today ):

can i say im going to fail my physics too ? its like so unfair to us . different teacher got different teacher method & wth . damn unfair. i wanttt retest ! I WANT LAH ! hais , then ferget it lohs . cheryl cry in library for the stupid physics test lohs.

im mentally prepared to fail all the subjects le lah . i know it myself , hais . hopeless , okay ! btw, i love to fool around with rebecca. i cant stop laughing .

and yea , to those who came & chat with me ytd night at msn & console me & give me advice one . thanks . lovesss ! & victor , dont you dare to slap me just to wake me up .

die , i would love to ((:

I WILL STUDY HARD ,
i promise !

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24 april `

this post might be a harsh one . dont take it so seriously, people . because its just the anger im writing down all this thoughts. should have alot of vulgarties in this post. dont read it , if you dont even bother about my life. & please , dont act as if u care.

if you want to read a nice post , dont come to read this post. cause its not what u want here.

SERIOUSLY , im not in a good mood.
* im sorry for those vulgarities i wrote.

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stop what you are thinking , limin ,
its time for you to wake up & really study this time.
you dont deserve staying in 3B and study.
you don deserve it.
i kept thinking about you.
i cant even concentrate.
or maybe , i should just blame myself ?
blaming myself that i did not focus on studies.
and when exams come , i dont know anything .
such a failure am i ...

why waste time thinking ? i always ask myself this question.
why bother to wait & let it affect your studies .
now is term two already . & i shall not SLACK anymore .
i must be serious & study real hard for the few terms left.
i dontwant myself been laugh by people .
i dontwant my results to be like so damn bad & start reflecting
when it is too late for me to study & get good results.
i dontwant..

i deserve to study in a lousier class but defitnitely not B.
when everyone around me say almost the same answer for english .
i felt like breaking down & cry .
i dont believe how much time i've wasted.
like for about three months plus.
i dont want to question myself like this
' wad are you doing in this four terms. slacking ? playing ? '
by the end of the year.
i dont want bad results reported on my report book.
i dont want.

i dont want anything to affect my studies.
& i really lost my confidence in everyone including myself.
i wont trust anymore , i wont trust myself that i would study hard
& get great results . i wont .
i really felt so upset.
& wanted to cry so much .

but when im feeling in such way ,
who will know ? none !
who will come beside me & tell me what to do.
NONE !
who will even really care about me ?
NONE !
theres nobody around me anymore,
theres no one gives a damn bout me whether im happy or not.
im really feeling so stress up that i wanna scold vulgarities non-stop.

english , social studies, chinese , MATHS , chemistry & physics.
how can i cope when i cant even concentrate.
how can i get good results when i cant even concentrate .
how am i going to study when i cant even concentrate at all !
everyone around me is like so f* clever .
ahhh ,wadever shits.
i dont wanna think anymore .
i only want good grades by the end of year.

i really hope i can get good results for english & social studies this time.
& i shall not fail the other subjects.
how i hope i can throw away all the textbooks & stop studying.
i hate schools.
i hate studying.
i hate many many things.
i love fooling around .

fcuk , i must really stop THINKING .
idiot , ahhh .

im dropping my tears while writing this post.
fucking life .
so damn disappointed with myself.
ahhh , i cant think positive anymore.

im so fucking stress .
people , dont provoke me fer this week .
cause you might not know i would throw what kind of attitude to you .
fuck .
OKAY , i need to study .

i cant get over it .
nobody will ever cares.
kaos , DU LANNNNNNNNNN !

good luck to the others for tml tests.

fuck life.
i dont need !
its enough.
DAMN ENOUGH .


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