emptiness -


' i died on 31st may . my life is so unfair and im useless and hopeless. i should not be in this world and life is everytime unfair !! '

im sorry . this is the only two word i can say ..
, zui hao de peng you .

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uhs , i think my computer is spoiling . so if i didn post fer like two days ? then u guys will know that something is wrong with the computer & i cant use . went to school today with cheryl , mr prakash kept asking me questions which i dontknow during lesson time . i feel so confuse ): after school , winnie they all go plaza and i went home . go back home and sleep lohs ..

just now ms chew called . she talked to my mum about me -.- uhs , i will buck up and study hard ehs . i hope so ~ hahaa

tml no need go school . happy sia !




MIN!

i felt so ...
i think i really need someone to talk to... its really difficult, you know ? ahh , dont ask me bout it . and YOU , yes you . although i know you wont get to see this post ? PLEASE , dont drink beer anymore . it doesnt helps at all . and anddd , when u get drunk , dont come to me and say those things . i mean.. theres no use saying all that anymore ... at least you understand . i care because u are my friend . dont ask me questions that i dunknow how to answer. sometimes , i just get fed up of it .

many many things happen . & i dont think im going to elaborate more on this which makes my life like hell. i hate those stupid images spinning round my head which makes me feel like banging the wall and ya , stop thinking . maybe for only few seconds ? two different memories . duhs , && i think im really bad .. cause uhs . zips my mouth*

went to school today , went for maths but skip english . uhs =X i wont do that again .. i think so ? after that , went to plaza. slack there lohs , sians . going to school tml .

dont seems like a holiday to me . hws , undone.


MIN !

dont judge me by my looks . understand me , know me well.
ask yourself this question .
is it what u say are the truth ?
i dont get it , you know .

elbaresim !

told mum something which i think i shouldnt tell .
however, shes still that nice & didn say anything . i love mum , she understands me .
she knows what i am thinking about .

i just hope i can tell mum how upset i am & about things that happen around me.
& i feel like crying so much infront of her .
hais , this month . sucks
i have many things left undone . assignments ..
things to make decisions .
i really dontknow what to do.
i've been telling myself that i will cheer up
and everything will be fine..
but i guess , things just dont go on my way .

went to grandma hse at bangkit.
they moved house, so i took taxi with aunt to the new house at jurong area.
then i saw my naughty little cousin , kaikai .
he is damn hyperactive , i just cant control him .
he just kept running around and throwing things .
brr ,

listen to mp3...
went to eat nearby , took bus home .
saw eric's mum , & my mum started to chat with her.
talk about facial things . ahhh ,
if i have the money .
reached bukit panjang.
went to plaza & bought foods back home .
stupid jeanie msg me stupid sms -.-
LOLS

walked back home .
start thinking for a moment.
its been like many days i never go out with mum & accompany her.
maybe , i shall do this more often ?

im tired !

MIN!

im going to grandma hse at bangkit later. yea , should be quite boring . i think so ~

heys , im just asking you that question only ytd night . dont think so much , ohkay ? i dont feel good if u are like this (: smile

loves ,
MIN!

我依然还在等待
等待你会明白
一颗坚强的心在等你回来
风在吹让他擦去我脸上的泪
不要以为我真的无所谓
不怕累只要我的身边
有你陪请你相信我是真的不后悔

back !! within two days , many things happen to me . i shall not elaborate more on it . life sucks ! i hate it , i hate myself , i hate my surrounding & most of all i hate living in this world . afternoon , went out with winnie . she want go pierce her ears mah , so pei her lohs . ohkay , she now look more ahlian ler . hahas , went to library & borrow books back home in order to stop me from thinking ..

maybe i should just do this way the next time when something is bothering me . ahhh, i just need someone to talk to . at night , went to meet brian . ohkay , he never change at all . still so buayba. uhs , quite irritating also =/ after that , went home lohs . blog blog blog ~

im going out tml to grandma hse at bangkit ? dontknow yet .

MIN !

be yourself day !

wake up in the morning . get changed & went to meet cheryl first at jelapang . ohkay , im very lazy so i walked slowly & ended up that the person who is late is not me is jeanie chong , tha zibi . lols , went to school . alot of people dress differently nah . some very nice , some okok nor . the concert , okok nor . got hafiz & blackie perform . hehs , after that set up the manicure booth . i think i did a very ugly manicure on melissa's hand . ahhh , im sorry =/ i didn mean it , my skills is really bad .

end le , went off lohs . go to bishan there find mich's deardear . lols , fishing make us wait for like one hour plus fer him . ohkay , what a gentlemen ~ thennn , he finally came out of school with his friend . very beng , yea . walked to macs & settle down . then this fishs girl told the monkey say i diao her . shits , wad fer i look at you sia . u surely came out from the mental hospital not long ago =X is you diao me , or i diao you de. ask yourself this question first lah before you go find taiji .

dulan lohs , then walked off & took taxi back to bukit panjang plaza. sat in apple tree , then zihui , jeanie & i kept talking about those girls stuffs . uhs , then timothy at there listen lohs . feeling damn weird lahs . hahaa , waited fer that dum's msg lohs . he at fajar then he came to plaza with his friends & we met . yups , but didn really talk lahs . just say hellos & byebye =b

after that , went home le lohs . sorry ah , ytd never post because i lazy ~ hahas. i feel so uneasy right now . hais ,


loves ,
MIN !

i feel so upset for my dearest her . guys always tend to be very sweet at first , then slowly changed . that is a fact , almost all the guys do that to his girlfriend . tears almost roll down when i saw her crying . girl , you know who you are . you are strong , yes you are. i know you can get over it very quickly . you have me , you have cheryl , you have many many other friends around you . just like what u said before , hes not tha only guy in the world .

will you do this to me ?

uhs , went to lot 1 again today with cheryl & sulastri . buy tha nail polish at sasa , then went to take neos . nicenice (: walk around . went into the staircase area to settle something . zips my mouth* then kunda & kelvin came . hahaaa , kelvin is gay . no lahs , i use him as a model to practice my skills . brr , i just cant . nvm , i will just keep trying . i wont give up , i think so ~ lols.

listen to mp3 & went home . felt like sleeping again . oink -

MIN !

不要对我太好 .
dont put too much hope on me

im sleepy , im bored , im a pig &&& i want to go out.

since yesterday night , sulastri still haven call me ! i think she had forgot . ahh , nvm . i have a copymeow . so fishing angry , he/she USE my word . have your originality , please ? maybe i should just put password on my blog .

ohkay nvm , its better for me to keep my mouth shut . have to do my english assignments later. uhh , i want to work during the holiday . but i dont have IC , so i cant work at mummy's place. i need money ! maybe the next holiday .

i cant possibly trust someone so easily , i guess.

can i YAY ? lols , tml no school (: im going to go do manicure. today wake up early lohs , then meet cheryl at senja . saw veron waiting for elizabeth . reached school , almost all wear half-u . ahhh , nvm . thenthen , go do work lers . help to carry the water . heavy ehs =/ hand damn pain lahh .

end le , waited for winnie & mich for their npcc to end with cheryl , christine & jeanie . hais , then like got abit ps christine cause she waited for us . in the end , she take the bus alone . sorry =X took bus to queensway . walkwalk lohs , nothing de nah . i want the shirtttt , fish =/ ! thirty plus . nvm , i will save the money .walk finish le , went to take bus back to bukit batok lohs . in the bus , kept laughing fer nothing . i also dontknow why i laugh -.- winnie also laugh because she saw me laughing . weird uh ? hahs .

went down & took mrt to lot 1 . go walkwalk again until mich want go home le . i also felt like sleeping , very tired .. went home , useeee compppp & now blogging =b

tml , i'll be going out again . hais , again to lot 1 ! im lazy eh but no choice . im going to sleep later . loves ,

MIN !

LIGHTBULB! korkor & jialing jie in the same room with me . they do work , i use comp. i duncaree , i want use comp. lols , korkor & her very sweet ehs . one year plus le. hope they can last very very long (: cause i want them to last long . they very pei =b & i likee jialing jie . she very nice & chio !

school okok nor today . very guai lahs me , go do yin yong wen while others were busying chatting . im a good girl ! hehs , lessons are always that bored . no change , its like the same rountine for me everyday . maybe i wont blog so regularly le cause its just the same daily . ahhhh .. im dead ! tml going to macritchie park , i dontknow how to spell. ferget it =/ my english is poor . got duty , so dont need to run . i will just wear pe attire & wont even wear my half-u there . troublesome ! laalaaa

after school , went to plaza with zihui , jeanie , veron , winnie & michelle . did i miss out anyone ? i think ~ no bah ! its like been so long we never go out with veron le . ohkay , i miss her alot ! i miss one d alot too . with kevin stupid jokes & cheers , jihua's extraodinary laughs . pervertic actions of daniel , one d being famous for being the most naughty class & the only class who loves to destroy properties in the class . ahhh.. too much to mention . they are so great & funny lahs. hais , i hope i hope i can go back to one d so much ..

winnie & i was like damn crazy in longjohn with jeanie . ohkay , its normal for us already . we are damn noisy but we dontcare also nah . then suddenly , longjohn blackout . maybe we are just tooooooo noisy . i think im abit crazy now. wahhaaa , at night pei jeanie go rent er mo zai shen bian ders vcd . cause christine want mah . go to greenridge & plaza . both place also no stock . got one shop have , but need ic. so in the end , still dont have . makan at plaza lohs , then mum called. scolded me , say i very lihai 8pm le still haven reach home . help her buy bread then faster go home le lohs .

sians , wed no school !!!!! hehs . friday , be yourself day . after that , go shop lahhhh ! ohkay , my results fer CA is damn bad . four subject failed . did i mention it before ? nvm , i kept thinking about my poorly done results but i will do better than this at final year exam . i will & i must .

noooowww , im damn luan & fan & confuse & ...... i dontknow what to do &... i dontknow how to explain.


MIN !

messages !

dum , i hope you get back home earlier . dont everytyme latelate then reach home k . dont make people worry about you . face the problem earlier and you can be happier faster , alright ?

nie , lovess ! maybe i dont really understand what you want . but anyway , do cheer up & hope you forget him fast . i know the feelings , i know how it feels because im the same like you before . i've been hurt before . faster ferget ohkay ? i want see happy de winnie (: i know you tried your best already . but you know , im always there whenever you need me .

mich , darling ? lols , ohkay lahs. i got nothing to say about you butttt last long with your deardear ohkay ? must share problems with me ah , hello kitty .

jean , i've nothing to say to you because you are muchhh more happier than us , i guess . but u still have your own problems , ya ? hopee you can stay so crazy and happy like you always are .

christine , thanks fer your concern although you are quite late to msg me whether i've recover anot . hahaaa , loveee

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xin li de ying zi hai mei wang diao -


MIN !

JEANIE ! i finally found tha english song which i wanted so much le (: happy sia .


bad day -

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

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LOVES ,
MIN!

20 Reasons Why I Love You

I love the way you scream at me, every single night
I love the way you wonder if that was our last fight
I love the way you sleep, comfortably upon my arms
I love the way you drift, without and within my charms

I love the way you hug me, with your ear upon my heart
I love the way you kiss me, not even a centimeter apart
I love the way your body swings back and forth in motion
I love the way you say “I love you” with all of your devotion
I love the way your whole body looks, back and to the front
I love the way you care for me when our emotions are too blunt

I love the way you break my heart and repair it once more
I love the way you turn to me and hope I wouldn’t ignore
I love the way you fall within my arms right before you cry
I love the way you look at me and stare at me with those eyes

I love the way you talk to me until you fall asleep
I love the way you listen to those secrets I cannot keep
I love the way you linger on about the simple things
I love the way you give me risks for what your heart might bring

(: nice orhs ?

hehs , im backkkk ! actually back long ago lahs :D hahs . morning wake up early lohs. sians , bout nine plus wake up le . go use comp , then go prepare . went out at eleven , meet them at bus-stop alone . brrr , went to townnnnnnnn lohs . go cineleisure there meet that dum =b he is not that tall as i think nahs . hahaa , then went to watch movie . watch mi 3 with dum , dum's friend i dontknow who -.- , laogong winnie & hellokitty michelle (: heard sad things from him , cheer up k ! u still have your friends around you ders.

sound effect kept scaring me sia . coldddddd inside there nahs , end le . say byebye then faster go take bus chiong back to plaza see yuan qi ! ahhh , my lovvveeeeessss ^^ lols , very cute lahs one of them . nono , all cute . lols , i thought the cutest one is twenty plus years old de -.- but actually only 13 ehs. younger than me ,

lalaaa , im happy today ! i dontknow why also .

i dont know you will get see this anot , i think you wont get to see it. but uh , just like me vent my sadness out.

dont ask me why . no feelings means no feelings ! if you want to see me & him together so much , then im sorry i will surely disappoint you . so dont waste your energy helping him because its no use . he is only my FRIEND . get it ? if i ask u to stead with a girl whom u dun have feeling at all de , u want ?

MIN!

went to find sulastri just now ! hehs , she is my lovely friend (: meet her during afternoon , go plaza walk walk cause she wanna buy her jeans so accompany her lohs. later on , timothy , jeanie & cheryl came to find me ! sulastri bought her jeans at giordano. went to lot 1 with cheryl & sulastri only, go find nail polish . nice sulastri help me put nail polish - transparent , but i hate my right hand 4th finger ! got plaster sia . ugly ehs . hahaa !

walkwalk lohs , went home ! gees ^^ cheryl give me the homework . she in lrt always look at me is a very strange way . ohkay , i know the reason . she love me too much ! haaa , quite moody during that time cause of something . dont wanna talk about it lers . reach home , get changed . use comp lohs . so sians , holiday coming also have homework.

so BYD , how ? i dontknow . BRR , ma fan ehs . tues got duty need to do , girl guides mah . only monday & thurs got lesson . lovesss ! tml go out ? not sure , they all want go plaza see genki , yuan qi &&& this means , how to meet lahs ! hais , ferget it . girlfriends , how ? HAIS

with love ,
MIN !

hao sian orh . today never go school cause sick ah . my mum even so called ' encourage ' me not to go school cause got flu , very xin ku. lols , good hor . lalalas . update later bah !

ohkays , im damn super angry now . im not trying to insult anyone , so what do you expect from us . u think all your words damn nice ah , damn neat . is it ? so if theres something wrong with it , then u blame us ah . wah , li hai sia . i cant imagine that im so angry that i can even shed a tear for you people . shits , waste my tears .

if you damn pro , go do those stuffs lahs . u think so easy ah , asking people for money everyday . easy ah ? keep rewriting those names that u people kept changing easy ah ? i dont need to do my stuffs also har . FISH sia . as if u are the only one who have attitude , i have also . MANY people have also .

shits eh , make rebecca cry . u think u are so great ? i believe that i will always diao you in class lah . or maybe ? i shouldnt even waste my energy to stare at u . wadever it is ohkays , i dun mind you YOU or YOUU say im bad or wadever words that u can describe me which is unpleasant . but dont PUSH the blames on us . FISH , ohkay ! i hatteeeee youu all to hell .

its not one , but many others .

im so FISH pissed off .

im attitude .

finally (: let you all see video . ohkays , firstly before u see this video of mine . please be mentally prepare to see ME being very buayba & not really being my real self . i think alot that day in apple tree & it was so boring that i started to be crazy. this is not the first time . please ! dont think that you saw the wrong person or got into a wrong blog url . because this is me , the crazy MIN xD



loves !

today hai hao bahs but hao kai xin orh ^^ hehs , go hall . alot of late-comers on stage . thirty plus ? then shiok lahs , first period dun need go study . maths leh , wahaaa ! cause mr seet talk bout many things mah . jeanie & winnie , cannot go drink that thing ohkay ! its bad for health so nono to that thing ah .

chinese period , go comp lab but the comp damn slow, sian halfs then practice fer chinese oral lohs . after school , all say hao le run away from guides . hahs , so this is the second time lers . abit scare tml kena scold by ms chong or ms liew , lols . went fer my chinese oral , damn nervous lah until i wanna cry sia . went in to the room , read until tatitatu de . i dont even dare to look at the teacher lahs . my face turned red ehs , went out of the classroom . jump lohs , damn happy cause finish ler . phew , hope i can get good marks . then faster walk out of school with them lohs , they all pei me go bangkit take my contact . makan at there also . in the end , jeanie at there siaosiao . i think im dreaming lehs , why do i have such lame & crazy friend ever since secondary one ? LMAO

my shirt de tie still at farah there lehs , hais . how ? MIA le lahs . ytd saw jiaojian outside school . long time never see him le ehs , got abit change . hahs , today got go to last time 2C de classroom to wait for my turn for oral lohs , suddenly miss 1d & 2c so much . i love 3b also lahs , lols . tml abit scare sia , i scare i will be told by ms chew that my mum need to go fer the parents meeting session because i failed alot of subject . hais , somemore my mum wont scold me de , everytyme say i did my best le so nvm but the more she liddat the more i feel so .... guilty . hais

kays , update tml .
byebye

min

gou le , bu yao zai deng le .
ai bu hui zai hui lai le ) ' :


okays ! so sad , i wanted to post one of my crazy video in this post but cant . tha code cant be used . so nvm bahs . hahaa , school is okay . next week will be really relaxing . tues , wed & friday (: hehs , nicenice . can go gaigai ~ LOL

i've changed my blog song . weeesss ~ mei you ren ke yi jiao ni bao bei by 元气 ! niceeee song lahs .

beyourself day on friday ! lalaaa ~

my CA marks are really very bad . i think i failed exactly 4 subjects . i think i sure have meet-the-parents session & its compulsory , i guess . by that time , i think my mum wont scold me , only that i will cry cause im soo sooo disappointed of myself . buck up now , min !

ya , i loveee quarreling with rebecca. she always make me laugh .

alright , i know im sensitive to such things . wadever , i wont care anymore . this is ME , limin ! ohkay , i think im abit crazy already. lalalalaa ~ homework later !


loves ,
min