hahs ! back (: holidays are coming & i love love lovee them ! cause i can sleep till very late nahs . school was pretty good & fun . i love 3B :D hees ! without them , i just feel so hais ... without them , i cant even laugh in class now . yeas , they are so damn important to me now . ouhh , i wont forget my girlfriends too . hehs , this friday think going out uhs . or maybe saturday . not sure yet , steamboat :D stupid winnie want to eat & celebrate her monthsary with her ahems lorhs .

christine & her shark is so damn sweet lahs . made me so sad & depress . duhhh , nvm . our promise really became real. except winnie . i didn want it to happen but it still happens ! three of us in this month . fucks august . winnie , jia you ! yesterday had my english oral , im nervous but the teacher commented that i was quite well . so i hope i can pass lahs , my english like so damn horrible. hahaa :D

i want to ferget those pain . those pains ..

kurt kor msged me today said that he will come find us . end up , never . knew it from michelle cause i went home . didn have the mood to go crazy with them . lols , so i walked with cheryl . wenta ntuc , bought ingredients for my guides thingy . guides tshirt , nicenice :D this one week of holiday , i will just go & enjoy myself alotalot . i promise myself that (:

its not the responsibility , its not the everything .

tml will be the last day of studying in school & then thurs - teachers day , ahhh . im not sure if im going back . mmm , friday onwards holiday . next monday & tues need to go back school for maths . ass =x && im going back alone ): sadded . cheryl go for her damnnnnn relax vacation. envious envious ~

you cant see how deep the cut is , you cant see how hurt i feel , you cant see whether im really happy or not . you cant see those confidence that i have before in me is decreasing ..because you dontknow about me . you dontknow about me , nothing ...

min ! unloved :D

hais .. sometimes i really cant face it . cant lahs , its reality . nvm lahs , just like mum said before to me . its gonna be alright (: jeanie , face it ohkays . this month is really unlucky . faster get over it . love aint that great , let it all go kays . we love you , its enough already . takecares , dont pretend happy infront of me . it wont helps making you better . lets be strong together alright ? lets face it (: dont cry at night orhs . i think you will because i was liddat also . hahaa , tml go high ohkays ? loves !

ta mei you wo hai shi hen kuai le , dui bu dui ?
520 strawsheart , wasted ! this is what i got in the end ? spending my time after ndp trainings
tiring , u know !
stupid sia . im going to give my * ? haaa

sometimes , i really feel the pain and the numbness in my heart . its gonna be alright , limin ! today wenta hospital with mum & aunt . go see grandpa lorhs . felt like crying uhs . hope he is ohkay and not that xinku .


min .

backkkkkk . =b sorry people , i lost all my links code . so tag my blog for relinks . hehee , paiseh orhs . well , it all ended. didn expected it all to happen but yeas , i guess i have to face it . who ask me so stupid de. hahs , love's gone & he even said thanks to me . like wow , i gave him back his freedom & not making him xinku anymore . i felt more... relieved ? i dontknow .. but somehow it really hurts lahs . that night , many of them came to concern bout me . heyyy , i love you guys alot (: christine ! jeanie ! winnie ! stupid michelle ! veron ! sulastri ! ronnie ; bastard ! leslie ! mark ! victor ! yuanliang ! & alot alot more . thanks for being there .

so tha next day , i wenta school & sulastri asked me to cry . but i've no idea why i cant cry out . so i was like studying the whole damn day . talked to ronnie too . & during english , it all came out when ronnie said the sentence asking me to cry it all out. so i did ! ohkays , stupid -.- i wenta the toilet & i cant stop myself & then i kept scolding myself & vulgarities. sounds silly . cheryl & charmaine is with me . hahs , then this malay female teacher came in & asked me . so she talked alot lahs , but i didn really listen . hahaa , love aint that great .

ferget it , im starting all afresh . it doesnt mean that without czl , i cant live (: i will live happily ,very very happy bahs . you dont have to cut yourself to remember that you hurt me before because you are the one suffers and it couldnt do anything make me feel better inside too . yao kuai le ouhs (: zhen de yao kuai le . go find a girl who will not make you xinku & can last very very long with you . alright ? wo men hui shi peng you (:

ouhh , stop bout those irritating & sad things . school today was short lahs but i like ! xD wenta lot 1 after school with jeanie only . & we decided to make chocs . she came to my house & spend like hours did it . hehs , quite nice lahs . she make for timothy lorhs . ya , before that i saw kurt lahs . assholes , my tears are going to drop because ... uhhh . hais , lalala (x he talked to me & jeanie , but i gave him attitude . i guess . but we will still meet up & go out one day . cause im still her gan mei nahs . yups , probably -.-

i wannnt to go out this week . gonna save up & get my da kor's present . daddy one , erms.. no idea. LOL

blog soon .!

&& i love this blogskin . lols

unloved -

hehs , im now at winnie house (: heeee ! using her comp . finally done with my F&N coursework . this few days wasnt my good day , didn wanna mention bout it anymore . ouhh , & ytd i forgot to mention that i saw my ex-lovee. i admire him alot during primary school time . LOL xD , stupid sia . saw him lahs ,clifton (: hehs , & i saw him with his gf . not bad uhs , hahaa . & he became really handsome now . waved to him & then went inside tha lrt ler .

im in a very bad state now . dont provoke me , alright (:

sometimes , things just dont go my way . i felt like giving it all up .
but i'll keep on trying till the day i cant ): thanks christine fer being there . mwarks !
i may look happy , but im not . not at all ..

MIN .

i wasnt happy today . wenta watch movie with my girlfriends today . except jeanie lorhs . that kuku , cannot come out . lols , kays lah . movie , ohkay bahs . after that , wenta westmall lorhs . mark came along -.- then winnie go change her handphone . duhh ! i want my phone lahs. hais , suan le .

slack outside tha singtel shop lohs. michelle keep beat my head . hahaa , who ask me being so crazy down there .. until mark say he want to send me to mental hospital for treatment ! xD lols , i dontknow why im so crazy at that point of time .

selfish bitch . hais , such an bad person . im going crazy soon . im fucking down lahs .
leslie ! help me , where are u . call me , i wanna talk to u .

CRAZY girl , i am one .
sulastri , where are u too ? tell me what to do .
jeanie ! i miss you alot . hais ...
* you dontknow how i feel . i'll get tired too . really tired . i end school very late . maybe its an excuse to you . but it wasnt , im really tired . really really tired. u know those envious feelings i felt ? it wasnt that we stay so near. & that we can meet almost everyday. please , think for me . i'll think for you too . i cant feel your love , i cant .
not coming back .

ahh , im crying soon . hey , dont make me feel this way . hais
MIN !

i know , i know ...
but sometimes , i really wanna be alone
& i dontknow why ...

forgive me for being like this .
hais..

yea ,imu .but i wanna be alone just for today .

min , tha unloved.

envious envious envious lah ! hahaa , alot of things happen . christine , happy for u orhs . hehs & u two really very sweet lahs . hahaa , dear seh . winnie also , everyday meet him . lalala (: all this days simply study in school lorhs , i will study hard de. then after school , hang out with mark ( kb ders ) , leslie ( lame ders =x ) & all my girlfriends . without christine really very weird lahs . girl , i miss u lots . i wanna see u lahs (:

now in school using comp lohs . slack abit . need to do f&n coursework . kelian uhs ! ytd guides , was the first time release so early. happy lahs , so wenta find them lohs . ahhhh ! leslie very baichi & funny . good lahs , make me happy . LOL , stupid sia . moodswings - on the way back home .

i chose to believe you . not to betray me .

today morning , gave 45 cents to leslie cause ytd he show us his damn " sexy " show -.- hahaaa . i love all my friends . rocks lahh ! xD . maybe today after school go do history project bah . hehs

michelle is sitting infront of me . that stupid kuku idiot . LOLS

im happy with them around lahs..
this group of friends ~!

love , takecare of urself . dont sick le kays . dont be hua xin lahs . && stop smoking so much . see lohs , now sick . u suffer ehs not me . meet up soon (:

hahaa , im going to do my work now . byebye , try to update soon xD

min (:

came to blog. pretty sad ? or maybe im alright . no idea .
ima crazy girl .
tml auntie they all coming to my house . hais
sure damn luan de.

mummy's friend came to play mahjong xD
the little girl sitting beside me very ke ai ehs
hahs , (: sho pretty
like princess ehs . i hope i hope ..
i got such meimei lahs ..
like i will have -.-
maybe miracle , hahaa !

i wanna jump down tha building right now !
byebye .

u u u ! dont smoke so much kays . loveee (:


is it all my fault ?
maybe bahs , cause i started all this

ending ; *
min .

HEHS , sulastri said that she miss me yesterday . xD hee

my computer hao lers (: finally lah , today & tml not going out . sorry , zl . i know you think alot about it . but i hope u understand . yea , chat with karen yesterday bout guides thingy . theres nothing to do with it . yesterday , after school . went to plaza with jeanie & cheryl ! then cabbed back to school cause we thought we are going to be late for ndp rehersal . but in fact , no lahs . waste money . BOO !

got back to winnie's class . saw tha not romantic de & leslie at there waiting lorhs . changed to full u in toilet . damn leslie , keep cursing me to fall . i wont , thanks fer yr " concern " . xD

jeanie ah ma , u super funny lahs . climb up the stairs must slowly alright ? later u fall down , how ? hehs , then see they command lorhs . giddy lahs , under tha hot sun . end lers , went back & changed back to sch u in class . no guys lahs , so nvm lorhs .

jeanie , winnie & michelle went to plaza. left adeline , me , cheryl walked home . duhh -.- monday gt rehersal again , last one . so nvm lahs ! sians , sians , sians . doing blogskins ? not sure . plain lazy .

我不想太依靠你

MIN.