mum said that i should be mentally prepared.
because grandpa was admitted to the hospital yesterday.
it was tha second time already
& no one dare to ask him go for operation.
hais , grandma was like normal bahs.
budden mum said that she cant sleep after hearing tha news.
& she even asked me whether i have white tshirt anot.
hais... i was like stunned .
but theres nothing i can do other than praying for grandpa.
外公, 你要坚强 !
im worried and.... hais.

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school reopens (: happy to see all my friends. love love ! morning wenta eat breakfast . after that , reached school . wenta locker & i cant recognize sulastri . hahs , im sorry ! today was quite boring lahs , but maths lesson kept me awake . & it rains . so i kept writing on my paper . 外公, 你要坚强 ! 外公, 你要坚强 ! ~

hais , lessons ended . didn go for maths nahs . wenta plaza with girlfriends , mark & leslie. fucks dulan with leslie lahs ! nvm , ferget it .

the date , 11th is taken !
ME & JOANNE [ my da er duo ] :D
ME & MICH YEO [ loveeeee ! ] (:

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ouhs , im attached ! really :D
i superrr loveeeeeeee ~ ^^

min .

for a moment uhs , i felt that tha friends around me are like so great lahs . make me happy & etc. really do cheer me up alot today (:

i was chatting with andrew : D && he asked me to send regards to winnie & jeanie for him . lols ,


MIN !

ru guo ...


unloved.

uhhhs ! im back from bugis. ouhhs , & i bought same shoe with my laogong , winnie : D went out alone with her today . then then , suppose want go watch movie de . but end up , dont have lorhs. bought our shoes ler , wenta take neoprints (: hehs. & i now declare that im totally broke. -.- ke lian de wo.

think tml will be studying bahs .
HAIS.

in the mrt , its all those things .


unloved.

didn hang out with them today . so out of boredom , i wenta watch wei xiao pasta in youtube . not bad uhs (: thenthen liddat lorhs . i suddenly miss my mum ^^ lols .

say bye to limin : x
ferever `

min

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在你心中 XX 占据着最重要的位置，你对 XX 的感觉用 salahio 这首歌来形容再好不过了。你相信这是上天安排的缘分，因为你深深的爱着 XX 。 对于 ZZ ，也许是宿命吧，虽然你也喜欢 ZZ，但是你们注定不可能在一起，就象 mei tian mei tian 中唱的一样。

jeanie 是最关心你的人，而 michelle 是最了解你的人，你们两个在一起会彼此有知己的感觉。 winnie 是你的幸运星，也许会给你带来好运气的哦~!~!~!

* this is what i tried after reading rebecca blog. of course tha XX & ZZ is someone's name lahs . but stupid people also wont write tha name out . ouhs , try it . it can be quite real . however , some of the words are same butt quite meaningful lorhs. er xin de michelle ! !

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i've so many pictures for today . wenta starbucks & study . didn study much nahs . they were helping with my handphone & then we did some questions of maths . ouhh , i teached them ! LOLS , i think i'll be studying again tml . winnie go find mark . kuku , nvr come & find me . misses * so left tha three of us . we were like so crazy . && i talk to myself looking at the mirror. asking myself alot of whys . AHH

a happy day !

CRAZY .
say hellos to tha photos for today! hees XD


oreo cheescake : D BEFORE


i sit , i stand , i FALL ~ (:
stupid twists ^^ AFTER !


that UGLY currypuff =x


my prettaye phone (:


UGLY MEE & jeanie


MEE (: starbucks <3s


my MICHELLE yeo :D lols , dont kill me ahs.


MEMEME again (:
they took it quite long ago..


jeanie , ME , michelle.
where is my dear WINNIE ?


its quite blur .. BUT
you can see a crazy girl twisting uhs .
that girl is JEANIE CHONG :D



unloved.

going to plaza to study later , i guess (: i wanna study study study ! i wish i really could .. spend hours studying there . hahaa , im bored .

its been like very long i didn go out & shop lers . hais , ke lian de wo .

ouhs , you = him ! ni hen fan ! hen fan ! hen fan lahs ! everyday call call if not msg me . AHHHHH ! fan si wo lers . can i kill you ? sometimes u make to be my bestest friend , sometimes u just drive me to nuts. FAN SI WO ~ just treat it that i dont know how to appreciate you , DUHS !


unloved loves MIN !

loves ! i think today will be bored. hais , nvm . read michelle's blog just now . then suddenly , i think of my dream ytd ytd night . hahs ,damn stupid lah... sometimes what i dream will happen in real life. tha dream was like ... i cut my veins & then blood flows out . lols :D that morning , i woke up & the first thing i did was look at my left hand . & phew .... hahas , stupid sia.

hao xiang si ouhs ! >.<


爱不到你 , 所以祝福你. 心里总是感到空虚, 好像有一个很大很大的洞. 一个不能用友谊疗那些受过伤的心.爱过了, 眼泪也该停了..

salahio 爱的理由 , 不会有错 .
我的爱走了..

unloved !

msn nick , hao duo ren fang wu gui ... & i know why nahs . sadded ):

im watching , wo men jie hun ba ! , later. ouhs , & i love today because i wasnt bored . hahaa , pon maths =x so wenta plaza with girlfriends , mark & leslie to eat in mac . then then , it rains ! i was feeling so .. vexed . hais , nvm :D

while waiting for the rain to stop , we settled down at starbucks drinking coffee . nicenice. awhile later , the rain stopped & they all went to my house . we had some sort of " pillow " fight . lame sia . hahaa , & i kept hitting mark . i feel so :D . thanks , mark ! lols , watch tv . chitchat . stupid leslie wanted to open my room's door. of course , i wont allow him ! hehs ^^

around four plus , took lrt to fajar with mich & jeanie . mark & winnie walked there but end up met at jelapang lrt . ouhs , i saw jennis (: she is still so sweet like that time at esplanade. smile smile with me :D she is with her bf & friend bahs . we wenta rent vcds & i went home .

ZINC ; ps : michelle ! you know what it mean huhs ? hehs :D

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unloved loves unloved !

dead ! just now rainfall >.< cause i wrote something .. hais , i feel so down right now . nvm , at least there is people chatting with me on msn . thanks thanks :D ahhh ! scream with me ; im all alone at home now . i feel so ... hais . hais , girlfriends all dontknow fly where le. sian si wo lers . hais hais hais ... ):

its raining soon . where are they ? work work work lorhs ! now kor came back le . hais , but i just felt the same . so bored lahs . tml going to school again . i think i alone bahs . yups , independent ! tml sure sians de. from 10-12 english , 1-3 maths . dying , dying ... today maths also sian halfs le .. but at least some can do nahs. quite happy nors :D but i hate trigo . maths can kill me .

& i was told bout how much i got for oral . i aim to get higher marks cause it can help to pull up my written work marks . mmm , nvm nahs. i did my best (: yups .

before i forget ;
happy 15th birthday to kunda :D


im dying , bored to death .
this world is so cold ...


unloved.

off to school :D
miss me ! hahs

unloved.

re-update
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back again !
because of razis , im like damn stupid & crazy
laughing at my computer alone .
& got scolded by my mum . lols
no steamboat tml !
lalalaaa xD

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hellos :D

有时侯觉得这个世界好现实 !
从来也不回头 >.<
死吧 ! ~
好傻 , 好傻 , 好傻 ..

ahhhs ! im going back to school alone tml . ohkay , must be independent . damn winnie keep force me go eat her steamboat tml after remedial . awww :D ke lian wo uhs. your monthsary must spend only with your love !

im paranoid . hais , whatever ):

wo xiang tong lers .


unloved.

song title :
i think i - ; [ i love the lyrics :D ]

I refused to believe that it could be so,
there's no way that I'm in love with you,
I lied to myself that it's just a petty jealousy,
that I must be feeling lonely, but I cannot hide it anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so, Cause I miss you
without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

We are not meant for each other,
and being friends is the best thing for us,
there isn't a single thing we have in common,
so I claimed there's no way we can be lovers,
but I don't want to make excuses anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so,
Cause I miss you without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

why didn't I know that it was you,
why couldn't I see it when it was right in front of me,
it was beside me all along,
but only now can I see love.

I think I love you
But it must be so,
Cause I miss you without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

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im happy happy to say that my comp is fixed. i doubt so -.- ohkays , i just hope that it wont spoil again . hahaa :D so im back to post again . holidays are boring .. but i love holidays because i can sleep late and i did . xD good uhs .

wed ... saw karen ! chit-chat with her nors at senja grand :D friday - hugged my baobei gan-mei :D renytta ! i miss her lots . mmm , didn go back to westview . plain lazy . i went home straight (:

&& something that i just dont get it why is that when im sleeping , alot of people loves to call my handphone . for example ; leslie pek ! kurt kor ! & even mum & er kor. lalaaa (: nvm , at least i still get enough sleep . lols ! i think im having fever soon (: because i felt so warm & unwell . duhh , not the first time . but no to medicines . today , im having steamboat with my family :D heee .

i think i will be revising my work later . bored bored bored :D ouhhh , i chatted with jeanie today in msn (: lovees lahs . hahaa , dont worry ohkay . we will still be close as ever. && jiayou hors .


unloved.

hahs ! back (: holidays are coming & i love love lovee them ! cause i can sleep till very late nahs . school was pretty good & fun . i love 3B :D hees ! without them , i just feel so hais ... without them , i cant even laugh in class now . yeas , they are so damn important to me now . ouhh , i wont forget my girlfriends too . hehs , this friday think going out uhs . or maybe saturday . not sure yet , steamboat :D stupid winnie want to eat & celebrate her monthsary with her ahems lorhs .

christine & her shark is so damn sweet lahs . made me so sad & depress . duhhh , nvm . our promise really became real. except winnie . i didn want it to happen but it still happens ! three of us in this month . fucks august . winnie , jia you ! yesterday had my english oral , im nervous but the teacher commented that i was quite well . so i hope i can pass lahs , my english like so damn horrible. hahaa :D

i want to ferget those pain . those pains ..

kurt kor msged me today said that he will come find us . end up , never . knew it from michelle cause i went home . didn have the mood to go crazy with them . lols , so i walked with cheryl . wenta ntuc , bought ingredients for my guides thingy . guides tshirt , nicenice :D this one week of holiday , i will just go & enjoy myself alotalot . i promise myself that (:

its not the responsibility , its not the everything .

tml will be the last day of studying in school & then thurs - teachers day , ahhh . im not sure if im going back . mmm , friday onwards holiday . next monday & tues need to go back school for maths . ass =x && im going back alone ): sadded . cheryl go for her damnnnnn relax vacation. envious envious ~

you cant see how deep the cut is , you cant see how hurt i feel , you cant see whether im really happy or not . you cant see those confidence that i have before in me is decreasing ..because you dontknow about me . you dontknow about me , nothing ...

min ! unloved :D

hais .. sometimes i really cant face it . cant lahs , its reality . nvm lahs , just like mum said before to me . its gonna be alright (: jeanie , face it ohkays . this month is really unlucky . faster get over it . love aint that great , let it all go kays . we love you , its enough already . takecares , dont pretend happy infront of me . it wont helps making you better . lets be strong together alright ? lets face it (: dont cry at night orhs . i think you will because i was liddat also . hahaa , tml go high ohkays ? loves !

ta mei you wo hai shi hen kuai le , dui bu dui ?
520 strawsheart , wasted ! this is what i got in the end ? spending my time after ndp trainings
tiring , u know !
stupid sia . im going to give my * ? haaa

sometimes , i really feel the pain and the numbness in my heart . its gonna be alright , limin ! today wenta hospital with mum & aunt . go see grandpa lorhs . felt like crying uhs . hope he is ohkay and not that xinku .


min .

backkkkkk . =b sorry people , i lost all my links code . so tag my blog for relinks . hehee , paiseh orhs . well , it all ended. didn expected it all to happen but yeas , i guess i have to face it . who ask me so stupid de. hahs , love's gone & he even said thanks to me . like wow , i gave him back his freedom & not making him xinku anymore . i felt more... relieved ? i dontknow .. but somehow it really hurts lahs . that night , many of them came to concern bout me . heyyy , i love you guys alot (: christine ! jeanie ! winnie ! stupid michelle ! veron ! sulastri ! ronnie ; bastard ! leslie ! mark ! victor ! yuanliang ! & alot alot more . thanks for being there .

so tha next day , i wenta school & sulastri asked me to cry . but i've no idea why i cant cry out . so i was like studying the whole damn day . talked to ronnie too . & during english , it all came out when ronnie said the sentence asking me to cry it all out. so i did ! ohkays , stupid -.- i wenta the toilet & i cant stop myself & then i kept scolding myself & vulgarities. sounds silly . cheryl & charmaine is with me . hahs , then this malay female teacher came in & asked me . so she talked alot lahs , but i didn really listen . hahaa , love aint that great .

ferget it , im starting all afresh . it doesnt mean that without czl , i cant live (: i will live happily ,very very happy bahs . you dont have to cut yourself to remember that you hurt me before because you are the one suffers and it couldnt do anything make me feel better inside too . yao kuai le ouhs (: zhen de yao kuai le . go find a girl who will not make you xinku & can last very very long with you . alright ? wo men hui shi peng you (:

ouhh , stop bout those irritating & sad things . school today was short lahs but i like ! xD wenta lot 1 after school with jeanie only . & we decided to make chocs . she came to my house & spend like hours did it . hehs , quite nice lahs . she make for timothy lorhs . ya , before that i saw kurt lahs . assholes , my tears are going to drop because ... uhhh . hais , lalala (x he talked to me & jeanie , but i gave him attitude . i guess . but we will still meet up & go out one day . cause im still her gan mei nahs . yups , probably -.-

i wannnt to go out this week . gonna save up & get my da kor's present . daddy one , erms.. no idea. LOL

blog soon .!

&& i love this blogskin . lols

unloved -

hehs , im now at winnie house (: heeee ! using her comp . finally done with my F&N coursework . this few days wasnt my good day , didn wanna mention bout it anymore . ouhh , & ytd i forgot to mention that i saw my ex-lovee. i admire him alot during primary school time . LOL xD , stupid sia . saw him lahs ,clifton (: hehs , & i saw him with his gf . not bad uhs , hahaa . & he became really handsome now . waved to him & then went inside tha lrt ler .

im in a very bad state now . dont provoke me , alright (:

sometimes , things just dont go my way . i felt like giving it all up .
but i'll keep on trying till the day i cant ): thanks christine fer being there . mwarks !
i may look happy , but im not . not at all ..

MIN .

i wasnt happy today . wenta watch movie with my girlfriends today . except jeanie lorhs . that kuku , cannot come out . lols , kays lah . movie , ohkay bahs . after that , wenta westmall lorhs . mark came along -.- then winnie go change her handphone . duhh ! i want my phone lahs. hais , suan le .

slack outside tha singtel shop lohs. michelle keep beat my head . hahaa , who ask me being so crazy down there .. until mark say he want to send me to mental hospital for treatment ! xD lols , i dontknow why im so crazy at that point of time .

selfish bitch . hais , such an bad person . im going crazy soon . im fucking down lahs .
leslie ! help me , where are u . call me , i wanna talk to u .

CRAZY girl , i am one .
sulastri , where are u too ? tell me what to do .
jeanie ! i miss you alot . hais ...
* you dontknow how i feel . i'll get tired too . really tired . i end school very late . maybe its an excuse to you . but it wasnt , im really tired . really really tired. u know those envious feelings i felt ? it wasnt that we stay so near. & that we can meet almost everyday. please , think for me . i'll think for you too . i cant feel your love , i cant .
not coming back .

ahh , im crying soon . hey , dont make me feel this way . hais
MIN !

i know , i know ...
but sometimes , i really wanna be alone
& i dontknow why ...

forgive me for being like this .
hais..

yea ,imu .but i wanna be alone just for today .

min , tha unloved.

envious envious envious lah ! hahaa , alot of things happen . christine , happy for u orhs . hehs & u two really very sweet lahs . hahaa , dear seh . winnie also , everyday meet him . lalala (: all this days simply study in school lorhs , i will study hard de. then after school , hang out with mark ( kb ders ) , leslie ( lame ders =x ) & all my girlfriends . without christine really very weird lahs . girl , i miss u lots . i wanna see u lahs (:

now in school using comp lohs . slack abit . need to do f&n coursework . kelian uhs ! ytd guides , was the first time release so early. happy lahs , so wenta find them lohs . ahhhh ! leslie very baichi & funny . good lahs , make me happy . LOL , stupid sia . moodswings - on the way back home .

i chose to believe you . not to betray me .

today morning , gave 45 cents to leslie cause ytd he show us his damn " sexy " show -.- hahaaa . i love all my friends . rocks lahh ! xD . maybe today after school go do history project bah . hehs

michelle is sitting infront of me . that stupid kuku idiot . LOLS

im happy with them around lahs..
this group of friends ~!

love , takecare of urself . dont sick le kays . dont be hua xin lahs . && stop smoking so much . see lohs , now sick . u suffer ehs not me . meet up soon (:

hahaa , im going to do my work now . byebye , try to update soon xD

min (: