emptiness -


' i died on 31st may . my life is so unfair and im useless and hopeless. i should not be in this world and life is everytime unfair !! '

im sorry . this is the only two word i can say ..
, zui hao de peng you .

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uhs , i think my computer is spoiling . so if i didn post fer like two days ? then u guys will know that something is wrong with the computer & i cant use . went to school today with cheryl , mr prakash kept asking me questions which i dontknow during lesson time . i feel so confuse ): after school , winnie they all go plaza and i went home . go back home and sleep lohs ..

just now ms chew called . she talked to my mum about me -.- uhs , i will buck up and study hard ehs . i hope so ~ hahaa

tml no need go school . happy sia !




MIN!

i felt so ...
i think i really need someone to talk to... its really difficult, you know ? ahh , dont ask me bout it . and YOU , yes you . although i know you wont get to see this post ? PLEASE , dont drink beer anymore . it doesnt helps at all . and anddd , when u get drunk , dont come to me and say those things . i mean.. theres no use saying all that anymore ... at least you understand . i care because u are my friend . dont ask me questions that i dunknow how to answer. sometimes , i just get fed up of it .

many many things happen . & i dont think im going to elaborate more on this which makes my life like hell. i hate those stupid images spinning round my head which makes me feel like banging the wall and ya , stop thinking . maybe for only few seconds ? two different memories . duhs , && i think im really bad .. cause uhs . zips my mouth*

went to school today , went for maths but skip english . uhs =X i wont do that again .. i think so ? after that , went to plaza. slack there lohs , sians . going to school tml .

dont seems like a holiday to me . hws , undone.


MIN !

dont judge me by my looks . understand me , know me well.
ask yourself this question .
is it what u say are the truth ?
i dont get it , you know .

elbaresim !

told mum something which i think i shouldnt tell .
however, shes still that nice & didn say anything . i love mum , she understands me .
she knows what i am thinking about .

i just hope i can tell mum how upset i am & about things that happen around me.
& i feel like crying so much infront of her .
hais , this month . sucks
i have many things left undone . assignments ..
things to make decisions .
i really dontknow what to do.
i've been telling myself that i will cheer up
and everything will be fine..
but i guess , things just dont go on my way .

went to grandma hse at bangkit.
they moved house, so i took taxi with aunt to the new house at jurong area.
then i saw my naughty little cousin , kaikai .
he is damn hyperactive , i just cant control him .
he just kept running around and throwing things .
brr ,

listen to mp3...
went to eat nearby , took bus home .
saw eric's mum , & my mum started to chat with her.
talk about facial things . ahhh ,
if i have the money .
reached bukit panjang.
went to plaza & bought foods back home .
stupid jeanie msg me stupid sms -.-
LOLS

walked back home .
start thinking for a moment.
its been like many days i never go out with mum & accompany her.
maybe , i shall do this more often ?

im tired !

MIN!

im going to grandma hse at bangkit later. yea , should be quite boring . i think so ~

heys , im just asking you that question only ytd night . dont think so much , ohkay ? i dont feel good if u are like this (: smile

loves ,
MIN!

我依然还在等待
等待你会明白
一颗坚强的心在等你回来
风在吹让他擦去我脸上的泪
不要以为我真的无所谓
不怕累只要我的身边
有你陪请你相信我是真的不后悔

back !! within two days , many things happen to me . i shall not elaborate more on it . life sucks ! i hate it , i hate myself , i hate my surrounding & most of all i hate living in this world . afternoon , went out with winnie . she want go pierce her ears mah , so pei her lohs . ohkay , she now look more ahlian ler . hahas , went to library & borrow books back home in order to stop me from thinking ..

maybe i should just do this way the next time when something is bothering me . ahhh, i just need someone to talk to . at night , went to meet brian . ohkay , he never change at all . still so buayba. uhs , quite irritating also =/ after that , went home lohs . blog blog blog ~

im going out tml to grandma hse at bangkit ? dontknow yet .

MIN !

be yourself day !

wake up in the morning . get changed & went to meet cheryl first at jelapang . ohkay , im very lazy so i walked slowly & ended up that the person who is late is not me is jeanie chong , tha zibi . lols , went to school . alot of people dress differently nah . some very nice , some okok nor . the concert , okok nor . got hafiz & blackie perform . hehs , after that set up the manicure booth . i think i did a very ugly manicure on melissa's hand . ahhh , im sorry =/ i didn mean it , my skills is really bad .

end le , went off lohs . go to bishan there find mich's deardear . lols , fishing make us wait for like one hour plus fer him . ohkay , what a gentlemen ~ thennn , he finally came out of school with his friend . very beng , yea . walked to macs & settle down . then this fishs girl told the monkey say i diao her . shits , wad fer i look at you sia . u surely came out from the mental hospital not long ago =X is you diao me , or i diao you de. ask yourself this question first lah before you go find taiji .

dulan lohs , then walked off & took taxi back to bukit panjang plaza. sat in apple tree , then zihui , jeanie & i kept talking about those girls stuffs . uhs , then timothy at there listen lohs . feeling damn weird lahs . hahaa , waited fer that dum's msg lohs . he at fajar then he came to plaza with his friends & we met . yups , but didn really talk lahs . just say hellos & byebye =b

after that , went home le lohs . sorry ah , ytd never post because i lazy ~ hahas. i feel so uneasy right now . hais ,


loves ,
MIN !

i feel so upset for my dearest her . guys always tend to be very sweet at first , then slowly changed . that is a fact , almost all the guys do that to his girlfriend . tears almost roll down when i saw her crying . girl , you know who you are . you are strong , yes you are. i know you can get over it very quickly . you have me , you have cheryl , you have many many other friends around you . just like what u said before , hes not tha only guy in the world .

will you do this to me ?

uhs , went to lot 1 again today with cheryl & sulastri . buy tha nail polish at sasa , then went to take neos . nicenice (: walk around . went into the staircase area to settle something . zips my mouth* then kunda & kelvin came . hahaaa , kelvin is gay . no lahs , i use him as a model to practice my skills . brr , i just cant . nvm , i will just keep trying . i wont give up , i think so ~ lols.

listen to mp3 & went home . felt like sleeping again . oink -

MIN !

不要对我太好 .
dont put too much hope on me

im sleepy , im bored , im a pig &&& i want to go out.

since yesterday night , sulastri still haven call me ! i think she had forgot . ahh , nvm . i have a copymeow . so fishing angry , he/she USE my word . have your originality , please ? maybe i should just put password on my blog .

ohkay nvm , its better for me to keep my mouth shut . have to do my english assignments later. uhh , i want to work during the holiday . but i dont have IC , so i cant work at mummy's place. i need money ! maybe the next holiday .

i cant possibly trust someone so easily , i guess.

can i YAY ? lols , tml no school (: im going to go do manicure. today wake up early lohs , then meet cheryl at senja . saw veron waiting for elizabeth . reached school , almost all wear half-u . ahhh , nvm . thenthen , go do work lers . help to carry the water . heavy ehs =/ hand damn pain lahh .

end le , waited for winnie & mich for their npcc to end with cheryl , christine & jeanie . hais , then like got abit ps christine cause she waited for us . in the end , she take the bus alone . sorry =X took bus to queensway . walkwalk lohs , nothing de nah . i want the shirtttt , fish =/ ! thirty plus . nvm , i will save the money .walk finish le , went to take bus back to bukit batok lohs . in the bus , kept laughing fer nothing . i also dontknow why i laugh -.- winnie also laugh because she saw me laughing . weird uh ? hahs .

went down & took mrt to lot 1 . go walkwalk again until mich want go home le . i also felt like sleeping , very tired .. went home , useeee compppp & now blogging =b

tml , i'll be going out again . hais , again to lot 1 ! im lazy eh but no choice . im going to sleep later . loves ,

MIN !

LIGHTBULB! korkor & jialing jie in the same room with me . they do work , i use comp. i duncaree , i want use comp. lols , korkor & her very sweet ehs . one year plus le. hope they can last very very long (: cause i want them to last long . they very pei =b & i likee jialing jie . she very nice & chio !

school okok nor today . very guai lahs me , go do yin yong wen while others were busying chatting . im a good girl ! hehs , lessons are always that bored . no change , its like the same rountine for me everyday . maybe i wont blog so regularly le cause its just the same daily . ahhhh .. im dead ! tml going to macritchie park , i dontknow how to spell. ferget it =/ my english is poor . got duty , so dont need to run . i will just wear pe attire & wont even wear my half-u there . troublesome ! laalaaa

after school , went to plaza with zihui , jeanie , veron , winnie & michelle . did i miss out anyone ? i think ~ no bah ! its like been so long we never go out with veron le . ohkay , i miss her alot ! i miss one d alot too . with kevin stupid jokes & cheers , jihua's extraodinary laughs . pervertic actions of daniel , one d being famous for being the most naughty class & the only class who loves to destroy properties in the class . ahhh.. too much to mention . they are so great & funny lahs. hais , i hope i hope i can go back to one d so much ..

winnie & i was like damn crazy in longjohn with jeanie . ohkay , its normal for us already . we are damn noisy but we dontcare also nah . then suddenly , longjohn blackout . maybe we are just tooooooo noisy . i think im abit crazy now. wahhaaa , at night pei jeanie go rent er mo zai shen bian ders vcd . cause christine want mah . go to greenridge & plaza . both place also no stock . got one shop have , but need ic. so in the end , still dont have . makan at plaza lohs , then mum called. scolded me , say i very lihai 8pm le still haven reach home . help her buy bread then faster go home le lohs .

sians , wed no school !!!!! hehs . friday , be yourself day . after that , go shop lahhhh ! ohkay , my results fer CA is damn bad . four subject failed . did i mention it before ? nvm , i kept thinking about my poorly done results but i will do better than this at final year exam . i will & i must .

noooowww , im damn luan & fan & confuse & ...... i dontknow what to do &... i dontknow how to explain.


MIN !

messages !

dum , i hope you get back home earlier . dont everytyme latelate then reach home k . dont make people worry about you . face the problem earlier and you can be happier faster , alright ?

nie , lovess ! maybe i dont really understand what you want . but anyway , do cheer up & hope you forget him fast . i know the feelings , i know how it feels because im the same like you before . i've been hurt before . faster ferget ohkay ? i want see happy de winnie (: i know you tried your best already . but you know , im always there whenever you need me .

mich , darling ? lols , ohkay lahs. i got nothing to say about you butttt last long with your deardear ohkay ? must share problems with me ah , hello kitty .

jean , i've nothing to say to you because you are muchhh more happier than us , i guess . but u still have your own problems , ya ? hopee you can stay so crazy and happy like you always are .

christine , thanks fer your concern although you are quite late to msg me whether i've recover anot . hahaaa , loveee

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xin li de ying zi hai mei wang diao -


MIN !

JEANIE ! i finally found tha english song which i wanted so much le (: happy sia .


bad day -

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

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LOVES ,
MIN!

20 Reasons Why I Love You

I love the way you scream at me, every single night
I love the way you wonder if that was our last fight
I love the way you sleep, comfortably upon my arms
I love the way you drift, without and within my charms

I love the way you hug me, with your ear upon my heart
I love the way you kiss me, not even a centimeter apart
I love the way your body swings back and forth in motion
I love the way you say “I love you” with all of your devotion
I love the way your whole body looks, back and to the front
I love the way you care for me when our emotions are too blunt

I love the way you break my heart and repair it once more
I love the way you turn to me and hope I wouldn’t ignore
I love the way you fall within my arms right before you cry
I love the way you look at me and stare at me with those eyes

I love the way you talk to me until you fall asleep
I love the way you listen to those secrets I cannot keep
I love the way you linger on about the simple things
I love the way you give me risks for what your heart might bring

(: nice orhs ?

hehs , im backkkk ! actually back long ago lahs :D hahs . morning wake up early lohs. sians , bout nine plus wake up le . go use comp , then go prepare . went out at eleven , meet them at bus-stop alone . brrr , went to townnnnnnnn lohs . go cineleisure there meet that dum =b he is not that tall as i think nahs . hahaa , then went to watch movie . watch mi 3 with dum , dum's friend i dontknow who -.- , laogong winnie & hellokitty michelle (: heard sad things from him , cheer up k ! u still have your friends around you ders.

sound effect kept scaring me sia . coldddddd inside there nahs , end le . say byebye then faster go take bus chiong back to plaza see yuan qi ! ahhh , my lovvveeeeessss ^^ lols , very cute lahs one of them . nono , all cute . lols , i thought the cutest one is twenty plus years old de -.- but actually only 13 ehs. younger than me ,

lalaaa , im happy today ! i dontknow why also .

i dont know you will get see this anot , i think you wont get to see it. but uh , just like me vent my sadness out.

dont ask me why . no feelings means no feelings ! if you want to see me & him together so much , then im sorry i will surely disappoint you . so dont waste your energy helping him because its no use . he is only my FRIEND . get it ? if i ask u to stead with a girl whom u dun have feeling at all de , u want ?

MIN!

went to find sulastri just now ! hehs , she is my lovely friend (: meet her during afternoon , go plaza walk walk cause she wanna buy her jeans so accompany her lohs. later on , timothy , jeanie & cheryl came to find me ! sulastri bought her jeans at giordano. went to lot 1 with cheryl & sulastri only, go find nail polish . nice sulastri help me put nail polish - transparent , but i hate my right hand 4th finger ! got plaster sia . ugly ehs . hahaa !

walkwalk lohs , went home ! gees ^^ cheryl give me the homework . she in lrt always look at me is a very strange way . ohkay , i know the reason . she love me too much ! haaa , quite moody during that time cause of something . dont wanna talk about it lers . reach home , get changed . use comp lohs . so sians , holiday coming also have homework.

so BYD , how ? i dontknow . BRR , ma fan ehs . tues got duty need to do , girl guides mah . only monday & thurs got lesson . lovesss ! tml go out ? not sure , they all want go plaza see genki , yuan qi &&& this means , how to meet lahs ! hais , ferget it . girlfriends , how ? HAIS

with love ,
MIN !

hao sian orh . today never go school cause sick ah . my mum even so called ' encourage ' me not to go school cause got flu , very xin ku. lols , good hor . lalalas . update later bah !

ohkays , im damn super angry now . im not trying to insult anyone , so what do you expect from us . u think all your words damn nice ah , damn neat . is it ? so if theres something wrong with it , then u blame us ah . wah , li hai sia . i cant imagine that im so angry that i can even shed a tear for you people . shits , waste my tears .

if you damn pro , go do those stuffs lahs . u think so easy ah , asking people for money everyday . easy ah ? keep rewriting those names that u people kept changing easy ah ? i dont need to do my stuffs also har . FISH sia . as if u are the only one who have attitude , i have also . MANY people have also .

shits eh , make rebecca cry . u think u are so great ? i believe that i will always diao you in class lah . or maybe ? i shouldnt even waste my energy to stare at u . wadever it is ohkays , i dun mind you YOU or YOUU say im bad or wadever words that u can describe me which is unpleasant . but dont PUSH the blames on us . FISH , ohkay ! i hatteeeee youu all to hell .

its not one , but many others .

im so FISH pissed off .

im attitude .

finally (: let you all see video . ohkays , firstly before u see this video of mine . please be mentally prepare to see ME being very buayba & not really being my real self . i think alot that day in apple tree & it was so boring that i started to be crazy. this is not the first time . please ! dont think that you saw the wrong person or got into a wrong blog url . because this is me , the crazy MIN xD



loves !

today hai hao bahs but hao kai xin orh ^^ hehs , go hall . alot of late-comers on stage . thirty plus ? then shiok lahs , first period dun need go study . maths leh , wahaaa ! cause mr seet talk bout many things mah . jeanie & winnie , cannot go drink that thing ohkay ! its bad for health so nono to that thing ah .

chinese period , go comp lab but the comp damn slow, sian halfs then practice fer chinese oral lohs . after school , all say hao le run away from guides . hahs , so this is the second time lers . abit scare tml kena scold by ms chong or ms liew , lols . went fer my chinese oral , damn nervous lah until i wanna cry sia . went in to the room , read until tatitatu de . i dont even dare to look at the teacher lahs . my face turned red ehs , went out of the classroom . jump lohs , damn happy cause finish ler . phew , hope i can get good marks . then faster walk out of school with them lohs , they all pei me go bangkit take my contact . makan at there also . in the end , jeanie at there siaosiao . i think im dreaming lehs , why do i have such lame & crazy friend ever since secondary one ? LMAO

my shirt de tie still at farah there lehs , hais . how ? MIA le lahs . ytd saw jiaojian outside school . long time never see him le ehs , got abit change . hahs , today got go to last time 2C de classroom to wait for my turn for oral lohs , suddenly miss 1d & 2c so much . i love 3b also lahs , lols . tml abit scare sia , i scare i will be told by ms chew that my mum need to go fer the parents meeting session because i failed alot of subject . hais , somemore my mum wont scold me de , everytyme say i did my best le so nvm but the more she liddat the more i feel so .... guilty . hais

kays , update tml .
byebye

min

gou le , bu yao zai deng le .
ai bu hui zai hui lai le ) ' :


okays ! so sad , i wanted to post one of my crazy video in this post but cant . tha code cant be used . so nvm bahs . hahaa , school is okay . next week will be really relaxing . tues , wed & friday (: hehs , nicenice . can go gaigai ~ LOL

i've changed my blog song . weeesss ~ mei you ren ke yi jiao ni bao bei by 元气 ! niceeee song lahs .

beyourself day on friday ! lalaaa ~

my CA marks are really very bad . i think i failed exactly 4 subjects . i think i sure have meet-the-parents session & its compulsory , i guess . by that time , i think my mum wont scold me , only that i will cry cause im soo sooo disappointed of myself . buck up now , min !

ya , i loveee quarreling with rebecca. she always make me laugh .

alright , i know im sensitive to such things . wadever , i wont care anymore . this is ME , limin ! ohkay , i think im abit crazy already. lalalalaa ~ homework later !


loves ,
min

i felt so bbrrrrr ! so fan .
HAIS !

im not okay .

i hate i hate i dontknow i hate who .

AHHHH , im crazy . felt like scolding vulgarities alot now ,

#$%@$

im hungry , im bored & i cant go out .

& tml i have to go school again . brrr , i hate studying . two more weeks , then i can go have fun lahs . HEHS (: maths worksheet done nahs , but alot of questions i leave it blank because i dontknow how to do . since when , i already gave up in maths . so no point doing also ? hais ,

looked at tha video michelle took de in apple tree , i like so damn baichi & lame ehs -.- how i hope that the person inside tha video doing crazy stuffs isnt me lahs . hahaa , i miss bp plaza . i want to go out . hao sian hao sian ~

watch tv later bahs , then go be pig again . or or or , ask mum pei wo go out buy me things ? hais ,

may i love you ?
unloved .

i think of you and it's gone , like you chase away the storm

也许我已经看开了. 我要快乐 ! wo zhen de yao kuai le .

hahaaa , damn funny sia . just now someone tell me something . am i very bad ? i dontknow but haaa , gay =X nvm , im just too bored today. write testimonial , return testimonial . later go do my maths worksheet bah . tml i want gaigai , so must jio me out okay (: lalalas

wo hao sian orhs . monday must study again . mum is like so damn worry about me sia . morning call back home dontknow for how many times asked me whether i got eat anot & etc . maybe she scare i faint again , i wont lahs ! hehs .

i got so many great friends around me , this makes me very happy at times . thanks for all the shoulders when i needed them & those words which brighten up my day . those jokes , all those lame actions . hahs , loves <3sss

i kept shivering ehs , happy mother's day ! i love mum ((:

with loves,
min

this week conclusion is ; everything is tha first time !

first time , my cut is so deep . first time , i fainted today ! tha feeling is so baddddd ! >.< i dontknow wad happen to me again . so morning , i went to east coast for family gathering . half way raining , went to one of my relative house . i sat on the staircase & stood up to go back home . as i walked to the door , my aunt talked to me & ta da !

i fainted -.- i dont feel anything , no strength at all . then all crowded me , i heard alot of people 's voice . saw mum cried too, my eyes kept closing then all my aunts & uncle ask me to talk & dont close my eyes , ask me not to scare them . then one of my aunt keep pinch me on my shoulder sia , damn pain eh ! i still can rem , lols . after that , lie on the floor mattress & rest nors . all of them thought i want to slim down then dont eat so fainted but i kept on eating leh . i didn even want to slim down at all -.- morning & afternoon i also got eat eh .

awhile later , better le . go makan abit of things . then dad drive me go see doctor . i say i ok le , mum still dont believe -.- in the end , really waste money . the doctor says that i have no reasons why i fainted. so i also dontknow why , maybe too tired le bah . before that , my uncle asked me whether is it i scare dao le cause of tha trip , then got pray anot .maybe i think too much ler bahs . hope everything is fine (:

i feel better le , my finger will leave a scar bah . hais , i want go gaigai . im bored >.<

i miss my girlfriends !

with loves ,
min

pictures down there ! scroll down ~

im back from camp ! so , anyone miss me ? LMAO . how should i start ah .. should i say this overseas 3B camp is a scary , fun & unforgetable one ? theres alot of words i can describe it . i miss blogging , i miss alot alot of things .

first day
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woke up , went to meet cheryl at senja . reach school , take class tee nors. not very nice lahs , is not tha same we drew on the paper, then nvm nors. sat tha bus with cheryl behind they all is ronnie , derrick , zayar , zheyong , junqian & others lah . next to us is rebecca (: chitchat , listen to mp3 nors. sians . after that , reach malacca . go makan at their country club , i think so . then the four classes go different place. our class go a place something called as joy workshop de. its a place where all the people who have their IQ low de inside working on something to earn money. i can say that they are really very very nice people & i knew many new friends of different ages. theres this lady who is quite bad lah , i dontlike seh. people go do the pins mah , then she go take tha girl whom im helping one de pins and say is hers one . i see ler , damn angry sia . tha girl cried lohs , scare dao wo . its not tha first time lah , second le . brr , but they two got hug sia . LOLS , i feel so ... dontknow how to explain . hahs , zayar got people jio him sia ! that girl look so sweet , her eyes brown colour de . awww , i want . i knew one guy there who is really very cheerful . his name is kok ping . he is always smiling (: good ah , i hope im like this. although their IQ are low , but their life are still so great for them. they dance & sing for us . we too ~ i got gift from them ! one pencil holder, they made their ownself. i enjoy myself them very much nah ^^ one cute small boy there very cute eh.

went back to the bus , abit bu she de . played games at dontknow where lah . sian eh , dinner nors at a nyonya restaurant . took pics . later post on blog ! then go shopshop at mahkota parade , buybuy . i love shopping (: check in to the hotel in malacca , many things happen . so me , cheryl & rebecca slept in tha same room . let it be whether we are sensitive or wad. we get into the room & the feeling inside there is really very weird. ronnie & derrick also inside with us , then that stupid ronnie go say all those scary things . we three start to get abit afraid lohs . after that , they went out . suddenly , black out . rebecca ask me go open the door. cheryl is with me , im the first one to open the door then all chiong out lohs ! in the end , im the last one . i scare dao , lie onto the wall then slowly sat on the floor and cry . rebecca ask me what happen and say i got blood . i look at my both hands . both also full of blood , really scare me lah . hais , got one dontknow who a guy lai de , he help me ask me go wash my hand , then i realise i got cut , very deep one . damn scary , i hug cheryl then cry lohs . cause its tha first time i saw my both hands with blood like murderer sia . when i saw my hand with blood , i still ask cheryl one very stupid question sia -.- LMAO . how gong hor ?

change room le , go shower. winnie they all come to our room , then eat lohs . cause we call for room service . teacher came to our room & call me say i need go to hospital . very kua chang sia -.- say if wad happen to me , how they tell my parents . in the end , donthave . went to the lobby , all the teachers are there . all look at my hands , one ncc teacher help me apply lotion on it . ms wati very scare. how i hope the blood faster stop . i dontwant go hospital . stop le they ask me go back room , abit scare . slept abit . rebecca & cheryl almost call my parents , heng donthave ! or else , i reach home . they sure talk alot de. hehs.

second day
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wake up , go for breakfast. sat the bus to cameron highlands. abit giddy , felt like vomitting also . reach ler , went for lunch at dontknow where. i forgot le , paiseh . went to rose garden , very beautiful . scenery more nice eh . different types of roses. pics later ^^ bought roses for mum (: dad never bought mummy roses ): hais , so let the daughter do tha job ! haa , hao le . go trekking up the hill . the weather is very cold , very very cold . me & cheryl climb up the hill with eric & ivan . halfway , raining . i think we were under rain for about half an hour . tha rainwater is damn cold until i kept shivering . my jacket , my clothes & jeans all wet lohs . get back to our bus by another bus . many people inside lohs . tiring day , check in to the hotel . A 's room is just beside us . because of the first day thing , three of us very scare . cause got balcony , scare he will climb over at night . think alot , but the scenery out there from our room very beautiful . & kunda's room just next next to our room . everytyme we call them is from our balcony . damn funny . even there are moths in tha toilet , we also call them for help from tha balcony . lame sia , assemble at the lobby area with kelvin , ronnie & the rest . went for steamboat dinner. another thing which make me so dulan . i wont mention tha name here . S & S's mother were angry that we changed the seats & made them unable to sit with the girls . but the fact is the others who changed seats not US . so , she scolded rebecca . nvm , ferget it . after tha dinner , night tour at the brinching town . walkwalk , nothing to buy also . went back to the hotel room , alot of guys are in our room to so called protect us ? LMAO , cause we scare A came to our room or do all sorts of things to us . we told ms chew bout it also . jasper 's back got cut by the window outside tha balcony . around ten plus , all the teachers came to our room to check jasper's back . ronnie they all went back to their room . RONNIE , tha long gou man ! hahaaa , water drop from the top to his head or other place . laugh till pengz ! went to have a talk with A after they went off with the teachers. went back to the room , rebecca scare dao le then cry . she say she got bad feeling that A will do bad things to us . i feel abit also . then she vomitted . eleven plus , kelvin , junqian & kunda came back to our room pei us nor . played cards . feel more safe with them bah , they wait till we all sleep le then went back to their room . when i wake up , i heard people singing malay song or maybe praying . not too sure , called cheryl up & ask her . dun care , continue sleep . all wake up le , called kunda they all come back .

last day
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breakfast with ms chew & others. kunda & kelvin sat behind us ler , went to boh tea plantation . bought mum some tea . hope she like it nors . didn buy anything for dad , mmm .. transfer to KL , play in the bus & have our 3B idol . hahaa , get to hear kunda singing seh . we almost get sabo also by kelvin & others also . hahaa , but didn . lalalaa ~ arrived KL , go shop again . this time didn buy anything . nothing to buy at all , but the guys buy quite alot . went back to bus & continue back the journey to singapore. i went to sleep & others play ' zhong ji mi ma ' woke up , played with them also . got asked by them some stupid questions cause truth mah . reached yong peng , makan dinner . went back to bus , slept again . woke up , still haven reach yet . my eyes were closing nah . reached school at about eleven plus or earlier cant remember . i think i will miss yujie , the girl who is always so nice & christina , our tour guide (: loveess . took cheryl's dad car to senja lrt & walked home alone . reach home , faster settle all the things then draw a card for mum . went to sleep

today
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woke up & i realised that i slept till evening 5 plus today . used com nors , damn sian . then faster go make the roses , throw some of them away cause not nice . mum reached home , put tha things on tha table . i feel so great when seeing mum smile . hahaa , im a nice girl ! dont vomit , okay . LMAO , go makan le . i love cameron highlands & all those happy memories there !

tml going to east coast or west coast for family gathering . will be damn boring , i think . i want go gaigai !

heard that sarawak was fun too ! haaa , leslie's hand got injured too . DAMN hao xiao leh , from high high jump down . gun gun gun xia lai . really sia , dont say im bad ok . when u heard him saying it by yourself . u can laugh like siao .

i still need to reply winnie's testimonial . BRR
im lazy .

i feel so sad ,you know . mum still didn notice my finger which got cut . i need concerns . hais
i need them ):

some people can be so flirt . shameless , should i say that ? i cant tolerate such things . especially , when it happens to be on my friend . hais

im still there , you know .

pictures
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me & amanina at MALACCA !


in the restaurant at malacca

top : amanina , sulastri , putri
bottom : cheryl , ME , rebecca , suning & nazura


at malacca !
ms ? , cheryl , rebecca , sulastri , ME , ms chew (:


okay , so this is how i sleep -.-
they anyhow take my photo !!


nine of us !
at malacca , nyonya restaurant


3B , at boh tea plantation centre ^^


at cameron highlands.
kelvin , ME ,rebecca, zayar , cheryl & kunda

US again at cameron highlands . xD


teacher , kelvin , zayar , kunda , rebecca , cheryl & ME

took it from our hotel room 's balcony .
nice ah ?

scenery of CAMERON HIGHLANDS .
that person is cheryl .


with love ,
MIN

im so dead now... 我和他真的完了 ! i hate to be alone at times . i've been always day-dreaming . thinking of those memories which is meant to be nothing right now . hais , limin ! 别在做梦, 好不好 ? came back from plaza and walk alone back home . i was listening to mp3 and all of those things just came to my mind . i just cant stop it ! brrr ..

i felt like crying so much , but i couldnt . i didn know why maybe , theres no more tears for me to cry anymore ? im so tired of many many things . i gave people my attitude , i mean like its not tha first time . i get angry very easily , i mean really very easily ! im emotional . damn , i dont know what happen to me . im changing , i think so . ahhh

i hate it , i hate it so much . must i bang the wall to make myself awake ? or ... hais . okay , so im having moodswing now . there goes all my wild thoughts & im going crazy soon .

tml going to overseas le . seems like everybody packed thier bag already ! only me haven . im lazy lah . must wake up early tml . shits , i haven bought my mum's present. diedie ~

我好累 ~

this is for you ^^ you know who i mean .
three days im not in singapore , ryte ?
so thats mean three jiayou `

jia you , jia you , jia you ! (:

HEHS ,
i'll miss blogging so much =b

byebye !

specially for my girlfriend ; MICH !

which guy will be so true to a girl.
which guy will not break girl's heart.
which guy ?

its okay that you disappoint us , but please
not to disappoint yourself . why dont you think ,
wads so great about him for you to fall in love with him .
wads so great about him for you to cry .

but , cherish him before he is gone .
dont later like me , sotsot . hahaa
dont sad dont cry , okay ?
SUSHI will heartpain de ):

dont think i dontknow u got drink THAT DONG DONG hor.
i think u are going to tio depression soon le .
wahahaa ,
good good

everyone siao except jeanie . LOL

dont lose your confidence in love because of him .
dont ah .

i can lose all tha confidence in tha damn love
because its not tha first time i've been hurt & cry (:
sooo , it doesnt matters !
HEHS

MIN

finally done with zihui's blogskin.

so , i did another blogskin which is nicer than my own blogskin -.-

nvm , its not tha first time already.

brrr !

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sorry dad , i didn know everything ...

hais

* zips my mouth * =/

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blog song -lyrics

jie tuo (:

爱永远都是难题

失去分寸太容易

谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼

有时候忘了珍惜

伤害来的太无意

有时爱太急需要空间呼吸

争吵愈狠痛愈深刻

然后不断自责

我们都忘了最初的快乐

拥抱越紧痛愈深刻

谁不会舍不得

现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说

如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过

就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我

爱着你仍是我的执着

让你哭泣对不起为了爱承受委屈

说过的承诺其实还没忘记

愈是在乎的关系愈是相处不容易

伤害了你我也失去勇气

争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责

我们都忘了最初的快乐

拥抱越紧痛愈深刻

谁不会舍不得

现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说

如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过

就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我

爱着你仍是我的执着

走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手

还能有什么藉口让爱再回头

多少的爱说不出口

就让时间帮我说话我一个人拼命挣扎

总比两个人一起难过还好吧

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说

如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过

就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我

爱着你仍是我的执着

爱着你唯一的解脱

ms low ! i miss you ~
ahh , so so so she went back to NIE , so damn sad . yesterday so sian lohs , but chinese good good ! teacher bring us go com lab & play . after school , sians . go plaza makan with cheryl & jeanie . jeanie go find her mummy's present. i next week then buy bah , but dontknow when free & how to hide . lalalas

today is sulastri's birthday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY (: lovesss . stay sweet , alright ? hehs , yesterday is peipei's birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY also ! so many people birthday coming nahs . so good , my one still need to wait for 5 more months lehs . hahas , later going out with mummy . go buy camp stuffs lohs . two more days going overseas ler , i think i will miss my bed alot & of course my family lahs && those people who always chat with me at msn . i will miss my computer . BRRR

wednesday night come back , thurs rest . but still got online de homework , friday go eastcoast - family gatherings . sat & sun , donno !

i feel so empty .

yesterday never post cause after going to plaza . went home , watch tv then sleep lohs . sleep until morning ! =b LOLS , i know i pig lahs . very tired mah , hahas . i want my clothings !! i want many many things nah .

i miss you !

, my girlfriends (:
hahs ,
im bored , im bored , im so bored.


MIN

LIFE SUCKS .

bahlalala * WAS ON THA STAGE TODAY MORNING !
hahaaa , but i dare not see .

bought presents fer miss low ler,
its damn sweet . tml i try to take a picture of it (:
lalalas

i want to sleep
MIN

H.C , whereareyou.
im having a damn BAD mood right now.
i need someone to cheer me up & talk to me.
i need my friends .

where is michelle , where is jeanie , where is winnie.
fuck ! i cant tolerate myself . i cant control myself .
im so dulann , im so angry , im so DAMN IDIOT FRUSTRATED.

& i dontknow why .
AHHH ,
i cant calm down .

thanks mark ,
thanks fer listening to all my vulgarities !
but i just cant cool down .
BRRR ,

okay .
WHERE ARE YOU LAH ,

MIN

LUCKILY , i pass my chinese . thats mean 5 subjects , i failed two . hais , i shouldnt have fail my maths , alot of careless mistake lah . 4 times 4 , equal how much ? 16 ryte , i careless go write 36 . walans two marks leh , suan le . we are getting our class jersey this friday . wees ~

school , okok nor . after school , go guides nor . damn sian , go prepare fer tha healthy blahblah badge de. i ferget tha name , so went to learn line dance nor . very tired ah , release ler . go take geog book back to study then went home ! on the way back , saw tingjian kor cause he came to fetch veron . i felt like im having a dream right now & i feel like sleeping alot .

i want go gaigai ,
i got a feeling that ...
dontknow `

sunday will be posting & from mon to wed not in singapore ler . must miss me hors, LMAO .

sians , later still must study !!
#$&!@%


go away !

MIN

i got back my results
and i ....

dont feel like talking about it .
but something i must mention is that .
I FAILED MY CHINESE.
with idiotic results.
i mean like its so unbelievable . THIS is tha very very VERY first damn time i flunk it .
great , im so pathetic , im so HAIS .
im so lost !

so , today is a fine day for me ! obviously , im damn happy when exams are finally over . im like already in holiday mood , i guess. im going to overseas camp & alot of things are coming soon. im getting excited . one bad news is that miss low is going back to NIE . then , my class going to buy her something nors. hope she like it , friday is the last day for her . feeling so down .

after school , go plaza walk walk & makan lohs . damn crazy in apple tree lahs , i mean VERY crazy . michelle go take tha video & sent to her computer. shits , my idiotic & crazy actions. i dontknow why im so crazy . i just dontknow why , maybe im just born like this. hahs , i loveee my friends like hell lah . for example ; sulastri ! for being there for me in class today . she is so nicee ~

i dont feel well today , my eyes are damn pain - didn sleep enough &
im so calm today , i didn expected myself to be like this .
so weird lahs .

i think im soooo naive !
so tian zhen . yups ,

so thursday still have geog test, & tml have cca .
i hate cca, waste my time .
run away lahs , LOL .

i think cheryl reach home sure got cry de ,
her pattern & her expectations for her studies.
me ? i already give up on my studies ler.
i think so ,

today , saw him when going up to 6th floor to find jeanie.
then winnie say what thing cute de.
so i asked lor ,
& saw him , i utter my word out one by one sia.
funny lehs .
' she , me , dong , xi '

im bored.
im so sian
im soooo HAIS .
im soooo NAIVE .
im glad for him !
hehs


byebye
takecare

say that you will love me again .


back from bugis ! hahs , spend my $$ , now left seven plus nia . sians , walk around till my leg pain . bahhh ( x i love shopping ! hehs , although abit heartpain cause those money is i everyday save de. & within few hours , all gone ler ! suan le , i happy can ler (:

my mp3 no battery ler . michelle say bangkok got playboy thing then mummy at bangkok leh ! should tell her before she go nahs , ask her help me buy ): so sad lah , anyway later she will be coming back . im happpppyyyy . i miss her !

tml still got home econ test , didn study for it . got 11 chapters tested, i think so ~ dontknow nah , abit lazy . then , still have english factual recount . i dontwant to do lehs , but tml must hand up . im tired , im lazy . im worried for my results. sure got alot fail de. i want to sleepppppp ! i want.

TONS of love ,
min

im out later !
want find me , come bugis okay ?
hahas , msg me lah . cause i will be damn bored.
i think so `

meeting up with my girlfriends at about 12.30
then go gaigai , buy clothes lohs.
my money $$
she bu de xD

come back le ,
then post hao le !

min (:

fuck lah ,
ask korkor go buy cigarette
ownself want to smoke wont go buy yourself.
you donknow korkor age meh ,
still ask him secretly and buy . ppl see his face also know le wad.
later get him into trouble.

i know im rude .
but which father will ask his son to buy cigarette for him sia.

kaos ,
damn angry lah.

you want to smoke ,
SMOKE lohs . mum say anything to ask u quit
u also wont.
fuck sia.

hais ,
sorry k

min.

wahs , funny sia. just now , looking at the neoprints we took ytd . got one pic is we all put f sign de. like baichi ehs. LOLS , i want to go out tml & shop shop. dontknow why ytd saw his blog's tagboard. feeling so weird .. i dontknow how to explain also .

shall work on zihui's blog later. i felt like sleeping again . mark ah mark , dontknow if you will get to see this post anot . but , dont be so agigated & angry ok ? let her be lahs , shes not worth it for you to wait . everytyme receive your ANGRY msg , i also dontknow how to reply sia. relax lahs , i also dontknow tell you how many times le . stay happy , alright ? marker pen !

im hungry , nobody cook for me . mum at thailand . AHHH , but tml shes coming back ! HEHS (: so happy can. i miss winnie , i miss michelle , i dont miss jeanie . lols , joking lahs (: i MISS my girlfriends alot . hais , tml go out , okay ? && if you all want the neoprints , approach me at msn hors. i'll send it to you . where is stupid hellokitty michelle , i want to send her tha blogskin code , she never online .

how to know that you are in love with someone ?
ask yourself , its your feeling to that girl .
do you miss her ?
are you happy when u know that she is happy ?
are you sad when u know that she is sad ?
are you jealous when she talks about other guy ?
&
im not you , i dontknow how you feel.
so i dontknow how to tell you.

(:
min .

im bored .
so today i DID two good thing (: HAHS , im nice .
morning , ten plus wake up .
hungry , nothing to eat. then anyhow find thing & cook & eat
after that chiong lohs , cause i late to meet them at jelapang le.
my hair wet wet then dont care nors , tie up .
once step out of my house , walk damn fast lahh .
in the end , reach there only saw jeanie -.-

reach school le , took tha bus to causeway point fer tha flag day .
in tha bus , damn noisy lah .
can imagine if overseas camp then sure damn cham le =/
go take the tins & sticker lohs .
stood at the entrance asking people to donate like idiot sia .
but i saw alot of very cute childrens.
i felt like pinching them ~ hahs.

slack abit , kept the tins in our bag .
go buy drinks & walk walk lohs .
& after that , we went down tha escalator .
me & rebecca saw ALOT of currypuffs all over tha place.
so i called rebecca to come & help .
use plastic bag and pick it up one by one lohs .
THEN this auntie came down from the escalator & almost fell .
she grab on to rebecca & hold me.
& SHE SCOLDED US . asking why we make it lying all over tha place.
as if thats our fault , we are only trying to help wad.
like so piss off lahs .
do something good , in the end kena scolded.
then i kept scolding non-stop to rebecca lohs.
BRR , got such people in this world so cham lah .

went back to tha place where we need to report at about 3.30
return the tins & took mrt back to cck to meet jeanie , mich & winnie with
sulastri & cheryl .
had a great time chatting with sulastri in mrt.
THEY always tend to think that they are so great & mature.
AS IF ( x
lalala`
shop & look around fer make-up items .
i mean me & others like so gong lah .
know nothing about it until sulastri tell us . hahas ,
jeanie go buy her things lohs . so EX but nice leh (:
took neos !
went to eat dinner with jeanie & mich at greenridge . others go home nor.
makan , gastric pain . i dontknow why also.
cant tahan .
after that go to my house downstairs playground.
sit down at there and waited fer er hems to come & meet lohs.
so long sia , turtle lah. LOLS
we kept silent fer bout one minute cause got funeral near the playground mah .
then erhems came & say we look like three gods.
i cant tahan & laugh lohs , so silly .
lalalas .

about time to go home , the three of them go take lrt nor.
me walk back to tha lift there , did a good thing.
pei this old auntie up to her floor because she scare .
cause got funeral mah , i think so bah . at first got two auntie speak hokkien .
but i understand (:
IM NICE ! haa , dont vomit ok .
i ownself walk alone also feel abit weird weird le .
i miss mum .
HAIS ,

show you all the pictures i took today (:
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i know it's small .
okay , i also know i look weird xD



top : mich , sulastri & cheryl
bottom : winnie , jeanie & ME
* i look so gong , omg ` hahs
i LOVE my friends.



WINNIE , LIMIN , JEANIE , MICHELLE
jiemei 184 (: LOVES !


you saw tha white thing ?
im sorry , but i've my privacy =b
winnie took this for me . AHH


sweet (:
i took it outside tha precious moment shop .
DAMN nice, i swear .


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should i redo my blogskin ?
should i start working on zihui's blogskin.
IM LAZY !



min .
they always come & go .

im changing layout soon =b
i dontwant black .
HEHS.

pictures (:


zihui & me <3s


winnie & me (:
with TONS of love //* my laogong .
[ tha greeny thing is reflection xD -



jeanie & mee !
my ZIBI = )


michelle & ME .
my DEAR HELLO KITTY .
HEHS ((:


SEE !
michelle love me =b
hahaa `

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EXAMS finally over ! not really lah , still left with f&n on tues & pure geog on thurs. lalalas ~ after school , chiong straight to jurong entertainment watch movie . tha er hems help us buy tha ticket first. thanks (: then went in lohs , so SCARY lah . i mean tha sound effect. wah , scare me quite alot of times . bahhh , then keep hugging winnie's pooh & her hand . thenthen , lie my head on zihui's shoulder , dont dare to see . zihui laugh at me sia ! ma de , hahaa . its normal reaction okay ! when someone is watching scary movie, it is damn NORMAL to be afraid.

watch finish le , go take neos lohs. not bad , quite nice = ) then half way back to mrt station , winnie's ez-link card lost . in the end , we went back to tha mall & found it in the toilet. brrs , take mrt back to lot 1 . makan dinner at KFC , me abit moodswing . never talk , keep quiet . kept eating lohs . hais , because blahhhh . dontwant to say here . hahaa , went back home by lrt . REACH home , i alone sia. so sad lah , mum go thailand liao.

hengs , dad & korkor came back . im not alone le . hahaa , then erm later help michelle & zihui do their blogskin lohs . i own michelle the blogskin very long le , i kept fergetting =/ sorry ~ tml still have to go school , afternoon bah . go do what flag day de lah. sian halfs , until four then end . heard from dad , vesak day . i dontknow what day lai de , but i only know got family outing at east coast ? i think so , & this means i must look at my relatives again . damn boring , shits. i dontwant to go but i MUST go just because im the smallest. this is the disadvantage of being tha smallest in the family . everything is a must. i miss mum alot . HAIS ,

next three days , dinner how ? eat maggi ah ? LOLS , i lazy to go out & buy de lehs . ahhh , see how bah . i go do their blogskins le .
byebye .

im nervous !
myyyyy results .
HOPE I PASS because if i fail alot of subs ,
i think i will cry almost everyday .
SO pray for me , okay ?

loves ,
min

hao xiang ku ..
finally , i think i've got my conclusion.

wo xiang de bu shi ta ,
er shi wo he ta de hui yi.
is this true ? or i still ...
hais ,
felt so uneasy .

morning , saw him . so greatt , loves ! made me smile alot . HEHS. then maths test okay okay lohs. still can do . but everytyme i like that say , in the end still will fail . so dontcare lohs , btw . the math paper already end le , just like what sulastri said. dont think bout it anymore , must think forward (:

yup , tml is chemistry paper. hopee i pass ! heard that alot of people in 3C fail their english . then me sure fail le lorhs. dont need see also can know de. hais , suan le lohs. fail then fail bahs . theres nothing i can do with it also. next week or next next week going for overseas camp le . yeas , promise someone to post ' jiayou ' for tha three days just because im not in singapore =/

good luck &
stay happy (:

mum is going to thailand this friday .
&&& thats mean i wont see her for four days!
FOUR days , so long eh.
i'll miss her alot , i guess =/
hais , then i'll be damn alone at home this four days .

i want go airport fetch mum come back on monday !
hahs (:

studied my math already ,
hope i can score eh (:
know all the formulas le.
lalalala `

im not confident ):
hais .
i must jiayou until next week tues .
then FINALLY ! .
hahs .

min

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having a math hod teacher is great
but having student like me who always fail maths is really bad .

tml is math paper.
i wanttt to pass so so much .
good luck , okay ? (:

others subject ? no idea,
maybe will fail bah .
then drop to NA . hahs.
im not happy .
hais

loves,
min

why . ?
can tell me why not..
hahaas
those tears .
those fucking tears that left behind.
you dont understand.

today ):

can i say im going to fail my physics too ? its like so unfair to us . different teacher got different teacher method & wth . damn unfair. i wanttt retest ! I WANT LAH ! hais , then ferget it lohs . cheryl cry in library for the stupid physics test lohs.

im mentally prepared to fail all the subjects le lah . i know it myself , hais . hopeless , okay ! btw, i love to fool around with rebecca. i cant stop laughing .

and yea , to those who came & chat with me ytd night at msn & console me & give me advice one . thanks . lovesss ! & victor , dont you dare to slap me just to wake me up .

die , i would love to ((:

I WILL STUDY HARD ,
i promise !

min

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24 april `

this post might be a harsh one . dont take it so seriously, people . because its just the anger im writing down all this thoughts. should have alot of vulgarties in this post. dont read it , if you dont even bother about my life. & please , dont act as if u care.

if you want to read a nice post , dont come to read this post. cause its not what u want here.

SERIOUSLY , im not in a good mood.
* im sorry for those vulgarities i wrote.

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stop what you are thinking , limin ,
its time for you to wake up & really study this time.
you dont deserve staying in 3B and study.
you don deserve it.
i kept thinking about you.
i cant even concentrate.
or maybe , i should just blame myself ?
blaming myself that i did not focus on studies.
and when exams come , i dont know anything .
such a failure am i ...

why waste time thinking ? i always ask myself this question.
why bother to wait & let it affect your studies .
now is term two already . & i shall not SLACK anymore .
i must be serious & study real hard for the few terms left.
i dontwant myself been laugh by people .
i dontwant my results to be like so damn bad & start reflecting
when it is too late for me to study & get good results.
i dontwant..

i deserve to study in a lousier class but defitnitely not B.
when everyone around me say almost the same answer for english .
i felt like breaking down & cry .
i dont believe how much time i've wasted.
like for about three months plus.
i dont want to question myself like this
' wad are you doing in this four terms. slacking ? playing ? '
by the end of the year.
i dont want bad results reported on my report book.
i dont want.

i dont want anything to affect my studies.
& i really lost my confidence in everyone including myself.
i wont trust anymore , i wont trust myself that i would study hard
& get great results . i wont .
i really felt so upset.
& wanted to cry so much .

but when im feeling in such way ,
who will know ? none !
who will come beside me & tell me what to do.
NONE !
who will even really care about me ?
NONE !
theres nobody around me anymore,
theres no one gives a damn bout me whether im happy or not.
im really feeling so stress up that i wanna scold vulgarities non-stop.

english , social studies, chinese , MATHS , chemistry & physics.
how can i cope when i cant even concentrate.
how can i get good results when i cant even concentrate .
how am i going to study when i cant even concentrate at all !
everyone around me is like so f* clever .
ahhh ,wadever shits.
i dont wanna think anymore .
i only want good grades by the end of year.

i really hope i can get good results for english & social studies this time.
& i shall not fail the other subjects.
how i hope i can throw away all the textbooks & stop studying.
i hate schools.
i hate studying.
i hate many many things.
i love fooling around .

fcuk , i must really stop THINKING .
idiot , ahhh .

im dropping my tears while writing this post.
fucking life .
so damn disappointed with myself.
ahhh , i cant think positive anymore.

im so fucking stress .
people , dont provoke me fer this week .
cause you might not know i would throw what kind of attitude to you .
fuck .
OKAY , i need to study .

i cant get over it .
nobody will ever cares.
kaos , DU LANNNNNNNNNN !

good luck to the others for tml tests.

fuck life.
i dont need !
its enough.
DAMN ENOUGH .


min.

damn ,

i LOVE my class blog so MUCH ! =b
so nice , rahhhs xD

http://www.wsss3b-2006.blogspot.com/

take a look at it . especially 3B classmates.
TAG ALRIGHT ! (:

i really dontknow what to put on my blogskin .
ferget it , maybe i'll just leave it there like this.
simple is nice (:
lols , I MUST STUDY .

everything must come to an end.
your childish acts make me sick of it .
nvm , i get used to it already .

byebye !
mwarks `

min

hais , sorry to those who i gave attitude. for example , zayar. sorry , im not in a good mood & im darn tired . im having headache . ahhh , SYF band . okays lohs , west spring got silver fer this year not gold . but i guess they did their best ler . proud of you guys (: loves. still ,BAND rocks .

& this sec 1 girl sat infront of us . she didn diao me but she diao one of my girl-friends . she so cham lahs , who ask her eyes anyhow see . so we kept making her lohs . when shouting the cheer , shout at her ears. bahhh , then clapping also clap near her ears . kept scolding her , want diao dont dare to diao like that . hahaa , then continue make her lohs . winnie still put the girl's LONG , i mean really very long hair into jingting's shoe . super funny , okay . although we are kinda bad doing this , but she deserves it lahs . DIAO somemore lohs .

after SYF , she stand beside me sia . i dontknow then i saw her . i shouted ' ghost , ahhh ! ' LMAO , then she looked at me , diao me . not dulan at all lahs , damn funny, at there laugh ! then shout shout lohs , she loves us too much le , kept following us . damn xialan sia , cannot take it . jingting more pro lahs , she looked at the girl & diao her super long seh . damn good sia , lols .

after that , rain lohs . make my headache more cham . reached school , pei jeanie go buy her food then she go meet er hems .winnie & mich go lot 1 makan , then i go home lohs . so sian lahs . tml must chiong social studies ler. i dont understand anything about sri lanka . okays , i will really study alot tml . i guess =/

i want my belt at far east or queensway lahhhhh .

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some pictures to share (:


WSSS band !



DAMN nice . got like ten schools taking part ?
not sure `

* what to put on my blogskin . i've no idea. howwwww ...

MIN

so sian ,
did a stupid blogskin.
not done yet.
im BORED!
--


im out later !
to lot 1 makan first then go straight back to school &
watch SYF at the national stadium.
lalalas ` i felt better .
think alot & yays !
hahaa, dont understand . nvm !
okays , support wsss band xD

will post later bahs ,
& tell u how great is our school band !
HEHS (:

min .
iloveeeyouuuu !

GREAT !



cheryl , ME , jeanie (:



me & KANGAROO ! xD


ME with my cute PIGLET (; i want to sleep.

nothing to say about school . not so fun today . so sian de , hahas. then after school stayed in class to do my math ws7 & wait fer PO . btw , mr huang came to our class today . HAHAA , but actually hes not that good looking lah . just take a closer look lors. haa , after school . that MR RETARDED + psycho = ronnie kept making me . you bakaru ! hahaa ,

i didn see him in school today , soooo i dontknow wad. haa

my contact almost came off from my eyes. too dry le , almost everyone stand around me . thought i crying sia -.- even mr huang also . end tha tutoring ler , went to find jeanie next door . HEHS (: then cheryl & jeanie came to my house play lohs . lalala ` so crazy . after that when they almost to go . receive a msg from HIM . yeas , another him lahs .

& mood goes super down . i dontknow how to answerrrr but still , i said sorry to him . hais , i dont want to play your feeling , okays .. hais , i dontknow how i feel . sad , guilty ? notsure . not the first time already lahs . sucks lah ! i dun wanna take revenge on him . like so unfair lah . HAIS !!! heng , got jeanie & cheryl make me laugh. create new vulgarities lohs , so funny lahh . dontwant write here , later people say i violent xD

CHERYL TRIED TO MOLEST ME in my room!
hahaa , she is very dangerous . SCARE me , PHEW .
anyhow touch touch sia. hahaa ,
joking lahs (:


tml SYF , jiayou . BAND (:
i want my belttttttt...

withlove ,
min <3

i cant cry & i dontknow why.
1 year & 3 months plus.
wo bu yao pian ni .

WAHHHHH .
cant tahan . stupid head.
STUPID headache . i need medicine.
but i dontwant to eat .
PAIN like dontknow how & my homeworks still not done yet.
I WANT TO SLEEP .
pain pain pain !!~~~

hais .
headache lahs , i felt like banging the wall and die right now okay . sians . today never see him lahs , nvm . hes not that important to me anyway . lalalas ~ morning , everything same lors . wont change de , sians leh . hahaa , then at locker there scold michelle vulgarities . then she heard till ' your papa knn no cb ' LMAO . so stupid , dirty de michelle ahh.

lessons okay lohs , abit sleepy. & i failed my math & pure geog with super low scores. i DID study ehs . i'll rather stay in 3c than in 3b , liddat i will have lesser stress than now lahs . hais , common test dun have pure geog . happppyyyyy like siao (: sat , SYF band . before that , dontknow go where also . sian halfs .

assembly , west spring idol . charmaine & jasmine compete with terry . mmm , dontknow how to say also lahs . didn really enjoy that much lohs . i only loveeee wanjun & johnson's song . hahs , nice okay ! voted fer terry nors . in the end , really is terry won . this year ws idol very cham lahs . so sian de.

after school , dontknow want to wait fer michelle anot . in the end , makan at school then headed to senja lrt station . sat there awhile , then jeanie went home . winnie came to my house. michelle came later. mark called & chat lohs . hais , life is so boring . winnie ! dont think too much le kays . && michelle also , dont think . like what i said , think of me ! MISS ME lahs . hahaa..


you never think for me .



MIN
wo yao kuai le !

rahhhhs .
hahaa , school was okay today (:
morning , reach school - go locker take books . went back to class
saw him ! & i scream lah . LOLS
so great k , make me happy lots .
cheryl scolded me crazy , you guys dont think waiwai ah .
that ' he ' is just someone i dontknow but i always notice him in school
blahhs,
one word , CUTE . xD
not equal to adorable but ugly , alright . is REALLY those kind of cute.
not very lah but soso nor.
on the way to hall , saw him again .
kept laughing lahs , i think he might think im crazy .
hahaa , nvm .
so FUN =b

pe , run run run .
damn FUNNY also .
played badminton with amanina , sulastri , nazura , cheryl & rebecca.
hahs , laugh till pengz k .
i pity rebecca alot , always been locked .
who ask her so suay !

lessons , sian !
saturday going to see band SYF .
good luck (:
but that day ,
i want to go out & mmm meet de.
nvm lahs , next time bah.

i miss michelle & winnie right now .
HELLO KITTY ! i miss you lahs.
>.<

btw , ytd night . my feelings was so luan lahs.
cause mmm . i dontknow how to explain also
but today morning wake up , everything is still tha same.
nothing changed.

i love playing in school
but NOT studying .
HEHS ((:

had guides today ,
boring . sang songs.
some very stupid ones ,
next week no guides cause common test.
wees ! ~

i want go overseas camp .
* wanted to add somemore things to 3b blogskin
but i dontknow put what eh .
suggestions ?


loves .
min

i know ...
i know my expectation for myself is very high .
but , hais.

morning , first period .
cried .
reason ; math classtest , i dontknow how to do .
felt so useless & hopeless , hais.
common test is coming - nextweek , i dontwant to fail .
hais , after test . went to toilet . came out then cry le.
i really dontknow what to do to improve my maths lah.
so stress .
chinese , 3 marks to score A1 .
but , im not satisfied . i can score A1 if i put in more effort de.
physics , failed.
ferget bout it `
two more marks to pass leh . so upset .
common test , next week ah.
so dumb lahs me . hais , sat & sun i can stay at home & revise
but i choose to go out & enjoy my life.
hais , how lahs .

i cant concentrate,
chemistry , i dont understand .
hais , i really dontknow what to do ..
really dontknow ..
hais .

--
& xj showed me his attitude .
so dulan . BRR
kaos , you angry or not happy your problem , okay !
show me your attitude fer wad lahs .
suan le .
then , F&N . HEHS xD pratical !
my left hand pain ..
yups , after school go home nor.
tired ! i want to sleep .

cheryl , dont cry (:
lovess ,

great lah ..
hahaa , im going crazy soon .
tml go school can see him again .
but , you know ..
bahhhh ):

i forgot something .
one of my close friend broke up with her bf few days ago
& now , another of my CLOSE friend stead with her boy ler.
who ahs ? who attached le ahs .
happy fer you lahs . last long okay . got him ler , cannot cry anymore .
you know who you are , mrs TAN .
is tan his surname ? =b

two attached , three single. 5 jiemeis (:
i dote on my girl-friends such as HELLO KITTY xD, my 3Bclassmates such as sulastri & amanina & those who are always there for me such as HC (:

& MY BIG BRO GO SEE MY HANDPHONE MESSAGES.
IM NOT ANGRY AT ALL, but that is my privacy .
ask me before u open it & see .
no wonder he will ask me not to be .. & etc
he wont understand too .

raining heavily today .
there was lightning , so afraid of it lahs.
saw the lightning , quickly cover my ears >.<
& felt so ..
hais .


ALONE .
min

mark , mark , MARKER PEN .
stay happy , alright .

hahaa , yea.
what we can think of is really only revenge .
you can turn to someone else .
forget bout her .


min

im so happyyyy ! HEHS (:
im finally done with 3B blogskin .
its rather simple lah , not very complicated.
& we have our 3B blog already . hahs ,
i loveeee 3B ` those who wanna view it , take the url from me at msn ,okays ?

todayyyy morning cheryl cried .
& i knew it lah . scram k , all those heartbreakers.
idiot ohkay , im so scare of guys already .
qi si wo le , you YOU YOU yes YOU !
you better dont like other girls , okay.
if you make cheryl everyday cry in school, you chammm !
seeing cheryl cry really breaks my heart. shes like another me ?
i dontknow but i understand how she feels. i guess (:
i hope she is okay right now.
guys always think that when he leave the girl
and wanted the girl to study .
they didn know if they did this way ,
the girl cant even concentrate on studies at all .
they will just cry non-stop & think alot.
so stupid ohkay , BRR . stupid guys !
& most cham is that common test is coming lah .
how is cheryl going to concentrate .
ferget it , i have no intention scolding the GUYS .
i only mean it to heartbreakers .

school was fine today (: studying math later.
tml got test. i hate maths alot
& i think i will fail it. i'll try my best to pass (:
this morning , at locker . the dontknow who . i dontknow how to spell the name.
said ' liu xue .' sort of it . it means blood flowing out .
leslie was with him too .
i guess i know what that guy is trying to say .
hais , i wont care alright . im unreasonable
& have no feelings.
i know my words were harsh that day .
HOPELESS ME .

&&
the sight of her makes me feel uncomfortable ,
the sight of her makes me jealous ,
the sight of her makes me feel weird,
the sight of her makes me feel so down .

altogether is 4 different her.
i guess all of you dont get what i mean .
nvm , not important also `

&
that prefect so cute k . hahs !
but ... SECRET =X

--

i dont believe anymore .
why do you have to explain ,
when you ... hais .

time . how long . years ? months ? hours ? minutes ? or even seconds ?
HAIS .
it's bothering me .


MIN
lovess<3s

back from plaza . went out with erhems , jeanie & jeanie's bro . i went to bangkit to take my contact first , saw jasmine & huimiang in tha lrt . reach le , take liaos go back . yup , nothing lors. after that meet jeanie at fajar lrt . then went to plaza le , go see zhang shan wei (: so cute k . hahas , so sian lahh. then went back home .

i want my handphone & mp3 ! ahhh

min <3s

* i didn know im still not numb .

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lalalas ~ meaningful (:

1. I love you not because of who you are, butbecause of who I am when I am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and theone who is, won't make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the wayyou want them to, doesn't mean they don't love youwith all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for yourhand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sittingright beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, becauseyounever know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to oneperson you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

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i want go buy my contact . BRRR , sians .
jeanie ! where are you .

i hate you ,
should you say thank you ?
(:

i wont shed any tears for you again .
i hope you see this .
thanks fer making us STRANGERS .
& block me ?
thanks fer making me to hate you .
maybe this is what you want .
im happy fer you ^^

byebye , *****


i'll be happy !
* maybe i cant even ....
---

min .

剩下没多少时间
让我再唱一首歌给你
一过了今夜世界就毁灭
我想我还有一天
可以学会如何来爱你
在来不及以前渴望来得及

闭上眼睛忍住泪别哭泣
末日前夕请留在我怀里
看太阳暗去月光失明
我只想牵你的指尖绕地球最后一圈
黑夜降临别害怕我爱你
末日前夕请留在我怀里
我在这世界最眷恋的事情
就是曾拥抱你

多想永远拥抱你
我感受到什么在剧烈颤抖
是天空或者你的手
别让任何事情打断我看着你
最后一次看着你 ...

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suddenly have tha urge to cry everything out ...

wo xiang ni ... hen xiang ni ,zhen de.
hais ..

im tired of everything.

my diary . FULL OF WORDS.
yea , all my sadness & some happiness are all in there.
my tears were dropping when im writing sad things .
im smiling when im writing the happy things down
& everything was just the past.
from december till now . im still writing..


hehs , im back from town & etc.
im tired.
went to plaza singapura, bugis & orchard
with jeanie , winnie , clement , jiahao , brian & another guy .
haa , siao hor . go three different place.
on the way there , msged heichi ask him if he wanna meet not.
if not later he say i always BUSY de.
lols
then yup , walk & walk & walk.
didn buy anything nah , no money le & im saving up .

jeanie bought lohs , winnie & i never.
i only spend money on eating.
yups , so sians. walk until my legs very pain .
at bugis , brian & the other guy went away lohs with two other guys .
i dontknow who lai de.
i only know is clement's friend de friend -.-
hahas , nvm .
after that went to orchard . fareast , walk walk
then took mrt go home le.
sit until i very sian lahs.
hahaa ,
clement is so cute , like donald duck =X HEHS.

after that , me & jeanie go makan dinner at greenridge.
now so full can (: lalala` i dun wanna grow fat.
on the way back home , say alot of things lah .
mood quite down also .
and yea , he came out from boys home le.
happy fer him lohs as friend .
(:

btw , scolded py .
that fucks unreasonable ah beng.
i dontcare lah .
talk to him nice nice , kept scolding vulgarities.
& say what dont go teck whye ,
who cares k , who like to go there sia ,
see u at there also sian half le lah..
but now okay le nor .
winnie , dont cry k . me (: smile.

& of course , my dearest jeanie.
dont think so much lah .
cherish what u have now.
, with loves.


min is TIRED =/
wang le ni shi sui `
* i think im happy . i think bah.

i wanna go be pig ler =X

---
hais ,
going out later to town with all my girl-friends.
i loveeeee my kor loads
he lend me his ezlink card cause my card no money le.
then i dun dare to ask mum fer money mah
yups , ♥ tons of love .

using kor's laptop now.
scare if later he come back , see me use will scold me eh.
hais , dontknow leh . da kor say if he scold me then he will scold him back
lalala ` mum dontknow go where le.
ytd night didn eat , dont have appetite .
then morning wake up hungry lohs .

& inorder to buy my handfone .
i think hao le , but cant let mum know . later she scold me.
this is tha only way lahs , i hve no other choices le. hais
i cant work too ah . now also not holiday.
everyday morning ask mummy cook me food.
then kesiao say i morning will hungry
then reach jelapang buy my puffs to school , recess eat lor.
after school dont eat , wait until at night then eat hao le.
yup , then liddat i will only use until $1 nor.
i really like nokia 6111 ( pink ) aload lahs , hais...
i wanna buy but tha problem is my plan haven finish lah.
dad go renew it lohs . damnnnn.. then it will be more ex lohs.
so sad lahs.. HAIS . & i even nearly cry fer it lah .

hais , suan le .
later go out and play till siao lohs.
no point saying all this when i dont even have tha money to afford it.
hais , SAD lah.
then ytd , threw my temper on leslie .
he msg me and i told him , im unreasonable and loads.
i asked him to go away . in the end, said sorry .
but he msg back say , ' fuck lah , why everytyme i kena . but still im sorry '.
i dontcare le lahs , i mean i see every guy
i also lost the confidence in them le. like got tha shadow they will hurt me or wad.
im scare le , very scare lers, hais.
so go away ok.
except fer some of my close boy- friends like heichi & eric & loads.
but at least , im not under-depression.
i only feel like vomitting at times , especially at nyte.

i can get over it very soon .
i dont need him , as if ! -.-
& michelle , can do it halfway le . why cant i ?
hahaa, i dont need to make myself like this just because of him.
hais , yup .

to my GIRL-friends ; dont worry fer me k . im fine , i wont bottled up everything to myself.

min .

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13.4.06`

im soo upset now.
& i cant get what i want.
i want my nokia 6111 ( pink ) as soon as possible.
im gonna save money and dont eat .
YES ,& i wanna get my mp3 soon too.
but tha problem is ,
where can i get all this money from.
total up is three HUNDRED plus .
so HOW .
so upset k , hais.
buy fer me ehs .
walans .

yesterday was a horrible nightmare to me.
hmm , ya . but im alright le.
only that today morning , very quiet . didn speak much .
im independent , okays .
hahaa , as if lah.
and assembly , dontknow who go put the guides pic there lah.
so fucks ugly ! AHHH . nvm ,

& now my left hand got abit of scar.
mmm.

after school , went to plaza then to my house.
all siao in my room lah .
then when we heard my mum's voice.
all chiong and go make back the things nicenice .
LOLS , damn li hai lah.
hahaa , i love my friends.
THANKS FER BRIGHTEN MY DAY UP !
tml , going to town again .
im gonaa playyyy real siao , k.
WAHAHAHA

MIN

dont expect anything to be posted here
just because its TWELVE.
i'll post in my dear dear dairy of mine.

&
scram with your fucking attitude.
treat you nice nice , you give me your attitude.
BRR
sibei dulan.

&&
make me more sad de.
is that thing .
yea , its tha past . but , i dontknow.