
another picture of that time we met up with clement they all.
hes a cute guy ! hahs (:
winnie , i know you want it ! lalas
duck ~ quack . lols
--
reach my house 's lift & this cute malay guy came in , i think older than me abit only . when he walked off from the lift , he smiled at me and say thanks . awww.. hahs , cute lahs. hais ,
i dont understand what you mean . mmm , somebody told you what ? hais , why you everytyme say finish lers then offline nah -.- brrr..
chat with cheryl during the PE lessons . i forgot to ask winnie keep my handfone lahs , so worry bout it ; i put in the class . ahh , chat with cheryl while the others were playing badminton. im gonna cry lahs, told her what karen told me. what to do ? hais. i really dontknow. i just cant put my heart to it & i think i dunwan too.
im trying very hard just not to speak vulgarities =x
sunday . not sure whether going out anot.
I WANT TO GET MY PLAYBOY TEE-SHIRT SOON AT BUGIS . I WANT !
MIN-
i fucks miss ...
HAIS .
Thursday, March 09, 2006
pissed off with some things.
i just dont understand why such people got so many people go crazy about him/her.
fucks , have a heart lahs at least. think about people's feeling , can .
YOU COLD-BLOODED HAR ?
damn dulan sia.
im attitude-
scram if you dont like it.
go far far far far away .
i think i better dont see you &
you better dont let me see you.
cb , where is your heart lahs.
gone where already .
dont fucking hell treat my loves like that lahs.
& stepping them hard like nobody cares.
who the hell you think you are.
so great ah ? so many people like you
then proud , is it .
i REALLY hope i can give you one tight slap .
fucks.
- dont ask me about it . only to those i wanted to tell.
so dont ask if i didn say anything.
cause i might vent all my anger on you , you or YOU .
---
today , dont have math test.happy seh . afternoon, after school crazy people lahs , i didn want to go plaza but three CRAZY girls ; michelle , winnie & jeanie pull me go . like siao liddat . hahas , jeanie make spoil my handfone keychain lahs. hahas . reach there meet with clement they all. slack in mac fer the whole day. listen to michelle's mp3 and duhs ! all came out >.<
brrr , went home and knew such things simply piss me off.
changed*
MIN -
i just dont understand why such people got so many people go crazy about him/her.
fucks , have a heart lahs at least. think about people's feeling , can .
YOU COLD-BLOODED HAR ?
damn dulan sia.
im attitude-
scram if you dont like it.
go far far far far away .
i think i better dont see you &
you better dont let me see you.
cb , where is your heart lahs.
gone where already .
dont fucking hell treat my loves like that lahs.
& stepping them hard like nobody cares.
who the hell you think you are.
so great ah ? so many people like you
then proud , is it .
i REALLY hope i can give you one tight slap .
fucks.
- dont ask me about it . only to those i wanted to tell.
so dont ask if i didn say anything.
cause i might vent all my anger on you , you or YOU .
---
today , dont have math test.happy seh . afternoon, after school crazy people lahs , i didn want to go plaza but three CRAZY girls ; michelle , winnie & jeanie pull me go . like siao liddat . hahas , jeanie make spoil my handfone keychain lahs. hahas . reach there meet with clement they all. slack in mac fer the whole day. listen to michelle's mp3 and duhs ! all came out >.<
brrr , went home and knew such things simply piss me off.
changed*
MIN -
moodswing-
was talking to karen just now.
she told me lots of things &
yah , maybe thats the only way now .
i'll try ..
i wont mention here about it.
when i told her about it , she was kinda shocked lahs ,
she say that it was not worth it .
hahs.
sunday , dontknow go where. i dontwant to stay at home & fucking cry alone myself lahs ,
i want go high till midnight then go home .
min
was talking to karen just now.
she told me lots of things &
yah , maybe thats the only way now .
i'll try ..
i wont mention here about it.
when i told her about it , she was kinda shocked lahs ,
she say that it was not worth it .
hahs.
sunday , dontknow go where. i dontwant to stay at home & fucking cry alone myself lahs ,
i want go high till midnight then go home .
min
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
hais . sucks lahs.
i cant stop speaking vulgarities every moment in school.
dontknow why also lahhh . sometimes just very fed up with many things.
now once i speak vulgarities. they beat me ah !
even my laogong did that to me .
hahas , try to control ouh xD
people around me are crazy lahs , hais
& many many things are very confusing
extremely confusing .
heartpain for her lahs .
hais .
let things be lohs.
HAIS . nothing i could do with it also.
--
school was okay today . ahh , saturday still must come back school lahs for the enrolement ceremony & im the only person who will be present on that particular day in the patrol . stupid sia. like wad jeanie say nor , enrole myself better -.- dont know why felt like vomitting the whole afternoon , i think eat wrong thing nor. during guides , then better ler . yups , hais.
&
i took back my physics class test already.
hais ):
i score 60% again lahs same as chemistry .
ahh , every subject . my marks also dropped .
i need to study . holiday still got project need to do .
social studies , maybe this friday go to the dontknow where .
very far ah , is a place where there is many history resources there der.
i think somewhere near city hall .
yup , should be lohs . must finish up everything by the end of holiday
&
present it to the whole school on stage during the assembly.
anybody free , drop me a testimonial ! hehs (:
sat , enrolement ceremony ( guides ) . after that maybe go escape . sun , mon , tues , wed , thurs FREE . xD hehs , but still need to do holiday assignment.
thenn.. friday & sat kayaking .
sun at home be pig . lols
--
i always do *
HAIS
MIN -
i cant stop speaking vulgarities every moment in school.
dontknow why also lahhh . sometimes just very fed up with many things.
now once i speak vulgarities. they beat me ah !
even my laogong did that to me .
hahas , try to control ouh xD
people around me are crazy lahs , hais
& many many things are very confusing
extremely confusing .
heartpain for her lahs .
hais .
let things be lohs.
HAIS . nothing i could do with it also.
--
school was okay today . ahh , saturday still must come back school lahs for the enrolement ceremony & im the only person who will be present on that particular day in the patrol . stupid sia. like wad jeanie say nor , enrole myself better -.- dont know why felt like vomitting the whole afternoon , i think eat wrong thing nor. during guides , then better ler . yups , hais.
&
i took back my physics class test already.
hais ):
i score 60% again lahs same as chemistry .
ahh , every subject . my marks also dropped .
i need to study . holiday still got project need to do .
social studies , maybe this friday go to the dontknow where .
very far ah , is a place where there is many history resources there der.
i think somewhere near city hall .
yup , should be lohs . must finish up everything by the end of holiday
&
present it to the whole school on stage during the assembly.
anybody free , drop me a testimonial ! hehs (:
sat , enrolement ceremony ( guides ) . after that maybe go escape . sun , mon , tues , wed , thurs FREE . xD hehs , but still need to do holiday assignment.
thenn.. friday & sat kayaking .
sun at home be pig . lols
--
i always do *
HAIS
MIN -
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
hahs , super siao nahs today.
YUYANG in (: so happy , i jump sia when i know .
lols , yups . hes my favouriteeeeee =X
hees.
our school got one new teacher . mr huang .
nobody even care about the other new teacher nahs. lols ,
mr huang shuai sehhhhh . hahas , our home econ cher never come mah , then he take over us in the library four free periods ! all the girls scream and laugh like siao lahs . all tha face red especially jingting ders.
wahahas, cant concentrate nahs . kept looking at him . not only me ah , all the girls also. hua chi =X
hahas. crazy ahh.
we having home econ test ah , nobody watch also. our group all open book and copy . others also.
=/ lols . me , jocelyn , mich yeo , mich lim , jingting ,huijuan , cheryl & zihui .
eight people , the teacher also hack care ders. last few minutes , open book .
lalas.
i didn know the kenneth sec 5 de ah , can understand chinese sia. lols , cause jingting say bout something in chinese mah what accident ders. lols , curse people lahs. then he look at jingting & she started to askkkk him questions..
thursday got maths test again . hais , everyday also test nahs. im sleeping later zzz . pig lahs me , i know. lols . i didn go out with jeanie they all to plaza again today. very tired lahs , still got homework to do . cant tahan everyday so tired.
&&
mum not feeling well , hais . sians lah , i think is gastric got problem . ahh , holiday is coming.. weeees ~ hahas .
so sian nahs , so go to friendster & go almost all the friendster account i have , in my list & see. nothing to do mahs . hais , yup .
pity jeanie nahs , attached or single better ahh.
haaa .
CRAZY BITCH . hais.
MIN . MIN . MIN
AHHH .
byebye xD
YUYANG in (: so happy , i jump sia when i know .
lols , yups . hes my favouriteeeeee =X
hees.
our school got one new teacher . mr huang .
nobody even care about the other new teacher nahs. lols ,
mr huang shuai sehhhhh . hahas , our home econ cher never come mah , then he take over us in the library four free periods ! all the girls scream and laugh like siao lahs . all tha face red especially jingting ders.
wahahas, cant concentrate nahs . kept looking at him . not only me ah , all the girls also. hua chi =X
hahas. crazy ahh.
we having home econ test ah , nobody watch also. our group all open book and copy . others also.
=/ lols . me , jocelyn , mich yeo , mich lim , jingting ,huijuan , cheryl & zihui .
eight people , the teacher also hack care ders. last few minutes , open book .
lalas.
i didn know the kenneth sec 5 de ah , can understand chinese sia. lols , cause jingting say bout something in chinese mah what accident ders. lols , curse people lahs. then he look at jingting & she started to askkkk him questions..
thursday got maths test again . hais , everyday also test nahs. im sleeping later zzz . pig lahs me , i know. lols . i didn go out with jeanie they all to plaza again today. very tired lahs , still got homework to do . cant tahan everyday so tired.
&&
mum not feeling well , hais . sians lah , i think is gastric got problem . ahh , holiday is coming.. weeees ~ hahas .
so sian nahs , so go to friendster & go almost all the friendster account i have , in my list & see. nothing to do mahs . hais , yup .
pity jeanie nahs , attached or single better ahh.
haaa .
CRAZY BITCH . hais.
MIN . MIN . MIN
AHHH .
byebye xD
Monday, March 06, 2006
okay, first of all .
JEANIE (: & who ?
guess xD ..
hahas , last super long lahs hor . dont break kays .
story started seh . dont smile when you saw this post xD
happy fer you eh ? mmm.
is that a good news ? ):
--
school super sians lah . history lesson , im dozing off already. & one thing really upset me. hais , my results gone down . i mean almost all the subjects. even chinese. hais , i really cant believe . some also pass tyco only. i cant concentrate & alot of things is bugging me. hais . i wanted good grades lah . english more cham ah , kept failing . ahh , next term . ms waheeda & mr singh also not teaching us ler. how lahs. i hate studying but ..
min , buckup lahs.
hais , im tired.. winnie they all went to plaza lers. me go home, need to sleep & then study for my home econ test. chemistry test 24/40 . just hit 60% , walans .. stupid nahs. chinese ? cham ah , from 50 plus to 40 plus . AHH .. last time i still can get A1 now B3 . stupid , stupid , stupid nahs . stress lehs . others class only one to three homeworks . my class , one day can have 6 homework and one test. really very tired.. not fair seh.
even people who call me for chat . they also know what im going to say lers. ' i got homework . sorry , not free. weekend then call me. byebye ' only can sms nia. i dont really have time for myself to sit down and relax like last year anymore lers. things are tougher & difficult fer me to cope. can i quit school ? HAIS .
--
mihssimi -
hais.
MIN
* unloved
JEANIE (: & who ?
guess xD ..
hahas , last super long lahs hor . dont break kays .
story started seh . dont smile when you saw this post xD
happy fer you eh ? mmm.
is that a good news ? ):
--
school super sians lah . history lesson , im dozing off already. & one thing really upset me. hais , my results gone down . i mean almost all the subjects. even chinese. hais , i really cant believe . some also pass tyco only. i cant concentrate & alot of things is bugging me. hais . i wanted good grades lah . english more cham ah , kept failing . ahh , next term . ms waheeda & mr singh also not teaching us ler. how lahs. i hate studying but ..
min , buckup lahs.
hais , im tired.. winnie they all went to plaza lers. me go home, need to sleep & then study for my home econ test. chemistry test 24/40 . just hit 60% , walans .. stupid nahs. chinese ? cham ah , from 50 plus to 40 plus . AHH .. last time i still can get A1 now B3 . stupid , stupid , stupid nahs . stress lehs . others class only one to three homeworks . my class , one day can have 6 homework and one test. really very tired.. not fair seh.
even people who call me for chat . they also know what im going to say lers. ' i got homework . sorry , not free. weekend then call me. byebye ' only can sms nia. i dont really have time for myself to sit down and relax like last year anymore lers. things are tougher & difficult fer me to cope. can i quit school ? HAIS .
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mihssimi -
hais.
MIN
* unloved
Sunday, March 05, 2006
我什么都不是 , 对吗 .
我是真的不想忘掉你吗 ?
我很怕自己一个人要面对全部的一切 .
我怕我会哭, 我怕很多很多东西.
我怕....
很想自己能做得到.
): didn meet up with brendon today lahs. hais , he cant give me . ahh , wadever . went to supermarket with mum this morning & damn stupid lahs. the song he sent me before was played lahs. cb , my tears gonna drop .. hais, & asked mum whether i can buy to drink anot. then she stared at me . hais.
stupid sia , why didn you tell me - hais,
came back home. family problem again nahs. make me cry , make kor cry also . first time saw him cry just because mum scolded dad. ahh , heartpain lahs. & i felt so so so helpless again.
didn do my homework yet , later. studying my social studies later too.
all the people around me dont know how it feels like.
the pain is still there.
two days liddat gone ler. so fast nahs, faster holiday !
MIN
killing doesnt helps.
nohssjwj *
我是真的不想忘掉你吗 ?
我很怕自己一个人要面对全部的一切 .
我怕我会哭, 我怕很多很多东西.
我怕....
很想自己能做得到.
): didn meet up with brendon today lahs. hais , he cant give me . ahh , wadever . went to supermarket with mum this morning & damn stupid lahs. the song he sent me before was played lahs. cb , my tears gonna drop .. hais, & asked mum whether i can buy to drink anot. then she stared at me . hais.
stupid sia , why didn you tell me - hais,
came back home. family problem again nahs. make me cry , make kor cry also . first time saw him cry just because mum scolded dad. ahh , heartpain lahs. & i felt so so so helpless again.
didn do my homework yet , later. studying my social studies later too.
all the people around me dont know how it feels like.
the pain is still there.
two days liddat gone ler. so fast nahs, faster holiday !
MIN
killing doesnt helps.
nohssjwj *
Saturday, March 04, 2006
i can only say yesterday night was a really tough night fer me. i felt so fucking helpless lahs , i cant even breathe && i felt so damn lonely and useless. no one is there for me , not no one at all but hais , i dun know how to explain . so i called jeanie , and cry cry cry & i cant speak properly . i just cant stop crying lahs . hais , twelve plus then sleep . my brother seems like know things about me ah . hais , dunno nahs. i really cant take it. someone cheer me up please.. hais.
then brendon called me . i told him i want to smoke . then he say next time meet up then he give me . hahas , finally sia. hais . so helpless .
today morning wake up , my eyes cant open & cried again . fucks, what happen to me. went to use computer. saw zhenlu 's blog, dont be silly , kays ? hais. then then i want to get out of my house so asked winnie whether they going out . so in the end went to bugis with michelle and winnie met up with clement they all also.
i saw a gay -.- somemore wear the same colour shirt with earnest . hahas , funny lahs. very sian ah , so walk around. shopping makes me happy . went to bugis street bought my crown necklace. $13 . but nice nahs. then go to bugis mall buy my half jacket. $23 . no money lers. sians
& i saw mic with her friends near the neoprint shop in the mall . waved to her and walked off lers, was really surprise when i saw her ; ) cheer up kays. takecare - after that , stay there awhile. take mrt to cck meet up with winnie's online friend- junjie. hais , another bian tai ders. go home lohs , take petir der. from keat hong to senja , i was all alone by myself . hais , think alot .. eight plus reach home.
liddat lohs , tired ah. tml still must do homework - aloaddd ,
i need you.
i need everyone's care.
i dont want to feel the loneliness.
hais , i dontwant.
MIN-
):
then brendon called me . i told him i want to smoke . then he say next time meet up then he give me . hahas , finally sia. hais . so helpless .
today morning wake up , my eyes cant open & cried again . fucks, what happen to me. went to use computer. saw zhenlu 's blog, dont be silly , kays ? hais. then then i want to get out of my house so asked winnie whether they going out . so in the end went to bugis with michelle and winnie met up with clement they all also.
i saw a gay -.- somemore wear the same colour shirt with earnest . hahas , funny lahs. very sian ah , so walk around. shopping makes me happy . went to bugis street bought my crown necklace. $13 . but nice nahs. then go to bugis mall buy my half jacket. $23 . no money lers. sians
& i saw mic with her friends near the neoprint shop in the mall . waved to her and walked off lers, was really surprise when i saw her ; ) cheer up kays. takecare - after that , stay there awhile. take mrt to cck meet up with winnie's online friend- junjie. hais , another bian tai ders. go home lohs , take petir der. from keat hong to senja , i was all alone by myself . hais , think alot .. eight plus reach home.
liddat lohs , tired ah. tml still must do homework - aloaddd ,
i need you.
i need everyone's care.
i dont want to feel the loneliness.
hais , i dontwant.
MIN-
):
Friday, March 03, 2006
U KNOW THAT KIND OF FEELING ? U SAID THAT YOU ARE NOT A PERFECT GUY . SO WAD CAN I SAY ? AND FUCK I SAID I DUN WAN TO CHAT TO YOU FOR TODAY RYTE . I DAMN HURT LERS WHY STILL DUN WAN END THE CONVERSATION. U TRY TO BE ME LAHS . U TRY TO CRY EVERYDAY . U TRY IT THEN U WILL KNOW HOW IT FEELS. BEEN SCOLDED FUCKER FEELS GOOD AH ? NOT AT ALL . IT FUCKS HURT ME. IMAGINE IM THE ONE SCOLDING YOU THIS. HOW IT FEELS ? SORRY ? SORRY, THE PAIN IS STILL THERE. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY IM LIKE THIS. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I STILL CAN HOLD ON TILL NOW . I DUN UNDERSTAND I'VE BEEN HURT AGAIN AND AGAIN . I STILL CAN BE WAITING HERE. I DUN UNDERSTAND ANY SINGLE OF IT. U KNOW HOW IT FEELS ? U KNOW HOW THE PAIN IS LIKE. U SCOLD ME , I NOT HAPPY SO I SCOLD YOU BACK AH ? THINK OF IT , IF I SCOLD FUCK , FUCKER AND OFFLINE TO YOU . HOW DO YOU FEEL ? I THINK I MUST BE CRAZY , MUST BE TOO STRESS OVER THINGS . U SAID U WANT ME BACK RYTE ? PROVE IT TO ME LAHS. U CAN SAY ONLY WAD . I ALSO CAN SAY IM WAITING BUT ACTUALLY I DIDN, RYTE ? IT HURTS , OKAY. IM A HUMAN , I GOT FEELINGS . I FELT HURT UNTIL IM GOING NUMB . IM GOING CRAZY SOON . IM NOT BLAMING YOU FER CAUSING ME TO BE LIKE THIS . YOU KNOW THE FEELING WHEN SOMEONE YOU LOVE SAID THAT HE IS A STRANGER TO YOU ? WHEN I DIDN EVEN TREAT YOU AS A STRANGER. I JUST WANT YOU BACK . IS THAT SO DIFFICULT ? MUST WE ALWAYS QUARREL . I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY . MIGHT AS WELL DIE . I JUST WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND . IM HURT , IM UPSET . CAN YOU CARE FOR ME AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT. A LITTLE BIT ? ITS ENOUGH FOR ME . DONT SCOLD ME VULGARITIES, CAN ? I DONT FEEL GOOD .IF FORGETTING YOU IS EASY , THEN GOOD AH . BUT I CANT . I JUST CANT.
BUT STILL , UOY EVOL I .
WHY SIA,
NO LONGER CRYING INSIDE..HAIS .
BUT STILL , UOY EVOL I .
WHY SIA,
NO LONGER CRYING INSIDE..HAIS .
Thursday, March 02, 2006
i felt like so ... AHH !
i dont understand why . i just dont understand.
i didn know he is such a person, i didn know until today.
i wont hate him cos ' it doesnt helps solving the problem .
it only invites more trouble. no more , please !
WHY sia. damn disappointed - i trusted u & hais.
ferget it.
now i dont know who is the one who really cares about me.
fuck.
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school sians lah . wanted to get out of school immediately . english lesson watch movie lors. after school , moodswing . very tired , dont have the mood to talk to anyone. lazy ah. after school stay inside the library to do my maths until 3 plus . suppose got tution with karen but end up dun have cos of some problems. yup . doing my home econs later.
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i asked zayar about it and he said , ' BOILS '
i felt the same too . but hais , i dun have the rights to care lahs .
not mine already also.
HAIS .
...
crying everyday is going to be a habit.
MIN
i dont understand why . i just dont understand.
i didn know he is such a person, i didn know until today.
i wont hate him cos ' it doesnt helps solving the problem .
it only invites more trouble. no more , please !
WHY sia. damn disappointed - i trusted u & hais.
ferget it.
now i dont know who is the one who really cares about me.
fuck.
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school sians lah . wanted to get out of school immediately . english lesson watch movie lors. after school , moodswing . very tired , dont have the mood to talk to anyone. lazy ah. after school stay inside the library to do my maths until 3 plus . suppose got tution with karen but end up dun have cos of some problems. yup . doing my home econs later.
--
i asked zayar about it and he said , ' BOILS '
i felt the same too . but hais , i dun have the rights to care lahs .
not mine already also.
HAIS .
...
crying everyday is going to be a habit.
MIN
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
%#$&@!
stop my feelings . i felt angry . i felt angry ANGRY -
i went to take a look as i heard it from someone .
I JUST HOPE I COULD BE BLIND AND COULDNT SEE ANYTHING . sorry fer vulgarities but i just cant take it anymore. LOVE LARHS. cb, IM BLIND . AHHH . I SHOULD HAVE PRETENDED THAT I DUNNO ANYTHING . ahh , fuck. control my feelings. i dont blame . i dont hate . CAUSE I KNOW ... WASNT IN WRONG. its just normal. ya , but FUCK . i dont understand why i felt this way. can i be blind fer this few minutes. i shouldnt go and take a look &&& it hurts lah . i wont cry . I WONT CRY . IT HURTS HURTS HURTS . regret larhs . I DONT WANT TO THINK ANYMORE . IM SUPER DAMN DAMN DAMN ANGRY . please , im a human . i got feelings . I GOT FEELINGS . CB ! AHHHH ! im not transparent , IM NOT .
go away . go away GO AWAY .
my temper . under control -
sorry fer vulgarities. just too angry ler.
dun ask why . no reasons .
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hais ,
how can i be so blur larhs. i accidentally deleted it.
kaos , all lost le lahs .
hais , hais , hais &
somemore it wont come back anymore..
AHH , why i so blur larhs !
HAIS .
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today wasnt a nice & happy day . not one ! chinese test not enough time do finish , sure get low marks. pure geog pass xD quite happy lahs but tyco also. whole day , i felt like sleeping cause the flu medicine. i need to tahan until guides finish . end till 7 liddat . sians ah . tml still must stay back until 3.30 in the library . tml got physics test but i not really scare. fail then fail ler .
eyes pain . duhs ! today , everything goes wrong for me . can i dont go to school anymore ? hais .
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min
STILL .
stop my feelings . i felt angry . i felt angry ANGRY -
i went to take a look as i heard it from someone .
I JUST HOPE I COULD BE BLIND AND COULDNT SEE ANYTHING . sorry fer vulgarities but i just cant take it anymore. LOVE LARHS. cb, IM BLIND . AHHH . I SHOULD HAVE PRETENDED THAT I DUNNO ANYTHING . ahh , fuck. control my feelings. i dont blame . i dont hate . CAUSE I KNOW ... WASNT IN WRONG. its just normal. ya , but FUCK . i dont understand why i felt this way. can i be blind fer this few minutes. i shouldnt go and take a look &&& it hurts lah . i wont cry . I WONT CRY . IT HURTS HURTS HURTS . regret larhs . I DONT WANT TO THINK ANYMORE . IM SUPER DAMN DAMN DAMN ANGRY . please , im a human . i got feelings . I GOT FEELINGS . CB ! AHHHH ! im not transparent , IM NOT .
go away . go away GO AWAY .
my temper . under control -
sorry fer vulgarities. just too angry ler.
dun ask why . no reasons .
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hais ,
how can i be so blur larhs. i accidentally deleted it.
kaos , all lost le lahs .
hais , hais , hais &
somemore it wont come back anymore..
AHH , why i so blur larhs !
HAIS .
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today wasnt a nice & happy day . not one ! chinese test not enough time do finish , sure get low marks. pure geog pass xD quite happy lahs but tyco also. whole day , i felt like sleeping cause the flu medicine. i need to tahan until guides finish . end till 7 liddat . sians ah . tml still must stay back until 3.30 in the library . tml got physics test but i not really scare. fail then fail ler .
eyes pain . duhs ! today , everything goes wrong for me . can i dont go to school anymore ? hais .
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min
STILL .
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