yesterday
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wenta hospital with mum & dad , aunt & grandma to visit grandpa . & i realised that he became skinny ! really skinny than before . heartache lahs ): he is inside like bout three months already because he got this infection from that hospital . tha fees is like $8000 . i mean if its not because of tha infection , grandpa also dun need to say fer months . & they want my mum to pay all that with all her medifund . then when she gets older , what if she have illnesses . choy ! what will happen to her ? this is so unreasonable . i was so pissed off , so while tha doctor is explaning , i kept staring at him . i felt like giving him a punch >.< BAHHH !

dad tried to talk to him & asked fer financial help . because grandma & other aunts do not have the medifund . only mum have . so they cant expect mum and the rest to pay with cash . as if we are rich family ! then then , they kept talking , mumbling , sort of complaining . it continues & continues till it stops when the adults found a way to solve tha problem ! seriously , tha doctor is having difficulties & we knw that . so dad have to talk to the social worker first . if the case cant be look into again , grandma & aunts will look for i-dont-know-what-that-person-called for financial help , like my big uncle who is in mental hospital & i suddenly miss him so much although i've nvr seen him before because mum dont let me go there with her ): sad.

after that so-called meeting , we went off & dad drove us to bp plaza , had some shoppings . went home ! : DD

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today !

i had FOUR pathetic hours of math lesson . tiring , sleepy , moody , blah blah blah ~ etc . tml is the same too so that after christmas , i dont have to come back anymore ! so i shall suffer now fer this week . hais ! after tha tiring math lesson , i went to wait fer winnie outside school . & waited fer michelle . she went off , winnie & i wenta greenridge makan . saw linming , like crap ! lols , he didn change lahs . still the same , somemore stay in the same block with me .

i went home after that ! winnie went to find jeanie that zibi . im watching tv later (:

i shall hypnotize myself ~
slim down , slim down , slim down ! LIMIN !

I BOUGHT A CUTE PINK CACTUS HOME : DDD


unloved ; i said .

here to post ! : D ytd night wenta alvinn's birthday party at his house . i will cut it short , im just so damn lazy to write everything out in details . met michelle at senja , bought presents fer him . then decided to walk from bp plaza to his house . lols , its quite far . nvm lahs , exercise mahs . reached there , saw alot of my school peeps . christine , natalie , peipei , eric , shandy , etc . alot lohs . didn eat alot . jian fei (: hehe .

went to tha highest floor with michelle & nat . tha view is so prettaye lahs . alot of stars . chit-chat . saw my primary school friend too . then we all gathered up to highest floor & he started to talk bout ghost story . ohkays , i didn get shocked . phew ~ hehs . went home with nat & michelle like about ten plus . cabbed home , michelle & i wenta to greenridge 7eleven bought things . she came my house to ton . hehe ! are u jealous , jeanie ? : x at about midnight three plus slept.

this morning , ate breakfast . & she went home .

overall , it's fun and enjoyable ehs (:

jeanie , lets go out soon .

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im bored & i guess im going out tml . yeps , to alvinn's birthday party . ouhs , he needs doraemon ! hahaa : D i shall buy alot of them for him . && tml is timothy's birthday . im wondering if i should do a blogskin . because im plain lazy but im sick of this blogskin already . how ? duhs , i cant decide.

im reading books ytd & today . i think im gonna be bookworm soon . hahs ! but can improve my english uhs .

things are changing & i've no control in them .
my agony *


unloved.

love it , it'll love you back.




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im feeling emo today ): sad sad sad . can i skip tml tution ? >.< lazy sia .

i dont understand why he want me to hate him?
for what reason ehs ? T.T

this is stupid .

today is a special day to me . actually , i didnknw what to say . and didn knw how i really feel .. but today is a day i will never forget for life bahs (: its like one year already ,

i miss everything ..

wenta school today , after that went to eat with michelle . chat alot , play alot and then went home . i felt sleepy ehs T.T

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going out later . wenta school today morning . i was so sleepy , intend to skip but end up still went . & i was late T.T im feeling ):

tml im going out again . perhaps , to the beach ? no idea . im waiting for michelle now . sickening , faster lahs ! >.< im sleeping soon ehs.

lovelove !

a day out to zoo . since many many years .

we can act like a kid and play like hell . but we can have a matured thinking .

a picture can tell thousands words . so i wont say much .

" jeanie , may this friendship last forever . i lovelove you ! :D its been like 3 years soon ... this is fate , you knw (: "

me & jeanie (:


pigs . species like me : x

i dont deny .


snakes . shoo ~ : /

2nd . friendship last ;

i'll stand with tha shortest woodman :D

i cant smile lahs , sicko !

jeanie with tha giraffe :D

jeanie , tha retarded !


penguin . very cute lahs .

felt like watching happy feet , lols .

kangaroo (: jeanie , yr same species.

scenery *

this i dontknw what- monkey hate jeanie .

3rd . sisters uhs .

you see jeanie's head ! like got two horns .

hahaa . stupid birdbird.


zilians . jeanie !


pony pony -tail :DD

retardness . superman ?

hahaa . my POSE (: hehs.


jeanie . zibi ! :D you got so many nicknames lehs.

4th . shot (: 1 2 3

why cant i smile !?! duhs T.T

i tried to talk to this parrot with my niao language .

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i miss winnie & michelle . lets go out soon ohkay ? hehs . after tha zoo thangy , took bus back to cck . & took lrt to greenridge , makan lohs . ate alot -.- how to slim down sehs . went to my house & jeanie helped me in my guides project . thenthen wenta plaza , bought my pencil eyeliner . jeanie say not really good . cheap mahs . hahaa ! she wenta buy her hairband . then met weiming & his cousin . walked home . jeanie got weiming sent her home . good huhs ? hehs .

loves , will be back to post soon . have to send jeanie those pictures.

i think i will leave it alone . i wont think of it anymore . no more . it wont bother me anymore , i promise . i want to be happy like i used to be .

min : DD

have been really vexed this few days . maybe .. that day is coming & it makes me think alot of the past . do i still have feelings for him ? or .. not at all anymore ? its been like one year soon .

but ... the sight of him ...
or is it my feeling for him is too strong that time .
& it got me in wrong idea that my feelings is still there .
he's tha only guy who made me fall for so badly & cry so badly.
12th ? i ... donthave any rights to talk about it anymore ..

i .. dontwant to think of it anymore.

today is a special day . because mum & dad married 21 years already (: happy anniversary ! wenta school today to have remedial . ouhs , for every week wednesday , tha time changed already . hehs , im going for wedding dinner on tha 11th . walked home alone , because today sth very suay happened T.T

tml stay at home bahs . or ? i dontknw
my flu haven recover and it makes me so sleepy .


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back & i feel so sleep . this morning , michelle came to my hse and return my umbrella and lent me tha vcd. one plus , i met up with cheryl to meet tha others at cck lrt station . & the two of them were late . nvm , i xi guan lers . hahaa , then took mrt to yio chu kang & walked to nanyang poly . had briefing , walked to their food lab and took a look . ended !

wenta causeway as we were hungy . cheryl went home (: walked to cinema then to arcade & took mrt back to cck . walked to that auntie house . ouhs , i get my haircut already . jeanie also . its like already eight plus . wenta lot one to buy hair spray . took neoprints . michelle wenta find her mum . jeanie & i went home . im dead tired and i've school tml . morning , 8.30am . T.T

loves <3s
go away , sorethroat .
it hurts . flu , please go away too .
when i talk , its painful . i shall talk less ~


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wenta school on monday , tuesday , wednesday for every week till the end of christmas . uhs , to do maths for two hours. slack after it . ouhs , i didn go today because nazura and tha rest wasnt free but im going tml . im meeting jeanie , cheryl and michelle later at cck to nanyang poly for tha mania thingy .

then after that , im going for a cut . my hair might curl -.- duhs , i dontknw sia. sians , im hungry ! >.< food ~ food ~ food ~

its gonna be one year soon since i ....
hais

unloved

suddenly feel so emo . ouhs , im really tired. went to school today . after that , slacked and ate at greenridge. went to lot 1 , met up with weiming , kurt's bro and kurt . home(: im tired of reading those posts which gets on my nerves . it makes me guilty to knw that we caused him to quarrel with his friends . im sick of telling people not to comment bout things they dontknw . im sick of everything ! i felt like scolding vulgarities . i felt like settle all this thing. ouhs ! and we knw wad we want , not we dontknow. just a simple apology . thats all .

i wont wanna to scold anymore . i wont wanna care anymore . im dead tired of it . sick of it but im fucking angry too . i dontwant to post another one with full of vulgarities when im super extreme damn angry .

maybe i should scold and grumble about everything in my secret blog with all kinds of vulgarities and make me feel much better inside . im feeling fucks terrible inside because i cant say anything harsh words out anymore because i donwant it to be stir up again .

i felt like changing my blog url . & for this time i wont let those not-so-close friends knw. let's see bahs.. depends. maybe i would change my decision . maybe i wont even let my close friends knw too . dont search for it .




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i've lots to say . too much to say , too much to talk bout how i feel . maybe it starts from me . if i dontknw him , if i nvr even get started with him , i wont knw kurt , weiming and others . & then we wont be there on that day & things will not go on till this stage . sorry eh ? i dunknw if im correct to say sorry because i still think im not in the wrong. but hell no to say sorry to you . is to myself and my girlfriends . i didn knw a happy party will end up like this . i think no one expect this happen , especially us .

maybe i shouldnt agree on going there , maybe i should just bloody hell hate him and didn even care to go to his party so that we wont be there . so that we wont get such comments and start bickering at each other . or maybe we should just go off after giving tha present . zl , i knw you will read my blog . i knw you will side yr friends or maybe u will just kept silent . maybe i should even say sorry to you , making your life difficult .making everyone's life difficult .

this matter is gonna rest one day with fucking good apologies. or maybe i should just keep my mouth shut and do tha same like before. forgive and forget . you can say im too much . ouhh , blog is a place to scream out everything, right ? so if YOU , YOU or YOU dont like my post , you can just click on top right corner and press tha X . i would be glad if you do that . am i too harsh ?

if it continues , it wont make yr life and our life better .
scolding people makes me older . duhs -.-

girlfriends , write a post to scream out and scold out all you want . but let that post be tha last one , ohkay ? if only we cant take it anymore, we shall just vent it all out again. so just let us calm down , forgive and forget . because when im reading those post you two wrote . im getting angrier and damn bu fu qi . soooo , lets just stop it . we dont have to say any sorry or make any apologies . just like wad razis said , jealousy lahs .

just let all this things stop . maybe we can be friends after a nice talk. i mean it , friends .

seriously, im feeling superb upset , sad , angry , etc . NEGATIVE feelings -
): im really feeling very very very upset . hais



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im totally speechless : x heard alot of things , saw alot of things which i dont wish to know . who's tha one reasonable ? im tired of this SICK thangs going on . it wont stop unless ... maybe its all link , maybe its just because im .... but if it is like this . wad wrong things i did ? i didn even do anything wrong to him . so if its just because of this , i didn do any wrong things. & im not gonna say sorry first . im not going to give in this time .

we got angry because theres a reason . we didn even provoke you , we didn even gossips bout you . & we must we receive such comments ? its totally unfair . i dontwant make things worser and i dontwant weiming to be wei nan .

stupid thangs !

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ytd night , conference with michelle , weiming and jeanie . michelle was so du lan , hahs . didn say really that much , i was kinda angry too but better than afternoon lohs . we crap alot , scold alot , talk alot (: ouhs , and laugh alot too because we have two jokers mahs . then suddenly , weiming shouted . we three kept silent also cause it was damn scary and damn loud. he got more du lan than us. but nvm lahs , he got moodswing . jie mei mahs . he can from dulan to happy and then change back again . hahaa : D

later part , kurt called in . that rooster kept saying stupid thangs and they laughed . very diaoo ders -.-

my mood is seriously spoiled.


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went to sleep just now to forget some thangs on my head . before that , michelle told me sth . ouhs , so its tha whole table . how pathetic i am -.- i feel so hated by people suddenly . anyway , i wont care because they dun even understand me. hahaa : DD i suddenly miss alvinn & etc school friends so much .. nvm uhs , alvinn's bbq birthday party is coming & im sure i'll get very fun there.

im still feeling not very good uhs . you know wad ? i'll remember all this . or maybe i shall just forgive and forget .

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GET THIS CLEAR . i hate people commenting bout stuffs they dontknw . whats wrong if we are liddat . you dontknw how we feel & you gave such comment . why dont you be us and feel how extras we are . we dont even knw tha people there . what do you EXPECT us to do ? go to everyone's face and say HELLOS :D , is it ? they might think im insane and crazy . HELLOS !?! FOUR PEOPLE ONLY . FOUR ONLY !

ITS VERY FRUSTRATING , IRRITATED , DULAN got to see that comment . maybe i shouldnt even go and see it . i thought you guys are still nice peoples and didn even ever THOUGHT that it ended up liddat. I HATE IT , fucks hate it . just like what i said before. PLEASE DONT FUCKS ASSUME BOUT MY CHARACTER IF YOU DONTKNW ANYTHING BOUT ME . any single bout it ! i can be nice to you if you did tha same to me .

i just wanna vent my anger . just dont let me see you , or else i'll go very mad at you . i dontwant to scold , i dontlike to scold people . BUT PLEASE ! know us before u talk bout us . i hate that two words of yours .

scram , please .
i dont want to scold any vulgarities again .
make this tha last time .

boilings*

im tired . really , i regreted . REGRETED SO MUCH . HELL NO TO ^&@^!~# .
im really sick of this . FUCKS SICK .

& today i knew that my school friends are so great .

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i think im tired or maybe im not : / was on tha phone with winnie , michelle and tha rooster ytd . hahaa : DD then winnie hang up tha call . we three continued till like from midnight twelve to morning four plus . li hai bahs ! hahaa. ouhs , he talked bout his story ~ & i was listening on how michelle and tha rooster kept quarreling . ya da ya da ~ they wont stop ders . hahaa !

crappings ~

dad is shouting at his worker on tha phone now . damn scary -.- this few days , i cant sleep well . i dunknw why . frustrated ! mum went to malaysia . erkor at night go out . dakor maybe go camp . dad sure not at home de. which means im alone at home again ! ~$%@^# everytime liddat -.- im not gonna eat at night lahs . since im lazy to go out and i dun wish to eat .

no money ! $$ hais .


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afternoon : D im back from zhenlu's birthday celebration at marina bay . it was quite ohkay lahs . girlfriends reached my house at bout four plus . put mascara and stuffs , took bus to town and get his spongebob (: & theres still lots of time left so we wenta somerset mrt to settle down and let time flies . hahs , met up with weiming , huiteng , kurt & his cousin . took mrt to marina bay . i guess we were so isolated . cause we dontknw even knw tha people there . we were like so ... weiming cheated our feelings . haha ! said that half of it we know , end up was only one quarter . so i was sianhalfs . i only know four of them -.-

nvm . at first i was feeling really down so i msged him for help . my mood seriously like %#$!^! hahas , when we reached tha place . gave money to weiming and we settle down at a table . kurt can be a chef uhs (: im already fat still put all those meats on my plate . uhs ! i want to slim down lehs . i want only thirty plus kg. i'll only eat dinner from today onwards . kurt fed us till like we are pigs -.-

ouhs , tha thang i enjoy ytd was that thang i drank at there which made me feels better inside although after i drank it too much i felt kind of giddy -.- and also weiming's stupid actions . hahaa (: after all tha eatings , we stayed there to take photos . weiming is our jiemei ! lols . then we pei-ed winnie take bus to marina bay mrt station . she went home first cause she cant stay so late . waited for tha bus to come . michelle & weiming kept running for dunknw what reason . maybe poor michelle always got suan by him . lols . i didn knw rooster can run so fast lehs ! : x

tha bus was so slow lahs . so didn go to tha beach and we took mrt back home . sent michelle home and jeanie and i took lrt back . she took petir and i took senja back alone . although its quite scary going back alone but ohkays lahs. it made me more independent and strong : D hahaa. i reached home bout one . and i slept at two plus . kind of tired . happy belated birthday , zhenlu !

not to forget , weiming is a good entertainer ytd . you need not to say sorry lahs !

im sorry if i was too harsh . i didn expect myself to say that to him . i knw i was so unfriendly . i didn even dare to look into his eyes because i fear that its all hatred from me to him . i rather us being friends than enemies . i dontwant to be reminded of those hurts and sad thangs i've ever gone through . but at least i didn cry , i just want myself to be strong enough to face him . but its ohkay , i got over him already but its just those phobia i had . & i know that we can always be friends .

pictures !


saw that head ? is weiming uhs : D


kurt , tha chef ! hahaa : /


weiming , that GREAT entertainer .



MIN . JEANIE (:
* my eyebags are so thick . shucks !

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will be back to post ! : D
lovees -


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