hahs ! back (: holidays are coming & i love love lovee them ! cause i can sleep till very late nahs . school was pretty good & fun . i love 3B :D hees ! without them , i just feel so hais ... without them , i cant even laugh in class now . yeas , they are so damn important to me now . ouhh , i wont forget my girlfriends too . hehs , this friday think going out uhs . or maybe saturday . not sure yet , steamboat :D stupid winnie want to eat & celebrate her monthsary with her ahems lorhs .

christine & her shark is so damn sweet lahs . made me so sad & depress . duhhh , nvm . our promise really became real. except winnie . i didn want it to happen but it still happens ! three of us in this month . fucks august . winnie , jia you ! yesterday had my english oral , im nervous but the teacher commented that i was quite well . so i hope i can pass lahs , my english like so damn horrible. hahaa :D

i want to ferget those pain . those pains ..

kurt kor msged me today said that he will come find us . end up , never . knew it from michelle cause i went home . didn have the mood to go crazy with them . lols , so i walked with cheryl . wenta ntuc , bought ingredients for my guides thingy . guides tshirt , nicenice :D this one week of holiday , i will just go & enjoy myself alotalot . i promise myself that (:

its not the responsibility , its not the everything .

tml will be the last day of studying in school & then thurs - teachers day , ahhh . im not sure if im going back . mmm , friday onwards holiday . next monday & tues need to go back school for maths . ass =x && im going back alone ): sadded . cheryl go for her damnnnnn relax vacation. envious envious ~

you cant see how deep the cut is , you cant see how hurt i feel , you cant see whether im really happy or not . you cant see those confidence that i have before in me is decreasing ..because you dontknow about me . you dontknow about me , nothing ...

min ! unloved :D

hais .. sometimes i really cant face it . cant lahs , its reality . nvm lahs , just like mum said before to me . its gonna be alright (: jeanie , face it ohkays . this month is really unlucky . faster get over it . love aint that great , let it all go kays . we love you , its enough already . takecares , dont pretend happy infront of me . it wont helps making you better . lets be strong together alright ? lets face it (: dont cry at night orhs . i think you will because i was liddat also . hahaa , tml go high ohkays ? loves !

ta mei you wo hai shi hen kuai le , dui bu dui ?
520 strawsheart , wasted ! this is what i got in the end ? spending my time after ndp trainings
tiring , u know !
stupid sia . im going to give my * ? haaa

sometimes , i really feel the pain and the numbness in my heart . its gonna be alright , limin ! today wenta hospital with mum & aunt . go see grandpa lorhs . felt like crying uhs . hope he is ohkay and not that xinku .


min .

backkkkkk . =b sorry people , i lost all my links code . so tag my blog for relinks . hehee , paiseh orhs . well , it all ended. didn expected it all to happen but yeas , i guess i have to face it . who ask me so stupid de. hahs , love's gone & he even said thanks to me . like wow , i gave him back his freedom & not making him xinku anymore . i felt more... relieved ? i dontknow .. but somehow it really hurts lahs . that night , many of them came to concern bout me . heyyy , i love you guys alot (: christine ! jeanie ! winnie ! stupid michelle ! veron ! sulastri ! ronnie ; bastard ! leslie ! mark ! victor ! yuanliang ! & alot alot more . thanks for being there .

so tha next day , i wenta school & sulastri asked me to cry . but i've no idea why i cant cry out . so i was like studying the whole damn day . talked to ronnie too . & during english , it all came out when ronnie said the sentence asking me to cry it all out. so i did ! ohkays , stupid -.- i wenta the toilet & i cant stop myself & then i kept scolding myself & vulgarities. sounds silly . cheryl & charmaine is with me . hahs , then this malay female teacher came in & asked me . so she talked alot lahs , but i didn really listen . hahaa , love aint that great .

ferget it , im starting all afresh . it doesnt mean that without czl , i cant live (: i will live happily ,very very happy bahs . you dont have to cut yourself to remember that you hurt me before because you are the one suffers and it couldnt do anything make me feel better inside too . yao kuai le ouhs (: zhen de yao kuai le . go find a girl who will not make you xinku & can last very very long with you . alright ? wo men hui shi peng you (:

ouhh , stop bout those irritating & sad things . school today was short lahs but i like ! xD wenta lot 1 after school with jeanie only . & we decided to make chocs . she came to my house & spend like hours did it . hehs , quite nice lahs . she make for timothy lorhs . ya , before that i saw kurt lahs . assholes , my tears are going to drop because ... uhhh . hais , lalala (x he talked to me & jeanie , but i gave him attitude . i guess . but we will still meet up & go out one day . cause im still her gan mei nahs . yups , probably -.-

i wannnt to go out this week . gonna save up & get my da kor's present . daddy one , erms.. no idea. LOL

blog soon .!

&& i love this blogskin . lols

unloved -

hehs , im now at winnie house (: heeee ! using her comp . finally done with my F&N coursework . this few days wasnt my good day , didn wanna mention bout it anymore . ouhh , & ytd i forgot to mention that i saw my ex-lovee. i admire him alot during primary school time . LOL xD , stupid sia . saw him lahs ,clifton (: hehs , & i saw him with his gf . not bad uhs , hahaa . & he became really handsome now . waved to him & then went inside tha lrt ler .

im in a very bad state now . dont provoke me , alright (:

sometimes , things just dont go my way . i felt like giving it all up .
but i'll keep on trying till the day i cant ): thanks christine fer being there . mwarks !
i may look happy , but im not . not at all ..

MIN .

i wasnt happy today . wenta watch movie with my girlfriends today . except jeanie lorhs . that kuku , cannot come out . lols , kays lah . movie , ohkay bahs . after that , wenta westmall lorhs . mark came along -.- then winnie go change her handphone . duhh ! i want my phone lahs. hais , suan le .

slack outside tha singtel shop lohs. michelle keep beat my head . hahaa , who ask me being so crazy down there .. until mark say he want to send me to mental hospital for treatment ! xD lols , i dontknow why im so crazy at that point of time .

selfish bitch . hais , such an bad person . im going crazy soon . im fucking down lahs .
leslie ! help me , where are u . call me , i wanna talk to u .

CRAZY girl , i am one .
sulastri , where are u too ? tell me what to do .
jeanie ! i miss you alot . hais ...
* you dontknow how i feel . i'll get tired too . really tired . i end school very late . maybe its an excuse to you . but it wasnt , im really tired . really really tired. u know those envious feelings i felt ? it wasnt that we stay so near. & that we can meet almost everyday. please , think for me . i'll think for you too . i cant feel your love , i cant .
not coming back .

ahh , im crying soon . hey , dont make me feel this way . hais
MIN !

i know , i know ...
but sometimes , i really wanna be alone
& i dontknow why ...

forgive me for being like this .
hais..

yea ,imu .but i wanna be alone just for today .

min , tha unloved.

envious envious envious lah ! hahaa , alot of things happen . christine , happy for u orhs . hehs & u two really very sweet lahs . hahaa , dear seh . winnie also , everyday meet him . lalala (: all this days simply study in school lorhs , i will study hard de. then after school , hang out with mark ( kb ders ) , leslie ( lame ders =x ) & all my girlfriends . without christine really very weird lahs . girl , i miss u lots . i wanna see u lahs (:

now in school using comp lohs . slack abit . need to do f&n coursework . kelian uhs ! ytd guides , was the first time release so early. happy lahs , so wenta find them lohs . ahhhh ! leslie very baichi & funny . good lahs , make me happy . LOL , stupid sia . moodswings - on the way back home .

i chose to believe you . not to betray me .

today morning , gave 45 cents to leslie cause ytd he show us his damn " sexy " show -.- hahaaa . i love all my friends . rocks lahh ! xD . maybe today after school go do history project bah . hehs

michelle is sitting infront of me . that stupid kuku idiot . LOLS

im happy with them around lahs..
this group of friends ~!

love , takecare of urself . dont sick le kays . dont be hua xin lahs . && stop smoking so much . see lohs , now sick . u suffer ehs not me . meet up soon (:

hahaa , im going to do my work now . byebye , try to update soon xD

min (:

came to blog. pretty sad ? or maybe im alright . no idea .
ima crazy girl .
tml auntie they all coming to my house . hais
sure damn luan de.

mummy's friend came to play mahjong xD
the little girl sitting beside me very ke ai ehs
hahs , (: sho pretty
like princess ehs . i hope i hope ..
i got such meimei lahs ..
like i will have -.-
maybe miracle , hahaa !

i wanna jump down tha building right now !
byebye .

u u u ! dont smoke so much kays . loveee (:


is it all my fault ?
maybe bahs , cause i started all this

ending ; *
min .

HEHS , sulastri said that she miss me yesterday . xD hee

my computer hao lers (: finally lah , today & tml not going out . sorry , zl . i know you think alot about it . but i hope u understand . yea , chat with karen yesterday bout guides thingy . theres nothing to do with it . yesterday , after school . went to plaza with jeanie & cheryl ! then cabbed back to school cause we thought we are going to be late for ndp rehersal . but in fact , no lahs . waste money . BOO !

got back to winnie's class . saw tha not romantic de & leslie at there waiting lorhs . changed to full u in toilet . damn leslie , keep cursing me to fall . i wont , thanks fer yr " concern " . xD

jeanie ah ma , u super funny lahs . climb up the stairs must slowly alright ? later u fall down , how ? hehs , then see they command lorhs . giddy lahs , under tha hot sun . end lers , went back & changed back to sch u in class . no guys lahs , so nvm lorhs .

jeanie , winnie & michelle went to plaza. left adeline , me , cheryl walked home . duhh -.- monday gt rehersal again , last one . so nvm lahs ! sians , sians , sians . doing blogskins ? not sure . plain lazy .

我不想太依靠你

MIN.

you see ... im back ! hahaa , but still using my kor's laptop nahs . at least can use quite long nor . so its 7 days i never blog le lahh . mmm , happy & sad things also have nahs . but cant rem that much..

went out ytd with mich & winnie . went to bugis & walkwalk lorhs . he went to kurt's house ahs . so met him at night at plaza nors . saw him , happy bahs . but just came out of tha toilet . saw kelvin kor & kurt like going to fight le .. then after that i go ask kor what happen , then he say nothing . dontknow they all nahs . stupid de . then , damn brendon kept diao me . got stead le never tell me . kuku =x hahs ..

mich's parents at plaza mahs , then she donwan go find her parents . so went to longjohn lorhs. they eat , i didn . donthave tha appetite to eat . dontknow why also . mich went off first . pei winnie wait fer M . he send her home & my stupid love send me home (: prettaye sad when i reached home . cause maybe i still have to wait for one week ? or maybe even two weeks to meet him .

czl , wo hao gao xing .
ying wei you ni zai wo shen bian pei wo ! ^^


MIN !

i want to change layout lers ! but no time ): sian halfs . nvm , next time bahs . hehs , yesterday went out with my love ( very long since i saw u xD ) , my darling , kurt & another guy . yups , me & mich went to lot 1 first nor . walk around & she pierce her ears . i want lahs , but i dunwan hai my mum . so ferget it . wait , waiting , waited fer kurt to come & meet us . half an hour later bahs ? cant rem that much

met him , took bus to cine lorhs . saw kunda & ronnie there . surprised lahs ! hehs , then met him at kfc lorhs . i also ferget i go where ler . went to see them play pool lorhs . uhs , chat with kurt & mich lorhs .. quite late then go home lors . took bus to cck , pei mich go find her parents first .. then took lrt back with them nors . two girls kept diao me , sua lors . i dunwan tio such things again so i kept quiet . kurt also like abit dulan bahs , dontknow . if jeanie & mich there , sure at there scold them de. hahaa , ah lians ! xD

happy happy happy (:
we'll be meeting soon lahs .

MIN

im so proud of myself (: cause f&n lesson , pratical . i did my favourite PLAYBOY biscuit . wahahaa ! love it , hehs . but i ate it all ler =x

tml end school early . i felt like slping cause today got ndp rehersal. damn tired ! under tha hot sun fer hours bah . hais , WO HEN LEI !

min <3s

people , i wont be blogging so regular this period of time. cause my house comp spoil le. dumb sia ! ): so , im using my bro's laptop now ... hais , must see if daddy is going to spend money & repair it lorhs . duhhh. my bro also wont let me use so often de..

school ohkay lahs . my chemistry test pass. lols xD if not because of careless mistake , i can get 8 more marks . 8 more marks leh ! hais , suan le . then today pure geog test lorhs , okok bah . hope can pass. tml social studies test . everyday also test , dying soon . #!^$@! hahaa , after school . went to plaza with jeanie only. cheryl went home , mich & winnie got npcc. so left tha two of us lorhs . ate in kfc , then go my house downstair lers . talk alot lahs .. talk till timothy come and meet her .

i really enjoy the times with jeanie today lahh . cause we talk about alot of things . family , past relationship , how we feel bout people & etc . sisters 184 (: loveee !

busy this week ): duhh . remedial , remedial , remedial after school ! guides tml , going back home late again . hais ): not enough sleep lahhh ..

doing hw later.

MIN

wo hao stress .. hais ): but at least me & zl ohkay ler. if not i'll go crazy lahs . sorry love , sorry cant meet u this week. & i dontknow why ppl in school know about me & him together . hahaa , ferget it . nvm (:

new song ! wo bu xiang wang ji ni . hahs , i listen to my blog song , i'll cry . i dontknow why . emotional bahh . nicee (: must listen.

hais , i've got 8 history essay question to do finish today. how lahh , im going to sleep late today again . who ask me last week dun do. then end up this week alot of homework. brrr ! bytheway , ytd went out with mum , da yi & my cousin . went to walkwalk . who knows walk till night. reached home chiong f & n lorhs . but still got damn lots of hw lah . then then still got social studies & pure geog test leh. fucks , why so many thing de. if i cant finish my hist essay , need to stay back lah. 6pm to 9pm . i dontwant seh !

today stay at home lors. mich jio me out to lot 1 but got all this stupid and idiotic homework . how to go out lahh. sian si wo lers =x hais hais hais .

this week really sucks & unlucky lah . bad things happen to me . dontknow how many times i cry , how many times im in a fucks mood . dontknow how many times i moodswing le. $#!%@ stupid school .

stupid mushroom =x

MIN

im not those kind of girl who will always say i love you. im not.. sorry ,

thanks leslie (: fer being there ytd night hearing all my stupid things - bestest friend , thanks those who concerns.

im ohkay , i guess.

im tired

stress , really stress.
i cant handle everything lahs .

i need to rest ...

im really tired & exhausted . school was ohkay for me . time seems to go so fast . cd period , ms chew came in & talk bout sexuality education . single dating vs group dating ? tha class was noisy nahs , & ms chew knew bout those stupid rumours lah . me & him friend lah . brr , i feel so uneasy .

skipped math remedial after school . went to lot 1 with them . jeanie went to pierce her ear nors. yupp , later doing my chinese essay . must write damn long de. ahhh ! im stress .

bytheway , i realise that there is this cute guy in my class (: lols , norizamn ! his eyes big lahhh , stupid . make me jealous . ndp parade rehersal coming ? hais ... girl guides ): ncc & npcc command ? not sure . but i know ncc commander is norizamn . hahaa , npcc maybe xuejing or razak .

weekends not going out ? not sure ehh.. hais , must save money .see how bah.

i think i miss him....

people , dont be so hardworking . dont be so clever. see cheryl everyday like got study study study , i feel so upset lahs. upset for myself . im lazy , i know . super duper lazy , but i've got nothing to do about it also .

i scare i too stress up & .... hais .

winnie ! cheer up , i wanna see your smile . i love you lahhhh !

MIN

who am i to say, lyrics
___

Love of my life, my soulmate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left

I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me

Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting
Many moons have come & gone
Don't know why I'm still searching

Don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me

Now you're a song I love to sing
Never thought ------ so free
Now I know what's meant to be
& that's okay with me

But who am I to say you love me
& who am I to say you need me
& who am I to say you love me

I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me
I don't know anything at all

I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all

__

guides very tired. hurt my leg & hands. treasure hunt crazy like siao nors , hahaa . lend things from yuanliang & others unknown -.- hais , homework tml then do bahs . today de chem test sure fail for sure. hais... wads wrong with me nah . i thought i say i want to study ? excuses lah , limin. its enough !

i cant concentrate ...

today is 12th . so ? it doesnt bothers me anymore. im happy with my life already except my studies.

i love my gurlfriends & him .


MIN

sleepy in class . three words can explain how boring & tired today i am in school ): after school , go high lorhs in plaza.

my studies sucks.

MIN

today damn high xD i dontknow why . hehs , morning seven plus meet them ( winnie , jeanie , michelle , christine & cheryl ) at senja lrt. as usual , many of them are late -.- suppose got go plaza eat macs de but scare no time , so went to senja grand & eat. chenswee came later . stupid de, always ask me treat him . nowsaday pok , sorry yea . next time bahs (:

reached school , went to class straight away . first half hour damn relax lahs , ms chew went back home cause she sick . in fact , tha whole damn class is so noisy . cant take it , but i get used to it ler. hahaa , i love my class . lend maths ws from amanina & copied some . arghh , heard from kunda that there will math test this week . deadmeat - tml ss test . ahhhh ! but 3c never take ehs , postpone to next week again . i hope we will be tha same. wed - english & chemi test. ohkay , this time must really study lahh. i want to score well . i need to ...

lessons were boring . except physics . & so mr prakash asked me questions again . rebecca sabo me .. hahaa , so luckily i know tha answer lahs. then after that got one question have tha unit 525 cm . i think so , if not wrong nahs . its obviously that i'll sure been suan by idiotic ronnie . he said so loudly , ' 152 ' . ohkay , i think hes being nice to tell everyone my height. must i say thankyou ? lols . ronnie ,if u get to see my blog . please shut up & stop suaning me . wahaaa . u bastard =x

chinese lesson , went to comp lab . good uhs ? hehs (: after school , stay back for maths . runaway halfway . didn want to do tha math ws corrections lah . alot ehs , so went to find winnie they all at canteen nor . went off to plaza . saw kurt outside school & then he walked with us to senja lrt there then went to find his friend ler. ate in kfc lors , at there siao again .

six plus went back home .
lastly , not forgetting that ;
today is our first month (: dont think so much , alright .

MIN